Arc 5, Chapter 73: “Thearesia van Astrea”

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ALL RIGHTS BELONG TO TAPPEI NAGATSUKI, THE ORIGINAL AUTHOR OF RE:ZERO STARTING A LIFE IN A DIFFERENT WORLD FROM ZERO, THIS IS A TRANSLATION OF THE FREE JAPANESE WEB NOVEL INTO ENGLISH

JAPANESE WEB NOVEL SOURCE

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TL Note: My heartfelt gratitude to Nanashi for her tremendous assistance and support through the course of this chapter, it would not have been possible to bring this chapter without her help. The credit is equally her’s as much as it is mine.

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ーーHow surprised would you be if you got to know, that it was actually love at first sight?

 

 

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Thearesia van Astrea was twelve years old when she received the『Divine Protection of the Sword Saint』.

 

It was a sudden and unforeseen change that begat immense distress in her life.

In the midst of her ordinary, everyday life, it abruptly swooped down upon her.

 

“ーー? Could it be, that I got chosen?”

 

This was an honest emotion, the emotion she greeted the Divine Protection with.

And Thearesia continued to keep this truth a secret for some time.

 

ーーThe renowned Astrea family’s​ forte was the sword, and had given rise to『Sword Saints』for generations and continued.

 

Thanks to the achievements accomplished hundreds of years ago by the first generation『Sword Saint』Reid Astrea, the Dragon Kingdom of Lugunica recognised the sword of the Astrea family as an indispensable existence and asset.

This tradition had been passed down for centuries, including in Thearesia’s times.

 

Henceforth, it was halfway cemented that all those born into the Astrea family, regardless of possessing the『Divine Protection of the Sword Saint』or not, were to live a life of commitment toward the sword.

This of course, appertained to her father, her two elder brothers and her lone younger brother, the youngest sibling, as well. Regardless of becoming a swordsman or attaining the Divine Protection or not, they were supposed to acquaint themselves with the sword the moment they achieved awareness of mind per convention.

 

When it came to how Thearesia, who was born into the Astrea family where this route of upbringing was natural, was maturingーー she was spending her days utterly parallel from the sword.

 

Of course, those born into the Astrea family, regardless of gender, were supposed to take the sword in their hands.

There were days when Thearesia and her brothers were all made to swing the sword under strict tutelage. There were such days indeed, but Thearesia had absolutely no notable aptitude for the sword.

Rather, it would be more so precise to say she had not even the slightest orientation for facing the sword.

 

Like many girls, Thearesia held no interest in the sword.

It was not a matter of competency. Unmotivated swordsmanship, shiftless training accompanied with a defiant attitude. It was unsurprising that her parents would eventually come to notice it was futile to make her keep swinging the sword if she continued to act like this.

 

ーーThe『Divine Protection of the Sword Saint』was bestowed only upon those who had proven themselves worthy of receiving the love of the Sword God.

 

Generations were witness, only the members of the Astrea family were capable of inheriting the『Divine Protection of the Sword Saint』. At the very least, that was the common belief, since no actual details regarding the inheritance of the Divine Protection were known.

It was only when the swordsman faced the sword with absolute earnestness, that the Divine Protection recognised him and bestowed itself upon him.

 

A girl child, possessing no interest in the sword, the firstborn daughter who continued to avert her eyes away.

It was all an inevitable course of events that as the possibility of Thearesia being the『Sword Saint』quickly diminished to abandonment, her greed of freedom was permitted.

 

Thearesia forcibly snatched her freedom from the sword training, but she too, had her own respective say with regards to it.

Of course, both her absolute disinterest in the『Sword Saint』, and failure to devote herself to the sword were causes for the shiftlessness of her training, but her greatest cause was unrelated to these.

 

ーーThearesia was aware that she had been born with the『Divine Protection of Death God』.

 

The wounds she would inflict onto others would ceaselessly bleed, incapable of healing.

Upon realising her forte lay in taking the lives of others, what took birth within a young Thearesia, was the dread of what could result from her very palms.

 

Something like sword training was perfect for augmenting her horror.

Let it be simply practice or training, Thearesia’s Divine Protection, over which she had no control, would pay no regard to the situation. Even if the wound she may inflict were to be as meagre as a scratch, the fact that it shan’t heal made it no trivial affair.

Especially considering that a wound which might accidentally get inflicted during sword practice could prove to be deadly.

 

Henceforth, liberated from the sword training, the secretive Thearesia felt alleviated.

 

To live without hurting others, was something astoundingly difficult should one remain conscious of it.

Even if one were not to intentionally, actively seek to hurt others, accidental mishaps or unwitting deeds could be committed by anyone. How could she ever determine whether the Divine Protection would activate or not, in case of getting a cut on the finger due to a piece of shattered dish.

 

The young girl named Thearesia, inadvertently eluded from having relationships with people.

If she never made contact, if she never came close, she would not have to worry about hurting people. She naturally evaded gazes, she started spending more and more time with flowers.

Having attained the freedom to discard the sword, she made a flower bed in the garden of her mansion for solitarily herself, growing seasonal blossoms there, she became a girl who loved admiring them.

 

Her brothers who used to swing the sword in utter distress, were repeatedly subject to strenuous and agonizing training.

It wasn’t as if she did not feel left out or sorry for them, seeing their figures. Merely unable to communicate about her Divine Protection, the only ones she could confide in were solely the flowers her own self had nurtured.

 

“I wonder, if someday, even I would be able to live by someone’s​ side……”

 

Her distress, her doubts, the only ones she could confide such feelings of hers in were solely the flowers as well, as their petals danced to the rhythm of the gentle breeze.

Like many people, Thearesia too was an ordinary young girl who desired to love, and to be loved.

However, days of soliloquy as she questioned whether her self, who had flouted the intents of her brothers or her parents, and had the awareness of a Divine Protection that may hurt and rob someone, had the right to stand by someone’s side, met no end.

 

ーーIn the midst of such days, the love of the Sword God was showered upon Thearesia.

 

“ーー? Could it be, that I got chosen?”

 

Without warning, that cognisance dawned upon Thearesia.

It enshrouded her far more akin to a sense of incongruity rather than consciousness like that of her『Divine Protection of Death God』.

It was natural.

To her, awareness of the Divine Protection she had been born with was a matter of course, like eyes providing vision, and ears providing hearing.

Something like suddenly gaining a new Divine Protection would feel something like the emergence of wings on her back. What could she possibly greet novel faculties that originally did not exist with, except for incongruity.

 

ーーI must not, take the sword in my hands.

 

So thought Thearesia, harbouring abhorrence and nausea towards her new Divine Protection.

She thought back to the times when she had been coerced to swing the sword. She realised how pointless, meaningless, senseless and aimless her actions had been back then.

She was now instinctively able to apprehend how to swing the sword the best, the optimum, the ideal, the finest way.

 

Her self, whose forte lay very much in killing people, now fully gained the proficiency in killing people.

 

“ーー~hk.”

 

This was terror. This was despair. This was the day the world ended.

Kneeling down, she came to realise that she was a death god who had taken the form of a girl, and that her days of impersonating a young girl had come to an end.

 

Thearesia did not tell anyone about the Divine Protection she had obtained.

She intended to conceal her possession of the『Divine Protection of Death God』and the『Divine Protection of the Sword Saint』for all eternity, and hide it within her heart that she was a monster whose only purpose was to kill others.

 

Imploring that she was unwell, she shut herself in her room in the mansion.

Forgetting to look after even her flower bed, Thearesia hid within her shell. Doing naught but sleeping, painting a childish reverie that if only one day upon awakening out of breathlessness, that it would all turn out as a dream, she continued to enclose herself in her shell.

But that was ultimately, just the immaturity of a child, refusing to face what she did not wish to face.

 

ーーIt immediately became clear, that Thearesia had inherited the『Divine Protection of the Sword Saint』.

 

“Nii-san…… The next『Sword Saint』, is your daughter. This child.”

 

The head house of the Astrea familyーー Thearesia’s birthplace, and the base of the family line of『Sword Saints』.

Stepping foot into mansion, revealing that Thearesia, curled up in her bed, would be the next『Sword Saint』was her uncle, the preceding『Sword Saint』.

 

The『Divine Protection of the Sword Saint』was an exceptional Divine Protection, capable of only being inherited by members of the Astrea family, with this trend continuing for generations.

That Divine Protection was inherited by the next『Sword Saint』from the preceding『Sword Saint』on a certain day without any prior notice. And once the inheritance was completed, the previous『Sword Saint』was freed from his responsibility, and lost the Divine Protection.

Once the current『Sword Saint』lost the Divine Protection, it was natural that the identity of the of the next『Sword Saint』would be searched for thoroughly by the kingdom.

And the previous『Sword Saint』could identify who the next『Sword Saint』was at a single glance.

 

Thearesia’s days of enclosure met their end.

 

“Take the sword in your hands, Thearesia.”

 

Having become dreadfully skinny, her hair in shambles, Thearesia was dragged out into the garden.

Barefooted, in sleepwear, with her consciousness drifting between dreams and reality, yet there she was, dragged outside by her uncle by force, and coerced into holding the wooden sword.

 

With her now skinny fingers, she gestured her resistance along with shaking her head several times.

However, the protests of her opposed self went unheard. Her uncle made her regrip the wooden sword again and again, pushing Thearesia’s back once she clutched the handle in surrender.

 

Before Thearesia, stood the eldest brother of the four siblings.

Her eldest brother, his features tender and amiable, stood there with an addled expression. His puzzlement could be understood at a glance, unable to accept the events transpiring before his eyes.

 

ーーFar too many unknowns.

