Arc 6 – Chapter 61, “――Stand Up”

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  • Ringo

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ALL RIGHTS BELONG TO TAPPEI NAGATSUKI, THE ORIGINAL AUTHOR OF RE:ZERO STARTING A LIFE IN A DIFFERENT WORLD FROM ZERO, THIS IS A TRANSLATION OF THE FREE JAPANESE WEB NOVEL INTO ENGLISH

JAPANESE WEB NOVEL SOURCE

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ーーA choice, that too a cruel one, was eating into Natsuki Subaru.

He heard the sound of something being abandoned and scorched away within the interior of his chest with a sizzling report, slowly and steadily.
That was his human nature, his emotion of trusting himself, his sentiments for『Natsuki Subaru』, various entities of such kind, were being abandoned and scorched away.

With his hands on the young girl’s throat, whilst being ridiculed by the young girl pushed down, Natsuki Subaru was made to stand in a setting of determining his own destiny,『Natsuki Subaru’s』destiny.

“ーーーー”

Heartbeats, inaudible. Though his breath was rough, his lungs were probably dysfunctional. A situation packed to the hilt to such an extent, yet not a single drop of cold sweat appeared on his forehead.
That was certainly because Natsuki Subaru’s flesh body present here was not a part of reality.

By reading the book, he did not have his entire flesh body transferred, but merely his mind had been hauledーー to make such considerations unfitting the situation, would also merely be a deed of evading reality.
And, by firing his considerations over to the other side, trying to secure transient peace was Subaru’s heart.
However, neither time nor space nor his opponent would pardon this escape route of Subaru’s.

Louis: “We~ll, what’ll you do, onii-san.”

The young girl which had been pinned down by him, laughed sadistically and looked up at Subaru, petrified, having lost his way in the choice.
Whilst peeping into Subaru’s dark eyes, the young girl flickered her tongue in order to lick those eyeballs.

Louis: “Pinning down a feeble young girl, and placing your hands on that thin neck. Gets you shivering with thrill, no? Or perhaps instead, if it’s a predisposition like that of onii-san’s​, such experiences become commonplace, is that right?”

Subaru: “ーー~hk.”

Louis: “You’re trembling, so cute. In this state, will you be able to make such an important, important choice?”

Inclining her neck, Louis, facing upwards, kissed Subaru’s wrist. That shuddering gesture and the ardour pouring from her flirtatious glance, her inhumane words made Subaru recall a certain spectacle.
That was the spectacle of the callousness Subaru had acted upon once. ーーProvided that his way of having observed it was the reverse. Not something Subaru had witnessed from his own perspective, but the field of vision of a young girl who had gotten into a confrontation with Subaru​.

The spectacle of Subaru pinning down, with a wicked countenance, and strangling the neck.
Exactly the same as the present situation, the spectacle of『Natsuki Subaru』strangling Meili to deathーー.

Subaru: “Ugh.”

ーーThe instant he realised this to be approximate to that spectacle, Subaru’s entire body, cheeks, tightened.

Louis: “ーーSo after all, there really is an occasion which comes your mind?”

Subaru: “Nons ~hk! Nonse……”

Louis: “We’re no~t speaking nonsense, you know. Instead, the one not being serious is onii-san, no? With more seriousness, earnestness, solemnity, you should love yourself.”

“ーーーー”

Louis: “A~h, yes yes. Love yourself. See, love. ーーSimilar to how the people onii-san wants to cherish hope for that, onii-san should also love himself, you know.”

With a superficial verbal tone, and words fitting identical description, a cosmetic wave of words was formed.
Did she intend to persuade him, or instead, was her faculty of sympathisising simply dead. Was this purposeful or was it simply her nature, was she jeering at him or was she consoling him.
It was vague. Louis Arneb’s way, was vague with regards to everything.

Vague, vague it was.
Louis’ words, her words were unsteady from the foundation, like leaves instably afloat water’s surface. All of them of arbitrary nature, bent and distorted, if they preferably came to a clear disposition, then this indecision itself would surely be cleared up as well.
No, just how hazardous would it be, to consider keeping her words as the premise from the very beginning.

Subaru: “Do you have the proof…… that everything should be done the way you say, and everything will happen the way you say.”

Louis: “Proof?”

Subaru: “Do you have the proof, that if I regain『Natsuki Subaru』, the me present right now would disappear……!”

Louis: “We don’t. We don’t you know. It seems we don’t. As we don’t. We don’t we’re telling you. We don’t though. Even though it seems we don’t. It seems we don’t as we’re telling you. Even though it means we don’t you know…… Will that, give you any solace?”

“ーーーー”

Louis: “It’s just going around in circles, onii-san. Even we can’t speak of what we don’t know. If we or onii-chan, nii-sama die, then will what was eaten come back, we wonder. ーーTo be honest, never returned something which we ate so we do~n’t actually kno~w. After all, we’ve eaten it up, you know.”

Saying ah, Louis opened her mouth, arraying her frightfully sharp cuspids and scarlet tongue, showing until the interior of her throat to Subaru, appealing a certain zilch.
Others’ memories, the memories of someone within others, if heisting things of such kind was to be taken under the name of『Eating』, it was impossible for physical vestiges to remain there.
However, Subaru felt the words “Eaten it up” to be terribly weighty.

Louis: “What will you do, onii-san.”

Once again, Louis questioned Subaru.
In the interval between the questions and answers, Subaru’s hands remained on Louis’ neck. Unable to pour strength, or otherwise, completely withdraw his hands, Subaru continued to cast aside the question regarding his own existence.

Subaru: “Gh, kh…… ~hk.”

Dying, was frightening. Terrifying.
However, that was a fear differing from what Subaru had tasted by『Return by Death』four times till now.
The proposition pressing down Subaru’s soul right here and now, was the death comparing and contrasting the choices regarding『Forfeiting Oneself』.

By nature, that was how what was labelled as『Death』was supposed to be.
Upon dying, the consciousness of that existence was lost, and something like an opportunity to redo was never granted.
That was why, Subaru, who continued to take advantage of having opportunities to redo upon making blunders, may not have any right to complain.
To simply be given the choice to disappear or to not disappear, and having the time to be troubled over it may itself be a luxury.

But, it was his own life.
He must choose whether he would blow that flame out or not by himself, Subaru’s heart, who had been interposed in such a situation, developed a crack by each passing second.