 

Pondering so, Thearesia was startled by her own self ruminating so.

That confoundment directly smiting her heart, Thearesia simply kept her eyes open, speechless.

 

Ignoring Thearesia and her condition, her uncle called to her eldest brother in a deep voice.

To hold the wooden sword, and clash with Thearesia head-on, he ordered. To prove his abilities of swordsmanship by striking down and defeating his younger sister, he ordered.

 

There is no way he could do that, her eldest brother clamoured.

Her brother was very kind. He had trained strenuously with the sword, and held no dubiety in the way of the Astrea family, but her brother could be nothing but kind towards his younger sister, Thearesia.

She was afraid of hurting him, so she was never the one to initiate physical contact, but she loved being hugged and held up in her brother’s arms and that large body of his. He was a kind, kind brother.

 

Then echoed the damning voice of her uncle, calling her brother a coward.

Upon the deriding of the preceding『Sword Saint』, her brother made an expression terribly hurt by his words, who admired his form. Thearesia knew who it was that her eldest brother, her elder brother, and her younger brother admired and had thus continued to swing the sword.

Reviled by that person, her eldest brother was immensely wounded. Her two other brothers, standing at the edge of the garden having also come outside by hearing all the commotion, also made similarly hurt faces.

 

Ultimately, her eldest brother, preserving a wounded visage, wielded dreadful readiness in his eyes.

Straightening the wooden sword he held in his hands, ceding all his energy into it, he set his eyes upon his target.

 

Through the shivers in the tip of his sword, and a certain sharpness in her eldest brother’s eyes, Thearesia discerned.

Her brother, sought to knock down Thearesia’s sword using the wooden sword clutched in his own hands such that she would remain unscathed. His stance, his line of sight, and the essence of swordsmanship enveloping his body.

 

At her brother’s level of skill, it would certainly not be a difficult task against an inferior opponent.

Ample to prove his ability as a swordsman and taking the sword away from Thearesia.

 

“ーーーー”

 

Her uncle vociferated, marking the beginning of a spar neither side wished to partake in.

 

Her eldest brother bellowed vigorously, as the honed essence of swordsmanship slashed into Thearesia.

Swordsmanship with solely the strength to dwindle the opponent and control their movements. If she were not to even upraise her sword, it would be a facile affair to knock the wooden sword down.

 

From the onset, the very foundation of this fight was erroneous.

Neither did Thearesia possess any reason to fight, nor did her brother possess any reason to hurt Thearesia. With the interests of both the sides aligned, there shan’t be any discord.

Thers shan’t be, yetーー,

 

“ーーThat’s it.”

 

A wooden sword, that had been sent flying, landed on the garden some distance away, echoing a report.

Upon returning to the awestruck voice of her uncle, what was visible was the figure of Thearesia, the wooden sword in her hand lunged forward, and its edge touching the throat of her staggered brother, who let out a hoarse exhale.

 

ーーShe recalled intercepting her brother’s sword strike descending upon her, and taking his wooden sword away.

 

She then appended the edge of her sword to his neck, conveying she could kill him at any instant, proving the disparity between their proficiency.

Overwhelmed by what had transpired, her eldest brother fell to his knees. Witnessing this, Thearesia turned back, lips quivering, gazing at her second elder brother, her younger brother, and her parents who were watching the duel.

 

Expressions stunned, everyone was watching over the results in disbelief.

 

“The next『Sword Saint』is Thearesia. Indeed, unquestionably.”

 

An aver, only the solitary voice of her uncle echoed, exceedingly unavailingly so.

 

“Ah…… ah, a~h……”

 

Thearesia dropped the wooden sword she held, glanced at her hand, and then proceeded to pull her red hair with the same. Pulling them off so violently that she would bleed, giving rise to a wail akin to that of a beast, she screamed.

 

Screaming, losing sanity, despairing to the extent of vomiting blood, regretting.

Thearesia, became the『Sword Saint』.

 

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The time her brothers had devoted to the sword, Thearesia’s virtuosity with the sword had callously trampled upon all of it.

Things like time and effort dedicated held no purport whatsoever in face of overwhelming sword prowess.

 

In Thearesia’s eyes, having become the『Sword Saint』, the flaws in her brothers’ swords were pellucid. She was now rather surprised, for failing to notice these flaws at an earlier note despite spending so much time with them.

Nonetheless, in spite of the manifest disparity between their strength and Thearesia’s, her brothers continued to pitiably train with the sword.

 

Neither her eldest brother, nor her second elder brother, nor her younger brother possessed passion for anything other than the sword.

Because of having been born into the Astrea family, having grown up in a distinguished household esteemed for their swords, and having dedicated much of their life to the sword, thus even if their younger sister, his elder sister robbed them of their zenith, they had no choice but to continue resuming forth.

Despite knowing, that they could never possibly reach that territory.

 

ーーHow, truly stupid.

 

She couldn’t help but conceive that thought.

They could just do what they loved, and yet. Even though the sword did not even matter anymore, and yet.

Since they could no longer forgive Thearesia, they could just live in worlds of their own liking, and yet.

 

“Thearesia-sama, preparations for leaving are complete. It’s about time, we ought to head out now.”

 

As Thearesia gazed out the window, observing her brothers swinging their swords in the garden below, a voice called to her.

Turn around and ahead stood a young girl of identical age as her, her beautiful blonde hair cut short.

 

She was Carol Remendisーー a member of the Remendis family, acclaimed for its superlative knights, and acknowledged for her exceptional swordsmanship, she had been appointed as Thearesia’s attendant as one of close age.

 

Verily, her abilities as a swordsman were indeed exceptional.

Though a comparison she would rather not pronounce, her sword might could rival that of her elder brothers.

A solemn personality, and a devout of swordsmanship, she could not help but feel uneasy as a fellow female.

 

“Yes, let’s go. For today we have the tutoring of the people of the castle, isn’t it.”

 

“Yes. Everyone in the castle also has their hopes up for being educated by Thearesia-sama. Though of course, I also hold the same sentiment.”

 

“……I think you are sufficiently strong, Carol.”

 

“Not at all. Someone as myself, is incapable of even reaching the feet of Thearesia-sama.”

 

So elucidated Carol her own ability, as though denigrating herself.

An exceedingly idiosyncratic appraisal by Thearesia’s perspective. After all, Thearesia had never even once, upheld the sword before Carol until now. No, that was far from everything.

 

Thearesia’s hands had last held a sword on the day she sparred with her eldest brother using wooden swords.

For more than two years since, Thearesia lay not even a finger upon the sword.

 

Nonetheless, the responsibilities as the『Sword Saint』came to pass.

Her own self being the『Sword Saint』alone was a truth beyond veil. She couldn’t go as far as to inconvenience the entirety of the Astrea family, so she was willing to perform solely her duties diligently.

 

“It shall be understood upon seeing what ought to be seen. Even if I have not gotten the opportunity of seeing that form, should Thearesia-sama take the sword in her hands, she shall surely haul out strength unrivalled by anyone.”

 

She gave a wry smile in response to Carol’s conviction.

In her company, Thearesia went to tutor on-duty soldiers. Even in the name of tutoring, she had not achieved anything remarkable.

 

She would simply go around and have them wield their weapons and train, and point out flaws in their battling as always, nothing unusual.

A fearsome aspect of the『Divine Protection of the Sword Saint』was perhaps how it honed all instincts in battle. This did not pertain solely to swords. Let it be spears or axes, were they connected to battle techniques and manoeuvres, Thearesia was aware of the entirety of their strengths and weaknesses alike.

 

If the soldiers’ mistakes were pointed out to them one by one, their movements would alter to an indiscernible degree.

However, from Thearesia’s perspective, though unmistakably conduct abound in defects, even that smidgen of an alteration marked an immense difference for those untalented. Thearesia bore guilt when she was thanked, respected, esteemed.

 

I want to run away, right this instant.

I want to go away, from this place, a place where this power unwished for is requisite.

 

Just as when she had undertaken the『Divine Protection of the Sword Saint』, Thearesia despaired for the present.

She lapsed into shutting herself in her room, enclosing herself in her shell, seeking to hope for the tides of fate to change direction.

 

ーーIt may have been punishment cast upon her, for weighing her own desires onto others, for escaping her liabilities.

 

In the Dragon Kingdom of Lugunica, a clash occurred with the great demi-human alliance.

Deeply tied to the custom of discrimination against demi-humans that remained pronounced within the kingdom, in but a heartbeat, it intertwined with multitudinous years’ worth of discontentment of the demi-humans in the kingdom and flared up.

 

The greatest and worst civil war in the history of the kingdom, the『Demi-human War』broke out.

 

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Originating from the east of the kingdom, this civil war worsened by the passing day.

A small force of demi-humans at first, one which seemed easily suppressible, but the kingdom made light of the depth of relationships between demi-humans behind closed doors.

 

Furthermore, there seemed to exist those acting as intermediaries between respective races lacking relations, and the blaze of the civil war distended its radius in an instant.

The flaring vortex of warfare ceaselessly permeated the kingdom, and after an entire year of fruitless attempts of extinguishing these flames, the kingdom acknowledged this was a situation unprecedented at last.

 

“Inform Thearesia van Astrea, the current『Sword Saint』. Along with the knights and soldiers currently scuffling to subdue the civil war, great feats are expected by the lord as well.”

 

The higher aristocrats, who put together a force unlike anything before, having accepted it as a predicament of the entire kingdom, could not possibly save the strongest being videlicet the『Sword Saint』for last.

As a matter of course, Thearesia was also informed of the orders for partaking in the civil war.

 

ーーThearesia attained unprecedented despair at the arrival of the conforming inevitable.