“ーーーー”

Subaru had already died four times in this different world. All of them, affairs within a short time frame.
Thrown into a world he was unacquainted with, meeting people he never would have met, and an instant later having to suffer circumstances difficult to avoid, chased Subaru into death.
The time he spent when he was in a conscious state, when totalled, would not even fit into two days.

It was a short, short time. ーーHowever, Natsuki Subaru also had the time of seventeen years he had lived in the world he was previously in aside from the two days of this different world.

He had a father. He had a mother. Friends too, though scarce, his relationship with them was a delicate matter and it was uncertain whether he could call them friends, but he had people whom he would at least exchange greetings with. Upon glancing back onto the past, in elementary and middle schools he had people whom he got along with, and he was also acquainted with many who resided in his neighbourhood.
Though, it did not go well. Subaru, was incompetent at life.
However, in vein of not going well, there had been a time of trial and error, though he had never been in a setting where his life was on the line, Subaru still intended to struggle upon his own stage.

Was he going to abdicate, these various times, and accumulated memories.

Should『Natsuki Subaru』return, the fact that they existed would not disappear. However, his current self, who certainly thought of those times, shall disappear.

Exchanging promises with Ram, swearing to protect Meili, etching Echidna’s forgiveness upon his heart, agressively imploring Julius to fight, affectionately trusting Beatrice, and Emiliaーー,

ーーHis self, who fell in love with Emilia, was he truly going to disappear.

Subaru: “No……”

That realisation, made the flesh body of Subaru present here on this spot develop cracks, this not being a metaphorical expression.
Crevices emerging on his cheek, fissures like a spider’s web emerged on both of his hands which were on Louis’ throat as well. He felt no pain. Neither did he bleed from those crevices. Mysteriously, present within the crevices was darkness. Not the sort possessing flesh or bones, unnatural, unending darkness.

It was in accordance with what he had conjectured, he had not carried over his flesh body of reality.
The body of the Subaru present here was not real. And since it was not real, the current sentiments of his heart directly manifesting, Subaru’s body developed fissures, and was shattering.

The crevices expanded, the surface came unstuck and fell.
That was certainly, the body of deceit called『Natsuki Subaru』which Natsuki Subaru had been wearing.
Alongside that which detached and fell in large drops, even his bluff came unstuck and fell.

Subaru: “No, no, no…… no…… ~hk.”

Louis: “That’s right. It’s natural, you know.”

Shaking his head in refusal, he denied the fear of the death awaiting himーー no, the fear of forfeiting.
Why, must he vanish. His self, who had just recognised that he was in love with the person he loved.

Subaru: “No……”

Louis: “Hm hm. We get it. We quite do get it. As we get it. We do indeed get it.”

Subaru​: “No, I refuse…… ~hk.”

Louis: “It’s onii-san’s life, after all. Why must you surrender it to others, you know.”

Subaru: “I, everyone…… more, with everyone……”

Want to stay longer with everyone.
He was in love. He had fallen in love. Even though in the time which would not even amount to a total of two days, he had been engulfed in doubting them, thinking of killing them, thinking of running away from them, and being suspected by them.
Subaru, had fallen in love with them. Right now, he thought lovingly of them.

If he were to stay with them, if they would cherish Subaru, then he might even grow to love himself, whom he utterly loathed.
That, was what he thought. Facing forward, that was what he thought.

Even though in Subaru’s life, of always facing backward, this was, at long last, a scintillating spot of sunshine.
Why must he relinquish it.
That was something heーー,

Subaru: “……I refuse.”

Louis: “That’s right. That’s how it is. ーーThen, what do you think you should do?”

Subaru: “……I, just as myself.”

Louis: “Yes, onii-san will be, just as onii-san. That is correct. It got plundered once. It’s a game of musical chairs. The guy sitting on the vacant seat, is the king, you know.”

“ーーーー”

Louis: “The opponent who got pushed away, must exit. You have to recognise. Your own existence. You have to shout loudly, that you are real! Hey, isn’t that so!”

Directly below him, at a distance such that their breaths intertwined, widening her eyes illumine blazingly, Louis roared.
With vigour like that of snarlingーー no, as a matter of fact, she gnawed Subaru’s wrists which were on her neck, etching​ admonition and a striking pain upon Subaru.

Staring at the wavering dark eyes, Louis Arneb shouted.

Louis: “Recognise! ーー『Natsuki Subaru』is, the closest person to onii-san ~tsu!”

The howl called for him, telling him to establish oneself.
Telling him to stop doing something so foolish as dying for the sake of someone.
Why, must there be a need for him to sacrifice himself for the sake of someone or the other.

ーーThat too, for the sake of having his self who wasn’t himself, who named his self as him, meet the people he loved, whom he won’t be able to meet anymore.

All for the sake of him ceding the time he had spent with them, the priceless days difficult to ever obtain.
As if he would allow himself to do, something so foolish.

Louis: “Well the~n, kill him! Let’s kill him! Let’s go ahead and kill him! You have to kill him! Do kill him! If you kill him! Let’s end up killing him! Just kill him! End up killing him! If you can only kill him! If you kill and crush him!”

Subaru: “『Natsuki Subaru』will……”

Louis: “Onii-san is this universe’s one and only, not a substitute article for anyone, Natsuki Subaru!”

Subaru: “ーー~hk.”

This universe’s one and only, not a replacement for anyone, Natsuki Subaru.

Holding hands with Beatrice, striking persiflage with Ram, making Meili pout, being astonished by Shaula’s frankness, exchanging smiles with Echidna through frivolous conversations, entrusting his back to Julius, receiving Patrasche’s gratis love, attaining the right to live, with Emilia.
If the one who possesses those was『Natsuki Subaru』, then by Subaru’s hands, that man shall.

“ーーーー”

Tears building up, his field of vision was blurred by the sentiments welling up within of him.
His mind had a direct impact on his flesh body. The beating of his heart, his breathing through aching lungs, he could unmistakably feel them vividly right now.
However​, what he could feel the greatest right now, were his irresistible tears wielding no answer.

Whether that was rage or grief, envy or jealousy, guilt or fear.
Just, what was the cause of this violent emotion, Subaru did not know whatsoever. There was lots he did not know. However, with his field of vision fogged by those tears, Subaru looked.