 

This was unlike her days of selfishly refusing to take the sword.

What was expected of her now was not to wield the knowledge as the『Sword Saint』, but to wield true swordsmanship and might as the『Sword Saint』.

 

She had no choice, but to grasp the sword.

This was also the first time she had been accorded the Dragon Sword Reid, which solely the『Sword Saint』was allowed to wield across generations.

 

“However, that sword can be drawn only when it is fit to be drawn. I believe you will have to carry another sword aside from that one too. You can choose one as per your suitability.”

 

Her uncle, the former『Sword Saint』, gave her advice from seeming experience.

Her uncle, whose waist was once saddled with the Dragon Sword, was acquainted with the whimsical nature of the sword. Abiding by her uncle’s advice, Thearesia chose a single-swing longswordーー one also favoured and of habitual use by Carol, her attendant, after seeing through at once as having good compatibility with herself.

 

ーーIn her first battle, Thearesia’s first unit consisted of Carol, along with her brothers and her uncle as well.

 

Thearesia’s first battle from her perspective, though she wouldn’t go as far as to call it an opportunity for honour and altruism.

Even so, it was indisputably an event she mustn’t avert her eyes from. An ideal opportunity to make the sword of the current generation Astrea family known across the kingdom.

 

No matter Thearesia’s state of mind and heart, her surroundings progressed capriciously.

Anyone and everyone nursed an arbitrary expectation, that defeat was impossible should the『Sword Saint』be there.

 

The unrestrained, insensitive faith by those surrounding her which fusilladed upon her, terrorised Thearesia.

As always, divulging it to no one, repressing it within her heart, Thearesia simply, earnestly trembled prior to her first battle.

And, in the midst of her plightーー,

 

“Are you scared, Thearesia?”

 

Yes, the one to reach out to her with this bening voice was nobody else but her eldest brother.

As she awaited her first unit and battle in a tent, her tender brother’s words rendered Thearesia astound.

 

Thearesia had purposively been avoiding contact with her eldest brother.

No, her eldest brother had not been the only one she had been avoiding. Her second elder brother, her younger brother, as well as her parents and her uncle, she had desisted from coming into contact with all of them.

 

After a span of nigh two years, she exchanged words with her kind, truly beloved brother.

 

Lost for words, Thearesia could do

naught but resume looking downwards.

However, her brother sat down next to Thearesia, a forlorn expression bedizening her face, proceeding to hug her and gently caress her head.

Her brother’s palm, yet the same as before, confounded Thearesia.

 

“I am well aware, that you harbour a feeling of indebtedness towards me or the rest of our brothers. It’s not like I didn’t think anything after losing to you that way either. But……”

 

Severing his words, her brother showed her a faint smile.

That was her brother’s very smile, one which Thearesia had continually looked up to, time and again.

 

“You are my precious little sister. So if you think you don’t want to, if you are scared…… then I must protect you. Because I, am your big brother.”

 

“Ni…… Nii-san……”

 

Tears overflowed. She mustn’t leak any cavils.

More than anyone else, nobody else but him, solely the brother whom she had defeated with her own hands, mustn’t hear it. So she believed, yet she made that brother repudiate it.

 

“After losing to you, it was vexing, there were times I even considered quitting. But, even still, I loved the sword after all. I am grateful​ that I was born into this family, I had our little brothers, and I had you, my little sister. I am grateful, to the sword.”

 

“ーーーー”

 

“That’s why I, am glad that I swung the sword.”

 

How, truly foolish her thoughts had been, Thearesia was enlightened to her own idiocy.

Watching her brothers pursue training with the sword even after their defeat against her, she thought that they had no alternative path, because they were ignorant regarding all else, they were swinging the sword and continued to cling to the sword since they had no choice, surmising so, she looked down upon them.

That he should just do whatever he loved, Thearesia arbitrarily put her brother on her own scale and conjectured about him.

 

The brother she ought to have looked up to, ought to have esteemed and respected, whom she dearly loved, she mocked him on sole terms of swordsmanship.

Who was stupid here. She was far more stupid here. And, the Sword God himself was utmost stupid here.

 

Why, did he not shower his love upon the human, who loved him this much.

Why, did he bless a human like herself, who continued to avert from the sword.

 

Her brother, or other people like her brother were the ones upon whom that blessing rightfully should have hailed upon, yet.

 

“There is no need, for you to fight. ーーAfter all, you are a kind girl, who wouldn’t dare kill even an insect.”

 

Dreading the might of the『Divine Protection of Death God』, she had lived her life making certain she hurt no one or no thing.

Her brother’s understanding was slightly unalike, but her brother had been kind enough to understand this state and way of his little sister.

 

This granted her such joyfulness, for her heart trembled the most in these past many years.

 

In the end, she presumed upon him. She cried to him, clung to him, in the end, she entrusted all up to her brother.

 

ーーIn this first battle of Thearesia’s, her brother perished protecting their troop headquarters.

 

Not even once, did Thearesia swing the sword. She could not.

 

And once again, for years to come, never did Thearesia ever even so slightly touch the sword.

 

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ーーIt had been five years since the Demi-Human War started, and Thearesia had turned nineteen.

 

The『Divine Protection of the Sword Saint』remained unvarying, resuming to silently breathe within her.

Yet the pivotal Thearesia drifted away from opportunities of brandishing that force, abstaining from involvement with the civil war en route deterioration, spending her days sedate and lackadaisical.

 

Thearesia’s first battle, where she had been unable to battle.

The war front anticipating the『Sword Saint’s』strenuous efforts utterly crumbled, and amidst martyred her eldest brother. Disconcerted by the impact of her brother’s death, Thearesia was thereon rendered incapable of touching the sword.

The actuality of the current generation『Sword Saint』having such a dishonourable first battle was entirely concealed from the public. The existence of the『Sword Saint』also stood as a spiritual pillar for the kingdom. They could not possibly reveal she had wept and cried on her first battle, and had enclosed herself away upon letting her brother die.

 

Henceforth, without letting the public be aware of it, Thearesia’s dishonour was erased from all records.

Furthermore, as Thearesia enclosed herself without fulfilling her duties as the『Sword Saint』, her second elder brother and younger brother hurled themselves into the battlefield, seeking to battle in a way that shan’t dishonour the name of the Astrea family, and perished.

 

Her eldest brother, kind to a fault, who would listen to any wish of her’s with a troubled expression, as well.

Her second elder brother, who was slightly mean, but was always the first one to apologize when they made up, as well.

Her younger brother, adorable and endearing, a scaredy-cat and a crybaby who would always walk behind her, following her path, as well.

 

All of them lost their lives, fighting in Thearesia’s stead, who failed to do so.

 

“ーーI made you go through a lot of things you didn’t want to, didn’t I. Sorry, Thearesia.”

 

Her uncle, the former『Sword Saint』who was the source of motivation for their troops, also martyred.

Fighting battles after battles, pushing through his injuries, and finally acting as the rear unit guard of retreating friendly troops, martyring heroically was what it had been.

 

It was not as though she didn’t hold anything against her uncle.

Had it not been for her uncle’s revelation, perhaps nobody could have ever realised that Thearesia had inherited the『Divine Protection of the Sword Saint』. Had that never been brought to light, her brothers may not have had to resolve themselves for their own deaths in this civil war, and may not have died.

 

In that course of thought, she surely did harbour a grudge against him. She did, but she also felt like she didn’t.

Her uncle must have himself known better than anyone else, the weight of the title of『Sword Saint』. Since he was the previous『Sword Saint』, naturally, the same things must have been sought from her uncle as they were from Thearesia.

In his personal way, he must have acted for the optimum operation of the name of the『Sword Saint』for both the kingdom, as well as Thearesia.

 

Should that not work, then there were the words he said whilst parting ways when she met him for the final time.

Hearing those words, Thearesia was no longer able to resent her uncle.

 

Thus, if she were to look for someone to resent, the only option left was solely herself.

Her weak self, doing naught but weep and cry, despite inheriting the title of something like the『Sword Saint』.

 

“Thearesia-sama is someone who will surely stand one day. That time has simply not arrived yet.”

 

Carol, her associate, never did once try to abandon Thearesia, who was engulfed in the repeated deaths of her loved ones, her brothers and her uncle.

Baring her first unit and battle to unsightly defeat, proceeding to drift away from following opportunities due to childish selfishness, the now solitarily enclosed Thearesia, within her shell, was someone Carol yet strived to have faith in.

 

Nowadays, there were even such instances that she undertook even the orders given to Thearesia from the royal castle in her stead, exposing her own self to hazard.

Yet, despite knowing how perilous a bridge Carol was treading, Thearesia failed to respond to her feelings.

 

Yet was her self, blessed with the talent of killing people.

Her self had never, ever even envisioned there shall come a day wherein she shall agonize over her inability to kill people. Nowhere could she find, a reason to fight. She couldn’t possibly, fight.

 

“ーーーー”

 

Once away from Carol’s monitoring, Thearesia aimlessly left the mansion and started walking in the capital.

It had been five years and the civil war yet resumed without cease, and the capital’s vibrancy too had been desaturated, as a somewhat dreary atmosphere proliferated across. With no bright topics about, neither shall any gleam glisten the expressions of people. Naturally, avoiding crowded locations, Thearesia sought solitude.

 

The place which Thearesia had recently taken a liking for and frequented her trips to, was an unfinished block of land in close vicinity from the capital.

A block of land whose construction had been thrown aside midway through the process with the onset of the civil war. Through aisles and paths befitting of the descriptor narrow, and through gaps of buildings suitable for being labelled ruins, she headed towards the area deep behind.