“ーーーー”

Someone, was overlooking Subaru, Louis.
Staring at the teary eyed pathetic Subaru, who had pinned Louis down and had his hands on her neck.
Whom that could have been, within what all Subaru’s mind could grasp, it could have been only one person.

Subaru: “……Did you, appear because you got scared of me,『Natsuki Subaru』.”

“ーーーー”

The blurry shadow of a person said nothing.
Standing on the white floor, the white world behind its back, the form veiled in gaze of white, was watching Subaru.
Subaru, with his face soggy, informed the existence who had panicked and abruptly appeared forth.

Subaru: “I will…… I will, not disappear. I don’t want to die. That’s why, I……”

“ーーーー”

Subaru: “Want to stay together with everyone. I love everyone. That’s why, I am……”

“ーーーー”

Subaru: “That’s why, I am……”

As though an excuse, his complaints stockpiled.
Same as when he had put his hands on Louis’ throat. ーーSubaru had concluded, that he didn’t want himself to disappear. That’s why, what he did now was conveying that to the shadow of a person which had appeared.
That also meant that he would, with certainty, kill the opponent before of his eyes, who possessed an identical visage as himself.

After all, he is,『Natsuki Subaru』is, the closest person to him.
That is why, Subaru must be in possession of that right.

Natsuki Subaru, shall kill『Natsuki Subaru』, and the single spot of sunshine shall beーー.

Subaru: “That’s why, I am, not you! You and I are……”

Different, he tried to convey that clearly, and sever the possibility.
That had been the moment, he had tried to do so.

Louis: “……Who, are you talking to, onii-san.”

Dumbfounded, eyes dilated, Louis questioned with an expression as if her conversation had been stalled.
She inclined her neck and glared in the same direction as Subaru, and tried to look at that shadow of a person. However, she knitted her eyebrows in doubt and grimaced, and as her sharp canines quivered,

Louis: “ーーNobody, nobody’s​ there, but still, who are you talking to, onii-san.”

“ーーーー”

With her fangs rattling and trembling, Louis whispered so with an expression of disbelief.
In refusal, she erased her expression until then, and made a face like that of being frightened by something,

Louis: “This is, our place…… no hindrances are supposed to get in, and yet. In this place, talking to someone aside from us…… just stop. Onii-san is our, our…… ~tsu!”

Louis words, they clung onto him, however Subaru’s​ awareness did not move a bit.
Subaru’s awareness, had focused all concentration on the yet present shadow of a person in his field o vision, not having vanished. His field of vision blurred with tears, the wavering shadow of a person, its contour and features became ever so slightly clear.

Who was it, he had no idea whatsoever.
That shadow of a person whose contour and features gradually got clearer, to Subaru seemed as though it was smiling.
Shaking his head, blinking with strength, he tried to look at that diminutive smile with further clarityーー,

???: “ーーWhy, are you trying to choose only one of the two?”

A question, was raised towards him.
With a voice he had never heard before, with the voice of someone, who was not supposed to be here.

Whom he had never seen smilingーー a young girl of blue hair, had been standing there, smiling.
That smiling young girl, whilst continuing to smile, towards Subaru who had sunk in silence saidーー,


???: “ーーStand Up!!”


ーーHer commencing words.
ーーThe young girl, with the utmost relentless voice in the world, shouted at Natsuki Subaru.


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???: “ーーStand up!!”

The voice, vanquished the cracking Natsuki Subaru, scourged him, and knocked him down.
Without mercy, without hesitation, the bellow shattered Natsuki Subaru, and accelerated his cracking. ーーAs if, talons artlessly stabbing into his naked heart.

???: “Stand up!”

The young girl of blue hair, raised her voice facing Subaru.
Glaring at Subaru, the young girl, with a loud voice, howled. Howled. She was howling.
At Natsuki Subaru, who remained on his knees, who had pinned a young girl down, and had fissures emerge on his dumbfounded face.

???: “Stand up!!”

Her bellow, repeated.
Limitlessly and endlessly, callously and inconsiderately, it knocked Subaru’s heart down.

Why, must such words strike him.

It was painful. It was hurtful. It was excruciating. It was sorrowful. His heart, even now, was on the verge of shattering.
Never in his life, had he been struck with such agonizing decisions from one to the next without even having prepared his heart beforehand. ーーHe had somehow stopped lamenting that crisis.
That was why, at the very least, he had arrived at a conclusion. That is why, was it not just fine anymore.

???: “Stand up!”

The young girl before his eyes, by no means approved of the complaints, the obstinate conclusion, the heart afraid to forfeit, making Subaru’s heart cower. Laded with a resolute purpose of rejection, she piled up the potent words.
He had made the decision. Could she not just affirm it. At the very least, show being troubled over it. It was alright, was it not. He had been troubled sufficiently. Yet, the young girl went so far, all for the sake of having Subaru be.

???: “Stand upーー!”

As his heart continued to shatter to fragments, she did not pardon Subaru, who had made the decision.

???: “Stand upーー!”

Was she, still going to say that.
Why, was this young girl, this voice.
Despite it being so hurtful, so excruciating.

???: “Stand……! Stand! Stand! Stand up!”

Just who, was this young girl.
Just where in his reminiscences, was this young girl.

Never had he exchanged words with her. Even her reminiscences, were not present within the current Subaru.
Who was she, what kind of a person was she, he had known merely her outward appearance.
Their relationship was one such that he would not even bother giving up for her sake.

Yet, why, was his chest so warm.
Why, was there a fever rising from the interior of his chest.

???: “Stand up, Natsuki Subaru! Stand up! ーーRem’s hero!!”

The tearful voice of the young girl not present in his memories, shouted to be a hero by that voice, his heart trembled.
Subaru’s heart trembled, in such a good condition that he almost wanted to laugh, with the notion of something so absurd as that being possible.

The cracks, the fissures, continued to accelerate.
That was, quite literally, the spectacle of Natsuki Subaru tearing apart the shell of『Natsuki Subaru』.
However, what slept within that shell, only faintly varied from what was there just previously.

ーーNo, if it were to truly change, it shall from now onward.
Continuing to be wished to stand up, gnashing his teeth at his frightened heart, he stood up.

???: “If you’ve stood up, then please go. Go, and save, everything.”

Everything, what does that mean. Everything, just what did it mean.
A way of speaking far too absentminded. Just what, did everything even refer to.

???: “Everything is everything. Anything and everything. All, everyone, yourself, and the closest person to you as well!”