 

Faintly opening up, the space unworthy of even being categorised as an open plaza, was Thearesia’s favourite.

Her heart wouldn’t become particularly ebullient. However, this bare space idly existing amidst all this desolation, felt alike and conforming with the state of her own heart and simply calmed her.

 

In the morning breeze, cool and fresh to an ironic extent, Thearesia headed for the back of the area.

Sitting on a flight to stone steps connecting to no place, what could be seen on the other side was a spanning flower garden with abounding yellow blooms.

 

The rays of the sun shining in, and soil unnecessarily adequate for the growth of flowers.

In this clandestine setting beyond the calls of anyone, Thearesia had deftly sown the seeds of these flowers. She was scarce of willpower to tend to the flower beds back in the mansion which had entirely withered.

But, she did solely bear at least the sentiment of watching over the results of the flower seeds she had whimsically sown.

 

“I haven’t even watered you…… yet you have grown this much.”

 

Flowers, are strong.

Whilst Thearesia reflected on her own weaknesses, the flowers, gazing only towards the sky, their petals unfurled, bloomed in arrant magnificence.

She formerly admired their splendour, but now harboured longing for their strength.

 

There were things in her heart that welled up, and she verged onto crying.

Her hand on the canthi of her eyes unwittingly warming, she frantically suppressed her tears.

 

ーーSuch was the moment, when a honed presence drew close.

 

“Ah, I’m sorry.”

 

A swordsman, had barged into Thearesia’s morning sanctuary.

Verging on showing her tears, Thearesia articulated so, deliberately in an attempt to act strong. And then, she glanced at the one standing in the plaza.

 

She saw, and was completely wonderstruck.

Trimmed brown hair, elegant yet fierce eyes, a flexible, slim and fit body, and his brimming clear skin dazzling so bright to a frightening extent.

It was a fact that his attitude, affable by no means, possessed astonishing traits.

However, what had astonished Thearesia at that moment was not anything so trifling.

 

ーーTo Thearesia, the youth was visible as though a single unsheathed sword.

 

She felt as if firm, sharp steel moulded with heat itself had his eyes upon her.

In face of that phantasm, Thearesia’s heartbeats faintly tangled. Placing a hand on her chest, Thearesia contemplated what had happened to her.

 

However, she simply thought she did not wish for the youth to discern this entanglement of her heartbeats.

Henceforth, in order to veil that, Thearesia pronounced.

 

“So, there are people who would come here so early in the morning. All the way hereーー”

 

“ーーーー”

 

Quite the greeting, that was.

 

Thearesia spoke to him sociably, but the youth narrowed his eyes, as though sharp, honed essence of swordsmanship piercing her. An essence of swordsmanship so stable and prime, that it did not seem like a threat.

Perhaps he perceived Thearesia as unpleasant, an indication of his desire to repel her.

 

Abruptly, it became unentertaining.

If that was the card he was going to play, then neither would Thearesia hold anything back. She shall forge it into him that the essence of swordsmanship he was so proud of, was kaput.

 

“……Did something happen? You’re making such a scary face.”

 

At Thearesia’s words, the youth made an expression as if he had tasted an under-shoulder swing down.

He seemed to have judged Thearesia as a laywoman at swordsmanship, and not just that, at fighting entirely and nothing more. The truth was, he was not wrong.

 

Thearesia lacked any experience of actual fighting, nor did she possess any records of swinging the sword.

For she was a young girl inevitably a laywoman, supposed to be stronger than anyone else shall she fight.

 

“What’s a woman doing here so early in the morning.”

 

The youth responded, his words crass and insolent.

The voice of the youth, having heard it for the first time, was sullen yet simple and easy to listen to.

 

ーーAnd once again, she felt the rhythm of her heartbeats go a shade off-note.

 

※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※

 

Ever since, Thearesia and the youth started seeing each other often.

 

It apparently seemed the youth used to come to the plaza on fixed holidays.

It did seem like he was bothered by Thearesia’s presence, but never forced her to vacate nonetheless. Perhaps he regarded approaching her as being a greater bother.

 

Thearesia used to walk up to the plaza, in order to view that yellow flower garden.

There were times the youth was the first one to arrive, whereas on other instances, Thearesia came first. Whilst Thearesia seated herself on the stone steps and beheld the flower garden, the youth devoted himself to training with the sword, his sword of prime quality, and these activities became the promise between the two, who used to spend time in that location.

 

“ーーーー”

 

A secretive glimpse at the swords dance of the youth.

Inadvertently, she verged on leaking a sigh. For Thearesia to observe the swordsmanship of others, and feel this way, was something exceptionally rareーー no, this may have been the first time.

 

She had initially bore revulsion toward the form of the youth gripping the sword.

Rather than the youth being at fault, it was an issue of Thearesia’s own disposition of heart. She shall get chased away even from the refuge of comfort she had finally gained. Such pathetic anxieties, were overwritten the day she first witnessed the swords dance of the youth.

 

The sword which the youth swung, couldn’t be appraised as refined even for the sake of flattery.

In the eyes of Thearesia, who possessed the『Divine Protection of the Sword Saint』, there present were easily discernible imperfections in it as well. Being revolted by the far too many a blemish in the swords of others was also a bad habit of Thearesia’s, but in the youth’s case, despite the presence of said flaws, his passion alone more than amply made up for them.

 

Thearesia’s brothers too, must have devoted their entirety to the sword as well.

Even when it pertained to the swords of her brothers, elder or younger, Thearesia failed to remain without revulsion.

 

Yet, why did she not feel simply the same in the youth’s sword.

The answer to that, was simple to a staggering extent.

 

“How stupid……”

 

ーーThere were absolutely no impurities in the sword of the youth.

 

Dedicating, devoting everything, to the sword.

Easily put and expressed in words, and until now Thearesia believed her brothers had done the same, truly outrageous.

 

Right here existed the fervour of the youth who, truly, possessed nothing but the sword.

He had naught but the sword. He loved naught but the sword. He shall love naught but the sword, a single swing of steel.

 

“……How, stupid.”

 

Observing the youth’s swordsmanship beside, Thearesia felt warmth enter her cheeks.

Thearesia was the『Sword Saint』. Immersed in the love of the Sword God, a being made to stand atop the pinnacle of the sword.

 

Ahead of his unrelenting goal, stood her.

Although it was unquestionably her own delusion, she felt as though he sought for her.

 

The『Sword Saint』Thearesia, could comprehend everything about the sword with but a glance.

She could perceive its essence and quintessence, no matter what kind of treasured sword, magic sword, dulled sword, or even a Dragon Sword it was. She could freely manoeuvre them all. There existed no steel unbare within Thearesia’s hands.

 

He was the only one.

He was the only steel, who shan’t bend per Thearesia’s free will.

 

He was a sword, yet his limits could not be determined by her self, who was the『Sword Saint』.

That was indubitably why, her self had grown to care so much about him.

 

“It’s Wilhelm Trias.”

 

Three months after meeting him, she had exchanged names with the youthーー Wilhelm.

 

Even though they had happened upon each other on a multitude of occasions, never did they once inquire about each other’s names.

The truth was, Thearesia had awaited the opportunity several times, but Wilhelm wholly failed to notice that wish. They had finally managed to exchange names solely because Thearesia got impatient and initiated it, Wilhelm merely gave the appropriate response.

 

“I had called you the “flower woman” in my mind till now.”

 

Just how impolite could he be, this man.

His words had not a fragment of solicitude, nor his mind preoccupied with his own self possessing no regard for her, conversed for a bit and upon satisfaction arbitrarily returned back, so Thearesia’s heart was nothing but toyed around with.

 

“Do you like flowers?”

 

“No, I hate them.”

 

This was his reply, despite seeing the magnificence of Thearesia’s special flower garden so many times.

Undoubtedly, he was incapable of merely playing along with the other party or uplifting their spirits.

Despite feeling angst toward that, she could not help but ponder “But, this is precisely what makes him such a sword-esque person too……”.

 

During these times, the realisation of the existence of her self who was saved, by the presence of a sword that shan’t alter the way she wished it to, to whom something like the『Sword Saint』was nothing noteworthy, eluded Thearesia.

 

“ーーWhy, do you swing the sword?”

 

Ever since they exchanged names, the words they exchanged commenced varying as well.

They used to talk about flowers, followed by other miscellaneous topics, then parted ways. What conceived malaise in their usual exchanges, was surely due to the dolefulness on that day.

 

The attempts to subdue the demi-human war had failed, and Thearesia had heard about the skirmishes on the battlefield.

Scattered across the kingdom, the demi-humans who were at the core behind all of the destruction precipitating were outstandingly strong, and among them was a『Witch』commanding immense supernatural strength, whose existence had also been confirmed, is what she had heard.

 

She abruptly became uneasy.

Long before, she had heard from Wilhelm that he was a soldier for the kingdom. He was, regardless, an extraordinary swordsman. In addition, his eyes seemed terribly starved for blood.

A kingdom jostled by civil war, he was truly suitable to be its soldierーー regardless, he was not undefeatable whatsoever. He may cease coming to this morning plaza someday.

This disquietude, made Thearesia enquire.

 

Putting a finish to his swords dance, the sweaty Wilhelm straightforwardly focused into Thearesia’s eyes. He then paused and contemplated for a brief moment, and shrugged his shoulders, gesturing how foolish he deemed her enquiry as,

 

“Because this, is all I have.”

 

So he responded, befitting of a single swing of steel.

That was truly, the answer Thearesia had precisely hoped for, and yet.

 

Thearesia became cognizant, of the sensation of her chest being whittled by trepidation and isolation.