What’s, that.
As if something like that, is achievable. Does this girl, truly believe he was capable of that.
His self, who lacked in much, who can’t even save himself.

For the sake of the people Subaru fell in love with, for the sake of the people who cherished Subaru, for the sake of the people Subaru wished to cherish, for the sake of his reminiscences with the people he did not want to disappear.
Does she truly believe that the Subaru, who had tried to let go of merely one, is also capable of it.

???: “You can do it. After all”

After all.
After all, what.

Give me the strength, the answer. If you’re going to give them, then give them through those words.
I pray that the blue young girl’s, your words, give meーー,

Rem: “ーーSubaru-kun is, Rem’s hero.”

Subaru: “ーーーー”

Something, fell in the interior of chest.
That which had stagnated in black, as if had been purified by the echo of the young girl, seemingly a confession of love. ーーNo, not seemingly a confession of love. That had been, a confession of love.

Though once again, his reasons for not wanting to give back the place where he belongs to『Natsuki Subaru』increased.

Subaru: “ーーAh.”

At the same time, what had increased was not just that.
Purified by the words of the young girl, that which had stagnated in black gave rise to radiance and altered its very form.
And, commenced pulsating from what was the strongest desire stemming from the core of Natsuki Subaru.

“ーーーー”

It pulsated. That which had lost anything and everything, and had been deserted by entirety.
Yet furthermore, wishing, desiring, wanting to fasten and secure everything, wanting to not lose anything at all from these hands, wanting to not let go of oneself, from oneself’s own hands.
Concording with the cowardly『Greed』which implored so, it bloomed by becoming a power which granted this wish.

ーーThe Factor wandering and jolting, connected together with existence.

Subaru: “Come, ーーCor Leonis.”

Within Subaru, the seed of the『Greed』lost of destination budded.
And, standing firm, his form wasーー,

Rem: “ーーーー”

Merely the diminutive smile of the young girl of blue hair, blessed that moment.


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Louis: “ーーOnii-san?”

“ーーーー”

Looking up at Subaru, who had slowly stood up at that spot, Louis called out to him.
Pulling the hand that had been on her neck, Louis, with bafflement remaining on her expression, woke her body up from the golden bed her hair had been blanketing and blinked in seeming perplexment.

Louis: “What, happened. Look, continue the one from earlier…… continue it?”

“ーーーー”

Louis: “Continue it……”

Being told to resume, Subaru moistened his lips with his tongue.
When contemplating as an existence of mere mind, both this and temporary peace of mind were naught but meaningless actions closer to habits.
However, by that single action, he had come to notice something.

ーーHe was clear-headed to such an extent that even he himself would be surprised.

The incomprehensible chaos and frenzy until a moment ago, just as both of them had been pulled away by waves, he felt at peace as if swimming in the middle of a calm sea.
That is whyーー,

Subaru: “You don’t need to say anything, anymore. I’m fed up of your gut-wrenching explanation.”

He had managed to recognise how the clod of malice which had taken the form of a young girl before his eyes twisted and distorted Subaru’s will and use it as per her own conveniences.

At what Subaru had pointed out, Louis said “Nonono” and shook her right and left,

Louis: “Gut-wrenching you say…… how harsh. Even though we had, in our own way, pro~perly thought of onii-san, and just given advice……”

Subaru: “Also, stop using words I know for purposefully making it seem sarcasm about myself like this. Even if you try to shake me like this, it’s of no use. ーーThe present me, will no longer waver.”

“ーーーー”

At those words, Louis straitened her eyes. Surely she was unaware of the details of what changes had occurred in Subaru’s​ self. Even Subaru did not specifically know.
However, the『Greed』which shall not waver by anything, had decided upon Natsuki Subaru.

Subaru had also defined himself.
Into the form wished by the young girl, who had shouted at none but the Subaru of that moment.

“ーーーー”

Subaru glanced at not Louis, but the side opposite to her.
There no longer was the form of her, who had not too long ago faced Subaru and smited him with words relentless. The moment Subaru stood up and faced forward, she disappeared.
But, perhaps, that was fine.

The reunion with the young girl, was not to take place here, and neither with Subaru.
No, that was not exactly accurate either. Merely, the one to reunite with her, must be the Natsuki Subaru who has recovered his memories with her, his feelings for her.

And, there was no need to form a distinction between that『Natsuki Subaru』and Natsuki Subaru.

Subaru: “I was told…… time and time again, still huh.”

ーーHe had been told, that even after losing his memories, Subaru was Subaru.

When he stubbornly used to think that there was a precise, distinct disparity, that he must differentiate, those had been Subaru’s encumbrance, chains of curse.

But, so what.

Right now, from Subaru’s perspective, who had ascertained what he must do, that was a guidepost, a thread of hope.
It shall surely light Subaru’s path until he pulls it in, reels it in, gets closer, and reaches the place where the people whom he cherishes, who were holding the front of that thread were.
That was whyーー,

Subaru: “Put away your knife and fork, you food-thieving escaped fugitive. There’s no noodle soup for you here.”

“ーーーー”

She widened, her eyes.
Louis Arneb widened her eyes, staring at Subaru who had a finger pointed towards her. And perceiving the absence of even the slightest sympathy in Subaru’s expression, she cast her eyes down.

Louis: “A~h……”

Her eyes cast down, she leaked a husky sigh.
That had been a sigh conceived with emotions highly difficult to delineate.
Louis, who got her body up, had her shoulders shake, drew her knees towards herself, and curled up atop her golden carpet.
And, slowly elevating her face which had been cast downwardーー,

Louis: “ーーA~h, shit, shit, shit. A single step more, a single step more was left, and yet.”

With a gaze brimming in abhorrence, Louis glared at Subaru and wrung that out with a voice as though casting a curse.

“ーーーー”

Louis: “A single step more was left and yet, huh. Why, how come, did it fail, huh. ーーWho, tricked onii-san, huh.”

That was a tone of voice which reached a murky conclusion, hatred towards isolation like that of the dead from the depths of hell envying the way of being of the living celebrating paradise above ground.
With a voice filled with such resentment, Louis resumed.

Louis: “With a single step more,『Natsuki Subaru』and Natsuki Subaru could’ve been completely torn apart and yet……!”

Subaru: “……What’s up with that. Why’d you do something like that.”

Louis: “ーーIsn’t it obvious, because we can’t eat the same human twice ~tsu!?”