 

“Have you come to like flowers?”

 

“No, I hate them.”

 

“Why do you swing the sword?”

 

“Because this, is all I have.”

 

As time went by, it had become a solemn promise between the two, to assuredly reiterate this exchange alone.

Thearesia herself, did not know what answer she sought to the unremitting, recurrent questions. She was unaware whether it was fine to be soothed by the answers remaining unchanged, or whether she ought to anticipate alteration in his self who resumed being like unvarying steel, she knew naught.

 

Imprudently leaving things she did not know the way they were, was the very essence of Thearesia.

Just as how she, whilst entrusted with the title of the『Sword Saint』, had sent her brothers to their deaths, had saddled Carol with responsibilities, and now continued to live a time of indolence.

 

That is why, change always payed a call, all whilst ostracizing Thearesia from itself.

 

※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※

 

The one to arrive at the plaza first, primarily used to be Thearesia.

Wilhelm’s visits, formerly irregular, she had gotten a grasp on now and was fully equipped with what greetings and conversations to exchange when she met him.

 

Thearesia also came about to realise, how she had been indulging in his being.

By exchanging words with Wilhelm, by having her eyes upon he who had dedicated his everything to the sword, Thearesia was briefly able to forget the burden of the『Sword Saint』placed upon her.

Because she was the『Sword Saint』, she had been beguiled by him, and as he seemed to be telling her that being the『Sword Saint』was all guff, she was being saved by him.

 

Whether she wished to remain being the『Sword Saint』, or whether she did not wish to, that alone was mendacious.

Within the lukewarm water devoid of an answer, unabating, illimitable guilt submerged her.

His presence, made her forget even that.

 

“ーーWilhelm.”

 

As usual, sensing the presence almost easy to discern, Thearesia turned backward.

Standing on the entrance of the plaza, was a youth of the sword.

 

Her lips unwittingly moved, manifesting a smile which Thearesia cast toward him.

 

“ーーーー”

 

The moment of an unforeseen collapse of emotions, was then.

 

Eyes distended, lips quivering, Wilhelm concealed his face with a trembling palm. Thearesia too was astonished by his dramatic response, undergoing shock.

Questioning where she erred, Thearesia rushed over to him, as he covered his face. However, she was ignorant of what to say.

 

To this day, Thearesia did her utmost to decline connection in order to not hurt others.

Thus even when she hurt someone’s​ heart, she knew no way of handling it.

 

She despaired. Toward her own self, who knew naught, and never endeavoured to know.

Toward her own self, who failed to pronounce a word, before the distressed Wilhelm.

 

“Wilhelm……”

 

Unknowing of what to say, Thearesia’s fingers reached for Wilhelm. Just how long had it been, since she had initiated physical contact with anyone.

Petrified of wounding others, she became incapable of touching anyone.

 

Yet in these moments, to walk away from him without touching him was far more petrifying.

Thearesia touched Wilhelm’s hand, which was covering his face via her fingers. As he trembled terribly dishearteningly, tasting a sensation warm to an implausible extent, she noticed.

 

Sword, steel, when bathed in daunting heat then struck, metamorphosed into further strengthened steel.

Though Wilhelm was a sword of a single swing, he was not a perfected sword.

 

And now, having conceived heat, Wilhelm was now in the midst of metamorphosing after being struck as steel.

And the role of striking the steel for that purpose, was now solicited of Thearesia.

 

ーーIf the subject was a sword, then her self, the『Sword Saint』, must be au fait with it.

 

Pertaining to this person, pertaining to this sword, she surely wished to understand.

 

“Have you, come to like flowers?”

 

Spontaneously, she vocalised her usual question.

Had there perhaps been a bystander observing the two, they may have ruminated on how nonsensical a consolation it was. However, only between the two, this was for the better.

 

“…….I don’t, hate them.”

 

And, came a different answer to her unchanged question.

This was what the former Thearesia had thought, about this.

 

Someday, when Wilhelm’s answer shall change, would Thearesia be once again left to taste dejection, despondency, and the dread of being left behind.

 

That did not occur. She simply loved his changing self.

Metamorphosing, the steel seeking to become stronger, the sword of solitarily a single swing, was dear.

 

“Why, do you swing the sword?”

 

Thus, surely, this question too had a different answer.

And possibly, that answer shall be the one that brings about salvation to Thearesiaーー,

 

“Because this is all…… I could think of, for a way to protect.”

 

So responded Wilhelm, that he had naught but the sword.

Yes, this person, had naught but the sword.

 

It is alright, because that is how he is. This person.

 

ーーThat’s all it was, their routine conversation, was no longer requisite between the two.

 

However, that did not mean they forfeited opportunities to exchange words at the plaza.

Rather, in terms of solely exchanging words, opportunities for that were

 more than before.

 

Wilhelm, who visited the plaza for swinging the sword, came to kindly prioritize speaking to Thearesia above swinging his sword.

As he sat on steps surveying the panorama of the flower garden, she inclined her ears to Wilhelm’s words, unfailingly destitute of topics. Limitlessly maladroit art of conversation, yet listening to his voice alone soothed her.

 

“There was talk of conferral, and I became a knight.”

 

The way he commenced the topic of the day, and his gaze vaguely conceived with heat.

Though Thearesia was poor at socialising and had continued to maintain distance from others, she was so stupid as to not realise the meaning behind those words of the youth, who mustered up such courage.

 

A mere commoner, being deemed accepted as a knight for his labour on the battlefield, was exceptional.

Just how many feats the Sword Demon, Wilhelm Trias had accomplished, was something the worthless, cowardly, disenchanting『Sword Saint』 was painfully aware of.

As well as for what he, having been bestowed with the honour of knighthood, had attained this status for.

 

“I see, congratulations. You’ve gotten one step closer to your dream, isn’t it.”

 

Because she was aware of his true intent, Thearesia responded deliberately with a casual attitude.

Should she act casual, she could not help but blush for an instant. Devoting self-restraint into the entirety of her nerves, Thearesia beamed a smile at Wilhelm, who had the expression of having tasted an under-shoulder swing down.

 

“Dream?”

 

“You clutched the sword to protect, didn’t you? A knight is someone who protects others, after all.”

 

Upon Thearesia’s reply, Wilhelm nodded with a humbled countenance at once.

Even though he’s normally rebellious, he sometimes showed a childishly meek side of him.

 

ーーShe wished her existence to be within what he wanted to protect.

 

Despite partly possessing conviction, she hated her self, who assured herself this way.

Despite knowing their sentiments were surely transmitting to each other, her self who abstained from undertaking action was truly, truly stupid, abhorrent, repulsive, irredeemable, henceforth yet again, Thearesia erred.

 

To the extent she deduced that upon consideration, never had she done anything correctly, ever.

 

※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※

 

His hometown set ablaze, Wilhelm hurled himself into the battlefield all alone.

 

Carol’s report, out of breath, informing her of the unpredicted steadfast fight being put up by the Sword Demon, commenced pillaging Thearesia of her body heat, nearly collapsing her to her knees at that very spot.

Thearesia, her countenance paling by the second, could comprehend Carol’s swivet. She could comprehend it, but no vitality was incited within her. She knew, the situation was that hopeless.

 

“ーーーー”

 

Someone’s inapposite voice entered Thearesia’s ears, who had her eyes focused onto the ground.

It was not Carol. Nor was it someone in the house. But, she was acquainted with the voice, as though it belonged to someone who had been close to Thearesia for long, and hence she noticed.

 

That it was the voice of the Sword God’s laughter, ridiculing her self who had always dissipated affection and love.

 

“ーーI have to go.”

 

Whilst hearkening the Sword God’s laughter, Thearesia slowly stood up.

Even now, the derision yet persisted to echo within Thearesia’s small skull. However, whilst being mocked by the Sword God, she must not relinquish everything this way.

 

She had entrusted her elder brother with everything, and led him to die.

Bedevilling her second elder brother, younger brother, and her uncle by pressing her own responsibilities onto them, she had led them to die.

 

But, only himーー only Wilhelm, shall I not concede.

Because that sword, that steel, only that person, belongs to solely me.

 

“Carol, prepare.”

 

“Thearesia-sama……? However, your body’s condition is……”

 

“ーーPrepare.”

 

Carol, anxious about Thearesia’s​ physique, straightened her back upon the second order. Moving quickly, she immediately made all preparations required for Thearesia.

The battle suit which had not been worn ever since the time of her first unit and first battle, and the longsword stranger to blood.

 

“This time for sure, I won’t make any mistakes.”

 

Pledging an oath to the longsword she clenched, Thearesia hastened Carol and jumped into the dragon carriage.

The dragon carriages heading for Wilhelm’s aid, were of a greater number than Thearesia’s conjecture. These were many who were in the same unit as him, or those reciting debts of favour and gratitude towards him for having been saved by him.

 

Though he was an unsheathed sword, that nothing but stinging youth was nowhere to be seen.

By now, that youth had become a treasured sword, alluring many with his brilliance and sharpness.

 

ーーThe front lines of Wilhelm’s hometown, had entirely crumbled by this point.

 

Screeches and bellows reverberating, the battlefield pervaded by the scent of blood and burn.

Amidst the far too ghastly, harrowing circumstance, Thearesia’s chest nauseated. She had envisioned herself standing on the battlefield countless of times. How, the reality painted out the grisliness of her imagination with ease.

In the battlefield, where wounds were inflicted, lives were taken, as blood and death ran rampant, something like resolve stood worthless.

 

“At any rate, search for Wilhelm!”

 

The one to raise his voice was Bordeaux Zellgef, leading an army of veterans. Upon his roar-esque command, the unit, wearing armour akin to rock, commenced moving in unity.

 

“Thearesia-sama! What should we……”

 

Carol’s voice resounded, asking for instructions, yet Thearesia did not hear it.

Bordeaux’s group clashed with the enemy soldiers, who had laid waste to his hometown. Amidst the fearsome scrimmage, she faintly sensed him.

 

“Thearesia-sama!?”

 

The instant she noticed, her legs moved.

Thearesia’s feet bolted the battlefield melded with warriors, with not a smidgen of incertitude. She need not even look to know, where to head.

 

Trode the soil, traversed through the heaps of corpses, and headed for the point where hollers of rage and wails of death converged.

And upon reaching the locus saturated by the pungent odour of blood, Thearesia saw.

 

Right in those moments, before the collapsed Wilhelm stood a green demi-human, with a humongous sword upraised to be swung down.

His face drenched in blood, Wilhelm was glancing up toward that humongous sword. His lips moved. With a debilitated, weak voice, he muttered something.

 

“I don’t want to, die……”

 

“ーーーー”

 

It’s alright.

 

It’s alright, I assure you.

 

“ーーーー”

 

No longer could she hear anything.

Thearesia solely ruminated over what she had last heard, Wilhelm’s whisper.

 

She swung the longsword gripped in her hand. It was light.

Making no sound, rather, making not even any impact, the demi-human was easily beheaded.

 

She kicked the gargantuan body collapsing whilst holding the humongous sword, such that it didn’t fall on Wilhelm. At the same time, shots of animosity and bloodlust advanced towards Thearesia’s slender frame.

All of their trajectories, she could sense them. She could read them. On her skin, she could feel them.

 

Dodging them, Thearesia followed a mysterious ray she could see, with her sword.

Unknowing of when they appeared, mysterious white rays levitated across the air. What was further mysterious, was that her instincts knew all she had to do was to trace those rays with her sword.

 

Tracing, tracing, her sword glided over the white rays.

Her sword glissaded like wind, slashing the bodies of the demi-humans atop the rays from next to the next.

 

Severing their limbs, decapitating their heads, stabbing their abdomens, reaping their lives.

The『Divine Protection of the Sword Saint』, the『Divine Protection of Death God』, detonated upon the opportunity attained at long last.

 

Upon losing the wrist, that wound shan’t close.

Upon impaling the abdomen, the bleeding shan’t cease.

Even the shallowest of wounds, their pain shall eat away and corrode for eternity.

 

“ーーーー”

 

A glance, from the corner of her eyes she glimpsed Wilhelm being held up.

A youth bearing a shield, and beside him stood Carol. They were seeking to shoulder the dazed Wilhelm, and withdraw from this theatre.

 

Yes, that’s good.

Hurry, and please take Wilhelm away from a place like this.

 

“Thearesia-sama…… ~hk.”

 

Carol clenched the pendant worn down her neck, beholding Thearesia whilst she swung the sword. Her gesture, akin to prayer, verged Thearesia to a little smile.

 

I guess so. It was just as Carol had said, isn’t it.

I am indeed, stronger than anyone else, and better at killing than anyone else.

 

ーーIf only, I had noticed this a bit sooner.

 

“ーーーー”

 

The youth hurriedly took Wilhelm away, who was writhing in an attempt to remain here.

Wilhelm, scraping the soil in resistance, failed to succeed due to the injuries veneering his entire body.

 

His presence faded. By which, she was relieved.

Whilst feeling relieved, she plundered the lives of one, two, three. Easily, effortlessly.

 

Gashing, rending, slashing, washing away the hollers of rage and wails of death.

Washing away the everlastingly irksome, loud voice of the God of the sword.

 

Just let me hear solely his voice, he, who desperately clung to life.

Kindly etch my reason, for fighting like this.

 

Please, make me believe, that my sword can save Wilhelmーー.

 

※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※

 

The battle had come to an end.

Thearesia’s purpose for plunging into the battlefield was achieved, and Wilhelm had returned alive.

 

However, Wilhelm’s goal could not be fulfilled, having fought to defend his hometown.

His hometown burnt to ash, lost of even his parental home, he was now all by himself.

 

Wilhelm, who had swung the sword retaining his rage, had a kill count of over three hundred.

An unforeseen and atypical count for a single swordsman, in a single battlefield.

 

ーーFor that reason alone, Thearesia’s aptitude with sword, itemizing over a thousand heads, deviated from normalcy.

 

The existence of the『Sword Saint』, was hereーー.

Her disgraceful first battle covered up, this instance became etched into history as『Sword Saint』Thearesia’s first battle.

 

The battle itself may have amounted to unquestionable defeat, but she had managed to prove her overwhelming sword skill.

The name of Thearesia van Astrea became widely known across the kingdom and potently boosted the morale of the warriors continuing to engage in combat on the battlefield.

Of course, the Sword Demon youth must have hearkened it as well.

 

“It’s humiliating.”

 

There had been no promise between them to meet again.

Yet, the two had conviction, should they head the square they would meet each other.

 

And as a matter of fact, it came true.

Wilhelm, having arrived at the plaza, swung his sword down with aim set upon Thearesia.

 

Intercepting its trajectory with a hand, she halted it with three fingers.

The optimal angle, the optimal degree of strength, Thearesia was aware of it all.

His sword strike arrested, what Wilhelm declared whilst crudely distorting his lips were words smeared in frenzied emotion unbecoming of this reunion.

 

“ーーIs that so.”

 

“Were you, laughing at me?”

 

“ーーーー”

 

“Answer me, Thearesia…… no, Sword Saint!!”

 

She had no such intentions.

Neither was that excuse anything meaningful.

 

It was true that in a certain manner, Thearesia had looked down upon Wilhelm’s swords dance. She had seen through his flaws, never relayed them to him and shut them within herself, that was all true.

And it would be meaningless to discuss her intent.

 

“ーーーー”

 

She swept the lunging Wilhelm’s legs, violently toppling him. He inched closer with an expression grown frantic, but Thearesia evaded it altogether and counterattacked.

Before long, the struggle became one-sided, and in Thearesia’s hands was his treasured sword worn from use. The treasured sword which briefly unveiled the traces of his effort blotted by bloodーー a full swing, she had it glide upon the white ray, aim set at Wilhelm’s torso.

The sword’s pommel scythed his torso, and Wilhelm collapsed, his breathing clogged.

 

“I won’t be coming here anymore.”

 

She could not bear him looking at her, with hatred, with mercy, with earnest cynicism.

Thearesia shook her head, and chose the option she had chosen countless times, to run away.

 

“With a face, like that…… you shouldn’t, hold a sword.”

 

Face to the ground, Wilhelm frantically wrung out in a rueful tone.

The one to have espoused and believed in the beauty, the sublimity of the sword, was nobody but him. The ability of her self was to kick and trample upon his all.

 

“I am, the Sword Saint. I never understood the reason for it, but I understand now.”

 

The congenital『Divine Protection of Death God』.

The bestowed albeit unwished for『Divine Protection of the Sword Saint』.

It seemed she had achieved a compromise as to why she possessed them.

 

“The reason……”

 

“To swing the sword to protect someone. I think that’s nice.”

 

To swing the sword, to protect someone.

She wished she had noticed something so simple much earlier.

Although even upon realising that, she may not have been able to choose whom to protect.

Now, she could.

 

ーーProtect, Wilhelm.

 

With this might, with this abominable, dreadful might of slaughter, protect Wilhelm as much as possible.

Protect him, protect her family, protect Carol, protect a greater crowd, and ultimately protect something even as humongous as the kingdom, she shall become a fine『Sword Saint』.

 

Because I, am the strongest. Because the 『Sword Saint』, is the mightiest.

I may trample upon his feelings, I may betray what he believed in, but I solely cannot abandon the fact that I am the『Sword Saint』.

 

“Just you, wait, Thearesia……”

 

No longer present were any words to be exchanged.

The voice reached Thearesia’s back, who stepped forth surmising this would be the last.

 

“ーーーー”

 

She verged upon halting her legs. She desperately withstood that emotion.

Whilst Thearesia desperately withstood, Wilhelm’s voice yet entered her ears.

 

“I will, take away the sword from you. I don’t care, about the Divine Protection and duties bestowed upon you……. swinging the sword…… the blade’s beauty, don’t you dare look down upon them, Sword Saint!”

 

“ーーーー”

 

She was forewarned, it would be taken away from her.

And once again, echoed the voice of the Sword God’s laugher within her skull.

 

As if to sneer at the youth, blazoning such abandon.

As if to sneer at the beloved child, heart cradled by such spirit of fleeting hope.

 

 

※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※

 

ーーA period of two more years had been needed to end the civil war.

 

Ever since her parting with Wilhelm, Thearesia cast herself unto all kinds of battlefields.

And intently repeating perfervid and acute labour, she contributed to diminishing the Demi-Human Alliance’s war potential.

 

The alliance too lost seniors who comprised its mainstay, its foundation weakening.

It could be stated they had no choice but to comply with the proposal for peace the kingdom had offered.

 

Henceforth, the greatest civil war of the kingdom, the『Demi-Human War』, diverged from its gruesomeness in its midst and ended identically exceedingly swiftly as how it had outbroken.

 

“It’s…… over?”

 

She was resolved to tackle the next battle, the battle after the next, the battles with no end in sight.

Thus, upon hearing the abruptly brought report of its denouement, Thearesia lost her balance.

 

“Yes, it is over. The civil war has come to an end. ーーIt is, Thearesia-sama’s achievement.”

 

Catching the tottering Thearesia in her arms, Carol pronounced innocently.