Subaru: “ーー~hk.”

Painting out Subaru’s dubious voice, Louis screamed with a cracking voice as if vomiting blood.
She set her limbs on that spot and then stood up, and with an expression completely changed from what it had been until thenーー with a countenance like that of a beast which had lost its human kindness, she glared at Subaru.

Louis: “It each had to be separate! The『Natsuki Subaru』who got eaten once, and the Natsuki Subaru left to be eaten each had to be separate. For that, we had concentrated attention on this plan or that and yet…… it was all stupidity! Laughable, isn’t it!”

Subaru: “……I won’t laugh. It’s not funny, not one bit.”

Louis: “Is that so? Is that really so! But, onii-san also hates us, isn’t that right? Isn’t it fun to see our hated self being sad? It must be feeling good, right? Even though onii-san would have…… only you would have fulfilled us, who’ve gotten sick of eating…… by only you, us of『Satiation』could’ve ~tsu!”

At Louis, her eyes bloodshot, Subaru whispered “Satiation” within his lips.
If he had not misheard her, the title she had named herself as was supposed to be『Gluttony』. Why would that now turn into something like『Satiation』.
In front of Subaru, who was perplexed in that manner, Louis shouted, saying “To begin with!” whilst looking up into the white sky.

Louis: “Both Ley of『Gourmet』! And Roy of『Bizarre Eating』! Know absolu~tely nothing! From one to the next, thoughtlessly unbridledly eating messily like a bunch of idiots…… for our sake, who are locked up here and don’t have the freedom to choose? Don’t make us laugh, hopeless siblings ~tsu!”

Embracing and bringing her yellow hair close to her, Louis disheveled her body and spat.
Her words, Subaru, whilst standing straight, was unaware of all what they meant. Ley or Roy, those which she had brought up, could they be names, perhaps.
However, the existence of『Gluttony』, memories, there were certain things he could discern from themーー,

Subaru: “You, get together with your comrades and things like people’s memories and, names…… is it fine to notate it as that? At any rate, you go around stealing things like that. Go around eating things like that. Isn’t that right?”

An instance of getting his memories eaten, and forgetting who his own self was would be Subaru.
An instance of getting his name eaten, and being forgotten by the surroundings and lamenting would be Julius.
And, perhaps getting both sides eaten, forgotten by the world and falling into a slumber never to awaken from was Rem.
All of them, were deeds of『Gluttony』, of Louis, and her comrades whose names got brought up earlierーー,

Subaru: “Why the hell are you all doing something like that? What is the goal, of all of you?”

Louis: “ーーIt’s to become happy.”

“ーーーー”

Made to hear the immediate reply, Subaru halted his breath.
Paying no heed to his reaction, Louis resounded her teeth by clattering them with seeming instability of mind,

Louis: “It’s to become happy. What other goal is there? To become happy is the goal of living, isn’t it? Or, did you think that our loathed self had distorted away from that? Wrong. That’s wrong. It’s wrong anyway. As it’s wrong. Certainly it is wrong. As it’s too wrong. It seems it’s wrong. As we’re telling you it’s wrong! A~h, our soul hurts…… ~tsu!”

Subaru: “What’s the connection between, the goal of becoming happy and stealing others’ memories……”

Louis: “ーーSa~y onii-san, have you ever thought life is unfair?”

Subaru: “I have.”

Louis: “Awa ~tsu.”

Her teeth into the back of her white hand, Louis questioned Subaru. When Subaru nodded his head in agreement as a matter of prompt judgement, Louis loathsomely laughed saying “Of course”.
Whilst deriding, she had her hand with impressions of her teeth crawl up her slim chest.

Louis: “We have, too. Rather, life is unfairness itself. Can’t choose birth, can’t choose parents, can’t choose the environment, can’t choose the future, not a single thing can be chosen. Always, it’s made to be a system of that kind. It’s being atop a belt conveyor.”

“ーーーー”

Louis: “ーーBut, what if that wasn’t the case?”

In front of the silent Subaru, Louis tilted her neck.

Louis: “What if birth could be chosen? What if parents could be chosen? What if the environment could be chosen? What if the future could be chosen? What if all options were as per imagination? ……Everyone, would choose a better life, isn’t it? Is that wrong?”

Subaru: “That…… may be true but.”

What was the associativity between that and Louis and the others’ crimes, Subaru pondered.
However, Louis clang her teeth at that doubt of Subaru’s,

Louis: “ーーThat’s it.”

Subaru: “……Ah?”

Louis: “If birth could be chosen, if parents could be chosen, if the environment could be chosen, if the future could be chosen, if all options were as per imagination, everyone would choose a better life. ーーThat is why, we are taking time and making utmost effort, and searching the greatest life for us.”

“ーーーー”

Louis: “Surely, it is somewhere ~tsu! Where we can live with our head held high, like us! A future filled with roses, such that we’d think we were glad to have lived this life! Until the time of fortuitously meeting that destined life, we’ll eat, crunch, chew, lick, suck, indulge, gluttonous drinking ~tsu! Gluttony ~tsu!”

Her eyes dazzling blazingly, Louis Arneb shouted her lovely ambition out with a roaring voice.
She truly believed, from the bottom of her heart, that this was pursuit for happiness, that this was the sole way for her to grasp the supreme future for herself.

Louis had not discovered any hopes, any expectations for her own life.
For in her mind, the life of the young girl named Louis Arneb had been inferior in its initial disposition. The starting point had been incorrect. ーーThat is why, she wanted to negate that.

She wanted to win and gain her self who was abound in birth, parents, environment, future, talents, everything.
She had defined precisely that to be an indispensable condition, for enjoying life to the maximum.
That is whyーー,

Subaru: “For that, you steal the memories of others, and eat them……?”

Louis: “Once the desired life is found, by affixing the『Memories』and『Name』, we will live that life with our head held high. Unfortunately, as of now, everyone’s been omitted from being selected…… there had been lives which were on the right track but, you know, we won’t be satisfied by a few meagre experiences.”

Speaking enthusiastically with a trembling voice, Louis had her finger gently crawl upon her petite body beneath her patchy clothes, and made a charming gesture unbefitting her ageーー no, that was not the case.
If her, if『Gluttony’s』words were true, then she had eaten the lives of innumerable people until now, and through that had procured an amount of resources of experiences beyond what any ordinary man could physically experience.