Having grown to display such tender expressions more oft lately, Carol firmly supported the bewildered Thearesia and gently caressed her back.

 

“Achievement you say……”

 

Those words didn’t really hit her.

All Thearesia did was to continue nothing but slashing. Believing that it would consequently connect to protecting someone.

Believing it would save the youth who had arbitrarily left the troops by himself and gone to someplace.

 

Thearesia’s such actions devoid of self-awareness, however, just as Carol had stated, shall be commended as of greatest service to the kingdom.

A ceremony was held for her, wearing a formal dress with a sword of courtesy in her hands, Thearesia failed to dispel the sensation that she was walking within a dream from the beginning to the very end.

 

No, if this was a dream, then Thearesia had always been walking within a dream.

Ever since she had been blessed with the『Divine Protection of the Sword Saint』, ever since she had first felt the Sword God’s presence near herself, Thearesia’s heart had been within the dream shown by that great being.

 

Hence this too, was a dream. The dream shown by the love of the Sword God, sunless evermore, never to be dispelled.

Therefore, if there were to come a time she was liberated from this dream, thenーー.

 

“ーーーー”

 

A commotion splintered the wild enthusiasm of the excited crowd in the ceremony.

That being aimlessly stepped into the ceremony hall, in spite of all the voices calling for his restraint.

 

In his hands, an unsheathed, decayed, tattered, rusty sword.

He wore a dark brown, soiled tunic, the colour of his visible skin also besmirched in dirt and filth. But before knitting brows to his state, there was something everyone could instinctively sense.

 

ーーEmanating from that being, the essence of dread.

ーーNo, the essence of swordsmanship.

 

“ーーーー”

 

Before the being wordlessly bracing himself, Thearesia too faced him with the sword of courtesy.

The king, standing on the same altar, halted the palace guards attempting to surround the outlaw. She was grateful for that. With this, no obstruction would come in the way.

 

Nobody would now get in the way, of her tryst with the『Sword Demon』here.

 

ーーNo signals given.

 

However, as though arranged for beforehand, the blades of the two simultaneously eloped, giving rise to a shrill note.

The rightfully dull blade directly collided with the unmistakably holy sword, albeit one for courtesy. Sparkles danced exuberantly, slashes tore the air, and two shadows intertwined on the stage as though in dance.

 

“ーーーー”

 

Whilst swinging the sword, Thearesia was struck with admiration. Her mind enlivened, her heartbeats hastening.

In Thearesia’s eyes, as ever, were the white rays concocted in the midst of battle. All she had to do was to trace those rays, all she had to do to kill was to trace those white rays, such guidance of the Sword God’s could she see.

 

The itinerary to triumph shown by the pinnacle of the sword, forged by the Sword God, was being broken through by mere devotion and maddening ardour of the Sword Demon.

 

The floating white rays were rended by the rusted sword as though they were visible.

Intercepting every single one of the countlessly emerged white rays, the Sword Demon roared a war cry, and stepped towards the pinnacle of the sword he couldn’t ever reach.

 

Heartbeats palpitated. Each and every time, each and every time, they exchanged blows.

Each and every time their swords overlapped, each and every time the contour of white rays was severed, each and every time their gazes entwined.

 

She was in love, with the demon of the sword before her eyes.

Each and every time, each and every time, each and every time, the『Sword Saint』fell in love with the『Sword Demon』.

She loved him. She loved him. She loved him to an unbearable degree.

 

ーーShe was in love with this person to an unbearable extent.

 

“ーー~hk.”

 

The ceremony utterly disordered, amidst the attentive gazes of a crowd so great, Thearesia couldn’t help but find it comical when she thought of what she was doing.

Her cheeks, hot. Her chest, palpitating. Each passing moment, her love aggravated.

 

The truth is, I want to throw away my sword right away, and jump to his chest.

There is nothing to take away from me. Ever since a long time ago, precisely when we first met, ever since my heartbeats first rose because of you, I haveーー

 

“ーーーー”

 

The option for her to run away into comfort, refusing to face him, was thwarted.

Not by the reprimanding voice of the Sword God, but the glint in the eyes of the demon before her, repudiated it with all of his soul.

 

That he shall take it away through his own strength, borrowing not the hands of anyone else, not even yours.

With solely his own strength, with his own tenacity, with all he had proffered to the sword, he shall take the girl away from the Sword God.

 

Just how much, for how long.

Just how many times, hundreds of times, tens of thousands of times, hundreds of millions of times, must he have thought of her self.

 

The sword slashes melded, locked against one another, their tips shimmered, and exchanged blows however many times.

And, the swung strike accompanied by the Sword God’s enraged voice wasーー,

 

“ーーーー”

 

The rufous blade fractured, its tip twirled into the air and bounced upon the altar.

The one to achieve this, with not a smidgen of uncertainty, was the『Sword Saint’s』soulful strike.

 

All or nothing, the singular strike of the『Sword Saint』with nonpareil might.

However,

 

“My”

 

“ーーーー”

 

“My, win.”

 

The treasured sword, had been taken from Thearesia’s hands.

Her palm numbed by the impact, the treasured sword fell to her rear with a shrill report. And, positioned by Thearesia’s fair neck was the halfway broken dull tip.

 

The beautifully bedecked『Sword Saint』, lost, to the uncouthly trained『Sword Demon』.

That was the moment the treasured sword was defeated by the dull blade, and the phantasmagoria known as the『Sword Saint』was shattered.

 

“You’re weaker than me, so you no longer have any reason​ to wield the sword.”

 

The voice smote.

Upon consideration, it’s been quite a while since having heard his curt voice.

And to think his first words, would be this.

 

“If I don’t wield the sword…… who will.”

 

“I’ll succeed your reason for swinging the sword. You simply become my reason for swinging the sword.”

 

His reason for swinging the sword, was to protect something.

You become that reason, whilst enunciating so, he took his tunic’s hood off.

 

As the sullied, sour face glared at her self, Thearesia shook her head.

To take it away from her, to protect her, in spite of having come to say such cool things, he truly didn’t understand the female heart. Although he’s a sword, so it could not be helped.

 

“What a harsh person you are. To render all of someone’s resolve and determination useless.”

 

“I’ll succeed all of that too. You just forget that you ever held the sword and carefreely…… let’s see. You just live in peace behind my back, raising flowers or something.”

 

Ah, that is so, soーー.

 

“Whilst being, protected by your sword?”

 

“That’s right.”

 

“Will you protect me?”

 

“That’s right.”

 

If he were to count her self amidst what he cherished, and, if he were to respond to her love.

 

Thearesia smiled at the words of the Sword Demon, of Wilhelm.

Subsequently touching the sword at her neck, she took a single step forward.

 

By touching the sword blade, she felt Wilhelm’s two years.

Pondering that all this time, if he had been thinking of her self, her chest warmed.

With the rise of emotions she could not bear, tears appeased Thearesia’s eyelids. They slowly brimmed over, and trickled down the smiling Thearesia’s cheeks.

 

“Do you, like flowers?”

 

“I don’t hate them anymore.”

 

“Why do you, swing the sword?”

 

“To protect you.”

 

Her patience, at its limit.

Ever since she had relinquished the sword from her hands, she could no longer hear the Sword God’s voice.

 

She saw nothing but Wilhelm.

She felt nothing but Wilhelm.

She had nothing but Wilhelm.

 

Gently nestling close to his chest, she faintly tilted her head upward.

Her eyes closed, Thearesia’s lips imbricated with the lips of Wilhelm. Love surged upon the soft, warm sensation, and Thearesia’s world revolutionized.

 

With her cheeks dyed, she gazed at the man, her beloved, before her eyes.

Wilhelm said nothing, silently awaiting her words.

Such odd conduct. She was the one waiting. He seemed to not understand that, so once again, just like before, she initiated,

 

“Are you, in love with me?”

 

“ーーYou know that.”

 

A brusque reply, and he averted his face.

The moment she rounded her eyes upon the answer, in the world ensconced only by the two entered sounds. The temporal pause of the spectators came undone, and a large number of palace guards advanced towards them.

Present there were the figures of personnel well acquainted with Wilhelm.

 

“Goodness gracious.”

 

As Wilhelm formed a somewhat relieved expression upon seeing them, she puffed her cheeks.

To look someplace else when she is standing right before his eyes, just what impudence was this.

She had not even heard him say the words he ought to yet.

 

“There are some things I want you to express in words, you know.”

 

“Ah.”

 

Wilhelm turned his head, scratching his cheek as though to varnish the situation over. However, before long he yielded to Thearesia’s gaze and sighed, embracing her slender waist closer to himself once again.

And gently drawing his face close to the astonished Thearesia’s ear,

 

“Someday, when I feel like it.”

 

ーーIt felt it would take a long time for him to feel like it.

 

Bearing such displeasure in her mind, she nonetheless avidly anticipated that day’s befall.

Her weakness being what she lost her heart to, Thearesia forgave the words​ of the one she loved.

 

※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※

 

ーーAfter that, looking back on it now, a lot happened.

 

Welcoming Wilhelm as her husband, who had cut into the ceremony and had perpetrated unprecedented recklessness by asserting he would take away the leading lady was one tribulation.

Succeeding Thearesia, who had quit being the『Sword Saint』, Wilhelm enrolling in the Royal Guard with the recommendation of Bordeaux and the others as well was one tribulation.

Having affirmed a lifetime of service to Thearesia, Carol entered a relationship of love with one of Wilhelm’s comrades and the question of whether she would marry him or not was one tribulation.

Having accumulated an exceeding number of large-scale feats in battle, Bordeaux being provided a seat in the committee that settled major political situations was one tribulation.