Men, women, children, elderly, possibly leaping over the fences of even races or species, having her fill of the experiences of every possible existence, tasting them till finishing, a person who indulged in the satiation of lives.

It was just as how Louis had called herself.
She had, grown tired. Of eating the lives of others.
For her, who continued to snitch and eat the “delicious parts” of the lives of all kinds of people, all possible happenings were stale articles, the same hackneyed events with nothing novel to them.

But, just as when he understood Louis’ mental state, he also discovered something he could not understand.
That wasーー,

Subaru: “Then why did you, who practices such an unbalanced diet, go as far as to use that pain in the butt measure to try and chew me? Is it your obstinacy as a food fighter, something like never excusing what was left to be eaten?”

Louis: “It’s not such a silly reason. ーーIt’s because onii-san, is our destiny.”

“ーーーー”

Whether he should accept that at face value and that it seemed as if he was being made fun of, with those thoughts Subaru glared at Louis with rage and vigilance.
However, Louis’ pupils looking at Subaru, present therein was no falsehood in their ardour. She truly was deeply in love with and yearned for Subaruーー precisely, Subaru’s『Life』.
The reason beingーー,

Louis: “Men and women of all ages, all kinds of humans, races, positions, anything and everything, leaping above it all and having eaten all kinds of things are us, but there’s a single thing, which is unknown to us. Do you know what it is?”

Subaru: “What might it be. I don’t know. My good-for-nothing self’s way of grieving or something?”

Louis: “ーーIt’s the experience of『Death』.”

Subaru, with one of his eyes remaining shut, halted all movement.
Whilst intently watching that Subaru, Louis lifted up her slim arms and pointed both her palms towards him.

Louis: “No matter how many of others’ memories are eaten, it’s impossible. Only the memories of『Death』, can never be obtained. After all, isn’t that the way it is? Memories, are the record of the period of living after all. That’s why, something like the memories of the time of dying don’t exist. ーーOnly onii-san, is an exception.”

Louis seemingly envied, jealoused, deeply loved, yearned for the power of『Return by Death』from the innermost depths of her heart.
The young girl who had grown tired of this world, was deeply in love with and yearned for the man who conferred upon her the solitary fresh moment.

Louis: “Hey hey, what does death feel like? It’s surely rough, right? It’s agonizing, right? It’s terrible, right? It’s painful, isn’t it? There was also a time when it didn’t hurt, isn’t it? Some say it feels good, is that true? When dying, do you actually always feel delighted? Or, do you stop caring anymore? An easy victory? Hey, hey hey, heyheyhey!”

Subaru: “……If you, have my memories of everything till yesterday, then shouldn’t you be knowing all that.”

Louis: “As memories, you see! But, on second thought that is old, as it’s not real! We want a more raw experience. We can’t be satisfied by a reused stale ingredient. What will satisfy us, is a new, fresh and juicy state of mind nobody is aware of ~tsu!”

Resuming her words, saying that is whyーー,

Louis: “The sole special memories in this world, which nobody else can experience! Not just that, but the simplicity of just quickly dying and redoing upon making a mistake! Even upon finding the greatest life for oneself, there’s always the possibility of ruining it by some sort of failure, isn’t that right? But, if it’s onii-san’s life then that isn’t there! It’s alright, we’ll do it well such that nobody will find out!”

“ーーーー”

Louis: “Neither Emilia, nor Beatrice, nor Ram, nor Meili, nor Julius, nor Echidna, nor Shaula, nor Patrasche, nor Petra, nor Otto, nor Garfiel, nor Frederica, nor Lewes, nor Roswaal, nor Clind, nor Annerose, nor Felt, nor Reinhardt, nor Grandpa Rom, nor TonChinKan, nor Crusch, nor Ferris, nor Wilhelm, nor Ricardo, nor Mimi, nor Hetaro, nor Tivey, nor Priscilla, nor Al, nor Schult, nor Heinkel, nor Kiritaka, nor Liliana, no body no one no body no one no body no one! Deceiving them all, we will live happily!”

Making both of her hands, which had been pushed out, project so that they were holding out to him, Louis adorably tilted her head.

Louis: “That’s why, please. ーーLet us eat onii-san’s life, such that we fill our stomach?”

As though pleading, the young girl, from the multitude of memories possessed by herself, must have unmistakably chosen the plead, the dependency utmost befitting of this place.

Proof that no matter what kind of ingredients are gathered, should the cooking skills be poor it’ll amount to nothing.
There had been a wise saying which Subaru liked, it’s not that the ingredients are bad, it’s merely the cookery that is bad.
Never had he realised that to this extent.

Innumerable, multitudinous, numerous experience points ordinary humans could never possess.
Never had Subaru come across an existence, so wasteful and squandering.

Subaru: “ーーYou won’t get a third chance. My anguish, my death, my life, everything belongs to me. There’s not a single thing, which I’ll give you!”

“ーーーー”

Subaru: “Starve to death, bloody bastard. If you can’t choose but a single way to die in life, then that’s what I’d suggest to you. ーーSuffer the most, in this whole world.”

Gesturing a slash on his own neck with his thumb, Subaru asserted so.
In response to those words, Louis rounded her eyes then looked at both of her hands. And then, covering her face with those hands, looking up into the white sky, she groaned “A~a~a~a~a~h”.

Louis: “We, failed. We did fail. We ended up failing. So we did fail. We did end up failing. We quite indeed ended up failing. We ended up failing isn’t it. As we ended up failing…… a~h, a~a~a~a~a~h.”

With teeth clattering and knees quivering, Louis sunk down to the floor at that very spot.
Her genuinely being astound, was testimony to her coaxing Subaru with equal seriousness. Since the result of that seriousness was that wording, the style of failure of her spiritual nature held no need to be pronounced.
Neither did Subaru, rescind his gaze suggesting serves you right whatsoever.

Subaru: “I won’t become as you wished. My name is Natsuki Subaru, the name given to me by Natsuki Kenichi and Natsuki Naoko. ーーNothing else. I am myself.”

Louis: “Even though it may get overwritten, and disappear?”

Subaru: “I’ll teach you a magic spell. ーーThat is that, this is this.”

The magic​ spell he had struck Julius with, this time he shall face himself and strike it.
Should『Natsuki Subaru』be recovered, the Subaru of this moment may disappear. However, it’s also possible that he may not disappear. There may be a way to not erase him.
He may somehow find a way, to share the single spot of sunshine.

Subaru: “I, who enter into others’ hearts with shoes on via speaking bluntly, have no need to be mannerless and occupy the spot of sunshine either. That’s my answer. Cut your hair, stupid.”

Declaring a remark suggesting an act of abandonment, Subaru turned his back towards Louis.
He directed no vigilance towards the young girl sunken to the floor, holding her head. Right now, a way to return from this incomprehensible space was more important than that.
As quickly as possible, he must return to Emilia and the others, and once again tackle Reid’s『Book of the Dead』.
To begin with, why to this place, would Reid’s『Book of the Dead』ーー,

Louis: “ーーA~h, enough. So there’s no choice but to leave the rest, to onii-chan and nii-sama, hu~h.”

“ーーーー”

Behind the pondering Subaru, Louis revealed as though grieving.
Hearing that, Subaru, who had his ears on the floor and was knocking the ground, turned around. Louis was lying sprawled atop her own golden hair, covering her face with her palms, flapping her legs.

Onii-chan and, nii-sama.
Bynames Louis had often mentioned. If that was, just as how Subaru imaginedーー,

Subaru: “ーーLey and, Roy.『Gourmet』and『Bizarre Eating』?”

Louis: “We can’t exit this place. That’s why, unless onii-chan and nii-sama kindly eat, we can’t choose what to eat either…… That’s why, we made a request.”

Subaru: “Request……”

Ruminating the words of a bad premonition, Subaru prompted the other side of those words.
He felt Louis took awfully long to vomit out the continuation of those words. Before long, as if tracing Subaru’s impatience, Louis’ red lips quivered,

Louis: “Isn’t this the second time, onii-san has come here since last night. ーーThat’s why, both onii-chan and nii-sama, both of them have noticed. About where, onii-san is.”

“ーーーー”

ーーIt was made clear, those two menaces now drew near『Pleiades Watchtower』.

Louis: “Both of them, said they were keenly interested in onii-san, you know. That’s a matter of course. ーーBecause you kno~w, onii-san is abundantly doing experiences which they have never tasted before.”

Subaru: “Sh, it……! You…… ~hk.”

Louis: “ーーA~h, how unfai~r.”

Louis casually whispered so, upon Subaru’s shivers, having gotten to know that truth.
Louis’ whisper, possessing no chain of logic, even Subaru immediately understood what it meant.

Subaru: “Is this, an outlet!?”

Behind Subaru, who had turned back, a fissure was generated in the white space and its other side was visible, though flickering.
A clear physical disorder, an inconceivable leap through space originating within.
Inspired by Subaru’s purpose, that he must return to the library.

“ーーーー”

Louis: “You cannot. Onii-san can never. Though we wanted you to, you know.”

The existence of the outlet, before he could sail across it, Subaru wavered over Louis’ treatment.
Whether it be the sequence of events of him strangling her neck, and thereafter, also including her attitude once her ulterior motive had been made clear, it was perhaps true that she possessed no combat power greater than what her appearance suggested.
That is why, Subaru ending Louis in this place should physically be possible.
Thinking about that, for naught but a single instant, the moment he directed his troubled gaze, his true motives got seen through.

Louis: “Even if you suspect, even if you despair, you can’t kill yourself, others, or even those whom you loathe. Spineless coward. ーーEven though, we licked you gently.”

Subaru: “ーー. Well, your teeth must’ve gotten spoilt. Get them remedied, stupid.”

Subaru declared with his middle finger raised, at Louis who made a provocative expression.

Without seeing through until Louis felt ashamed by those words, Subaru tried to insert his body into the fissure in space. At that moment, that lone instant, he yielded faltering.

It was not as if he felt sorry for Louis. He felt relieved at the thought of not having to see that face again.
What Subaru felt sorry for, was not his parting with Louis, but the voice that made Subaru stand up.

For that instant alone, the young girl who had appeared, only to enliven Subaru.
Having gotten her memories and name stolen, the sole young girl who consequently called out to Subaru at the extremity of the world.

Subaru: “It’s alright. ーーI remember, the promise.”

Natsuki Subaru, shall certainly never forget that.
That is why, certainly, they shall meet again.

ーーRuminating that he would like to hear, not merely her stern voice, but also her tender voice then.

“ーーーー”

Enthusiastic for that, Subaru had his body leap into the fissure, in order to return under his comrades.


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Louis: “A~h, a~h, a~h, God damn it! Not even turning around, what a man ~tsu!”

Louis: “Won’t excuse you. Won’t let you escape. Absolutely, absolutely…… ~tsu!”

Louis: “Don’t think it’s over with this, Natsuki Subaru…… ~tsu!”

Louis: “Your life, belongs, to u~u~u~sーー ~tsu!!”


 

59 thoughts on “Arc 6 – Chapter 61, “――Stand Up””

  1. I guess With this
    Al identity Is the spirited away subaru
    Alot of things will make sense with this
    Alot of things about Al will click together with This.

    Don,t you agree

    1. Subaru is only proficient in Yang magic not earth magic, there’s also a problem of 20 years gap. I don’t think the author is going to add going back in time stuff nor do I think the author is skilled enough to pull it off.

      1. I agree on the point that Al probably isn’t Subaru but this imo this author is skilled enough to pull anything off.

      2. Actually he is. If you are here reading this, it means that you fell for it. The going back in time stuff, is actually the only reason this story can take place

      3. The Magic Affinity has something to do with the mechanism known as od lagna probably . Od lagna can’t recognize reincarnation , doppleganger since od lagna is fair and just . Therefore if subaru hypothetically was transported multiple times into the Re:Zero world , Od lagna would randomly choose different affinity for him . Just a half-hazard guess though .

    2. No, I don’t believe that Al and Subaru are the same person. Yes they both are Isekai’d and have similar time-based abilities, but I don’t believe they are the same person.

  2. Hmm, no detrimental effects from accessing Greed like there was with Sloth. Some of those memories leaking backing in. And did Rem’s confession, her open dedication, mean that Cor Leonis already regards her as his bride? I guess it was either Ley or Roy then who beheaded him on the third attempt. And is the suggestion that his Greed means that he can get mack everything that he was and lose nothing that he currently is? Gah, moar chapters!

    1. Oh, so that’s why the Witchbeasts raided the Tower. No big coincidence; Ley and Roy incited them through Gluttony’s influence. And then they can enrage Shaula as well? That’s… a major problem if they can.

    2. here subaru activated greed authority, or to be more precise overcome the sin of greed transforming it into something more like a blessing, exactly like he did with sloth(after rem gets eaten he overcome it) and pride (i will definitely save you from arc1), warping the sin of greed from want them all to ready to loose everything for the sake of everyone.

      1. mmm, me parece bastante interesante y factible. independientemente de eso, me gustarìa saber còmo explicarìas esto. ¿por què subaru dice “Ven, Cor Leonis”? es a causa de que se filtraron recuerdos? ¿o como mas adelante que simplemente le hizo caso a su cuerpo?.

      2. Rather than ‘being ready to lose everything for the sake of everyone’, its ‘wanting to save everyone even if he has to lose everything’

        Its a small and subtle difference, but there is a difference that is crucial for it to be considered as part of the authority of ‘greed’.

    3. The detrimental effect of greed authority is stopping the heart no? Geuse started to go “crazy” just like Subaru when he used authority, felt that intense pain and bled from his eyes. So I think the price for each authority is different.

      1. I think she has been written put of the story long enough at this point, I really want her back too.

  3. Even without his memories, Subaru’s feelings towards Emilia and Rem (as well as his beloved others) subconsciously didn’t change. And I think Rem’s confession here as well as Cor Lenois activating after said confession could possibly hint that it recognizes the love that Subaru and Rem have for each other and regards Rem as Subaru’s lover. I really hope we get Rem back soon. She’s been gone way too long now.

      1. I strongly agree as well, after saving him once more, Rem truly deserves love and happiness from him I can’t wait for her return

    1. I think cor leonis activated through his greed of wanting everything back at the same time of maintaining his current self.

  4. I haven’t cried like this in a long time. I really, seriously want Rem to come back now. It has been enough without her. I’m expecting to cry just as i did this episode when Rem comes back and meets with Subaru after such a long time.

      1. you do know nothing is going to happen between them unless emilia says yes and she wont because she doesn’t believe in polygamy

        1. Remains to be seen. After he’s been through so much for Rem, it won’t just end with Emilia saying “lol no”.

          1. It’s important what Subaru says about how he feels. Regardless of Emilia’s answer, I think it all depends on Subaru.

  5. I didnt understand anything. Why was she hiding in reids book? Was she waiting there as a trap for subaru? Did he escape using his force will?
    Also, why didnt he ask about the problems of Rem, Julius, etc?

    1. i think leo and roy eat memories and send them in the hall of memories for louis maybe because of subaru rem come out of the barrier which was actually traping her memories their

    2. It’s because his Cor Leonis could sense everyone on his team, so only Subaru that recognizes her. That’s why Louis couldn’t see her.

  6. Neither Emilia, nor Beatrice, nor Ram, nor Meili, nor Julius, nor Echidna, nor Shaula, nor Patrasche, nor Petra, nor Otto, nor Garfiel, nor Frederica, nor Lewes, nor Roswaal, nor Clind, nor Annerose, nor Felt, nor Reinhardt, nor Grandpa Rom, nor TonChinKan, nor Crusch, nor Ferris, nor Wilhelm, nor Ricardo, nor Mimi, nor Hetaro, nor Tivey, nor Priscilla, nor Al, nor Schult, nor Heinkel, nor Kiritaka, nor Liliana

    yeah we got every characters name

  7. so now why did {natsuki subaru} killed meili. will he able to understand what happend before? or that was someone else?

  8. So now Subaru also got Greed huh. RBD could be seen as Ency, envy the chance to redo, Sloth is having the invisbly short linb to do his bidding but strained inthe process thusmaking it not slothful, and now Greed, the authority that was supposed to leech from others are now a blessing/buff skill huh. Seems like Subaru’s usage is opposite to how they are supposed to work. Im more curious about Pride tho, as he is the pride candidate in the Pride If side story,thus having the bud of Pride but went dormain since Arc when he choosed to call for help…

  9. Wow this was an amazing chapter. I feel called out by Louis though, her whole “eating new and interesting memories” thing is EXACTLY like how we all consume media. I love Re:Zero partially because you don’t see a story where someone experiences death and has to live with those memories. In a way we’re all reading this story for the exact same reason Louis wants to experience Subaru’s memories. We want a more interesting life, or at least see what a more interesting life looks like.

  10. Once again, Rem’s love saves Subaru at a critical moment. Damn it, but in the end, Subaru will still say “I love Emilia” again. And Rem will be left behind.

  11. So here’s the problem. My Discord friends told me to close my eyes and scroll down till I can’t see the art cuz the art is a spoiler and this chapter is hype. So I did just that and the chapter truly was hype and I have a request. Is it okay if I ask you to put the arts at the bottom or anywhere but the top. I do appreciate your translating it’s that, I almost got spoiled that’s all. Well have a nice day.

  12. She was gone for far too long, but Rem made a glorious comeback cameo. Now if only Subaru had managed to do something to wake her up at this juncture. I know that’s probably something that’s gonna be closer to the end as a sort of reward, but if she got just her name back and could wake up, even if she didn’t remember anyone, I think it would’ve been fine without removing too many of the stakes this late into the arc.

    Also, I don’t necessarily agree with this Gluttony about everyone choosing to just have a better life. It’s just like the genie problem, people who aren’t satisfied won’t be satisfied even after they get what they ask for. It doesn’t fill that hole inside if you just get the result.

  13. First Carmilla appearing with Rem’s face, now Subaru seeing Rem upon activating Greed. How many more times must Tappei tease us with Rem before Subaru truly brings her back?

    1. Also I love that it takes Subaru all of a few days (in his time) to completely fall for Emilia again. Seems like he’s destined to love her no matter the circumstances

  14. Sooo… Does this Louis girl say that everything Subaru experienced before losing memories isn’t worth mentioning? What’s with this constant belittling the pre-amnesia Subaru for the entirety of the arc? IMO as of now, pre-amnesia Subaru had it tougher by the sheer amount of suffering… And by its quality too. But she only wants the amnesia Subaru’s memories because they’re “fresh”? So she withstood everything ma boi has been through, and only the four last deaths would break her spirit? The heck that’s supposed to mean?

  15. what exactly is the greed witch factor doing here? allowing rem to materialize? this is such a good chapter but it’s so confusing.

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