 

With so much, truly so much happening, those days were really fun.

 

“I’m in love with you, Wilhelm. What about you?”

 

“ーーーー”

 

In the end, never did he ever pronounce the words that followed. Though he did prove through his actions in his words’ stead.

Only either a kind woman, or a woman who was head over heels in love with the man could have been swindled by thatーー since both held true for Thearesia, she kept on getting swindled.

 

Their time as a couple, passed in tranquillity and carefreeness.

Just as Wilhelm had promised Thearesia, ever since that ceremony, never even once did he make her grip the sword. Neither did Thearesia bear any lingering sentiments towards the sword. The Sword God’s voice had long become inaudible.

 

Yet, the『Divine Protection of the Sword Saint』did occasionally come to surface.

For example, when cooking, upon gripping a kitchen knife she spontaneously understood the optimal angle for striking and such. Above all, having an ability to cut aptly comprised merely the first step in preparation, as she began to learn more about what followed she started to realise that being a housewife​ was much tougher than being a swordsman.

 

“……Ah.”

 

In addition, this was also about the time she learnt how to control the『Divine Protection of Death God』. She accidentally cut her finger with the shell of an ingredient whilst cooking.

Voluntarily created wounds were anyhow subject to the Divine Protection. Pallid from the wound she had carved onto herself, as she panicked in an attempt to somehow stop the bleeding​, the bleeding ceased immediately.

 

ーーWas it really so easy, she thought, nigh revolted.

 

Accepting the Divine Protections’ existences, and controlling their power.

Despite of having been conferred a title so immense as the『Sword Saint』, in reality she was merely a little girl without even a grasp on the things she possessed.

If only, had this happened much earlierーー such mighty emotions, brimmed her heart reminiscing the images of her brothers.

 

“Thearesia.”

 

“ーーHm.”

 

At such junctures, Wilhelm returned as though wilfully.

And as Thearesia concealed her deepest heart, he removed her tender robes, and domineeringly advanced.

On such moments, was she saved.

 

“Are you, in love with me?”

 

“ーーーー”

 

Only that question did he stubbornly refuse to answer, though.

 

※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※

 

After that, again, a lot happened.

Truly, a lot happened.

 

The couple’s son was born, Heinkel.

The lady whom Heinkel welcomed as his wife, and she gave birth to who would be Thearesia’s first grandchild, Reinhardt.

 

ーーNobody at all, was to have been at any fault.

 

Not Heinkel, whom she proudly called her son, who devoted greater sincerity and endeavour towards the sword than anyone, with full earnesty and effort.

Nor the bride, who was afflicted by the illness called『Sleeping Beauty』, depriving Heinkel of any opportunity for vindication and left the child Reinhardt all alone.

Nor Reinhardt, who was blessed with talents capable of sending shivers upon a single glance, his childish frame crammed with preordainments of an unneeded extent.

 

No one was at fault.

That’s why the one at fault, just as always, was her self.

 

Heinkel distorted, the bride was taken prisoner to dreams, and Reinhardt endeavoured to be loved by such parents.

She found her self, having been the first one to take notice of this and fail to do anything, to be the utmost foolish and good-for-nothing.

 

“There’s a battle called the Great Subjugation…… the battle to bring down the White Whale. Over there, I’ll……”

 

A knight of the Royal Guard only in name, and a weighty mission only in name.

The trembling voice of her son accreted upon the submitted proposition, and Thearesia, alone and solitary, cemented a decision.

 

The longsword she once favoured and habitually used, had since always been under Carol’s care, retained in condition identical to back then.

 

“I am against it. What are you thinking!”

 

Though she was well aware this would happen, Wilhelm was against Thearesia’s decision.

She was pierced by a sharp glint infused with will.

 

His hair mingled with white, his voice lost of its former youthfulness, even so, Wilhelm’s foundation shan’t change.

His dignity, his zeal, his clumsiness, everything continued to be the way Thearesia had fallen in love with, and continued to love.

 

“ーーI, have made my decision.”

 

“All arbitrary! Just who asked for something like…… could it be.”

 

Wilhelm realized on whose proposal Thearesia’s obstinate attitude came to be.

His face tinted red with fury, his insuppressible essence of swordsmanship split open.

 

“That idiotic buffoon…… feel some shame…… ~hk.”

 

“Neither you nor I, have the right to say that.”

 

“ーーーー”

 

Wilhelm identically lamented for their son. His furious expression fading, Wilhelm bit his lips.

His fury persisted, yet suppressing his anger and feigning composure was something he had become adultlike in.

 

“I too, will take charge……”

 

“You have your own duties to fulfil. You must be aware, Wilhelm. ーーIt cannot be that you have forgotten, Ford-sama’s grief.”

 

“ーーーー”

 

The daughter of the king’s younger brother Ford, had been kidnapped by someone who intruded into the royal castle. As the commander of the Royal Guard, Wilhelm had the duty of retrieving her at once.

It was impossible to have the Sword Demon travel alongside to the Great Subjugation.

 

The call made in substitution for him was for Thearesia, the currently active successor of the『Divine Protection of the Sword Saint』, requesting her participation in battle.

She could not refuse. Her days of tranquillity lived in relinquish of the sword were solely concocted upon her own selfishness.

 

She could not, presume upon that any longer.

 

“Thearesia, something like this is……”

 

“Wilhelm.”

 

Thearesia called her husband, who attempted to persuade her all the more. Before his face, his breathing faintly halted, she enquired with a smile.

A question, after a long time.

 

“Are you, in love with me?”

 

“Wha…… ~hk.”

 

Unrestーー the same emotion as the past, she saw.

Whilst smiling, Thearesia used her hand like a sword and swiped Wilhelm’s shoulder. An attack that slashed the air, cleaved the skin.

Bared defenceless before his wife, Wilhelm was unable to react to the strike coming from beyond the bounds of his attention, as the wound on his shoulder started to bleed.

 

“Thearesia…… What are you doing?”

 

The power of the『Divine Protection of Death God』was activated on the shallow wound of his shoulder. It wasn’t severe, but the bleeding shall subsist. As long as Thearesia remained next to him like this, as long as she didn’t take distance from him.

 

“Thearesia?”

 

Her body gently leaned onto his chest.

Whilst feeling the sturdiness of the arms that caught her, Thearesia placed her lips on the wound on Wilhelm’s shoulder.

The blood dyed her lips in scarlet, she felt the taste of her husband’s blood for the first time.

 

“With this, you can no longer come after me. Because if you’re close to me, that wound will not close.”

 

“You did something so stupid for something like that…… Let me make it clear, even if the bleeding does not stop I will still”

 

“If you do then there’ll be no point.”

 

With a faint smile, Thearesia let go of his body.

And, whilst pointing towards the wound on Wilhelm’s shoulder,

 

“I shall leave that wound as is. So that you do not follow me. I will close it once both of our jobs are done.”

 

“ーーーー”

 

“No need to worry, who do you think I am? I am the strongest swordsman in this world, the most powerful after you.”

 

“Even if you compare yourself in your mid-forties to in your youth ……”

 

“Don’t say anything so redundant.”

 

She flatly shut the mouth about to articulate discourtesy.

Geez, this was how it was after more than twenty years of marriage.

 

The steel remained yet unchanged. Hence,

 

“I’m in love with you, Wilhelm.”

 

“ーーーー”

 

“Yes, that’s correct. Answer that afterwards.”

 

“Afterwards?”

 

Wilhelm furrowed his eyebrows, to whom Thearesia nodded.

And, whilst pledging their reunion upon her husband’s woundーー.

 

“Upon my return, that day, please let me hear the words I didn’t get to hear.”

 

※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※

 

Her memories, were evanescing, dissipating.

Visibility disturbed within the sandstorm, sounds of the environs became sporadic and difficult to grasp.

 

“ーー!”

 

Someone’s wrathful roars, shrieks, screams, could be heard.

One plane of her visibility was saturated in verdant greenーー no, it was the ground. It was the hue of a grassland. Upon surveying the surroundings, a dense fog locked the world in its entirety less than ten metres from her.

 

The subjugation forces had suffered halfway decimation, and her unit faced annihilation.

 

A desperate stampede began, and failed to perceive which direction to run into amidst the thick fog.

However, solely a vague sense of titanic pressure from the other side of the fog could be felt. Hence, voices flew, fleeing to its opposite direction.

 

“ーーーー”

 

All of a sudden, she was unable to remember what had occured.

Within the severe, violent clash, the engagement should have nevertheless progressed in their favour, and despite having long retired from battling, her might should have also served to be useful, that was how she ought to have feltーー.

 

“ーー?”

 

Her thoughts went only so far before she took notice of faint malaise.

She glanced down to her palm. Something, was off.

 

There was no problem in her limbs, her eyes, her feet.

But she somewhat felt as though, she had lost her wingsーー.

 

“The Divine Protection……”

 

She realised.

No longer could she anywhere feel, the sensation of the『Divine Protection of the Sword Saint』. All the same for the Sword God, who had remained beside her no matter how estranged and distant from the sword she was.

That scorn, was no longer anywhere either.

 

“Reinhardtーー!”

 

Thearesia simultaneously had a hunch to whom the Divine Protection had gone after vanishing from her body.

Was this the same feeling her uncle got when he sensed Thearesia had inherited the Divine Protection. Otherwise, it may simply be that Thearesia was aware of Reinhardt’s limitless natural talent.

 

Whichever it may be, Thearesia did not doubt that the generation of『Sword Saint』following her would be Reinhardt.

That intuition was perhaps traitorous to her own son, Heinkelーー but no longer remained either anyone she could put the blame on, or the time for her to put blame.

 

“ーーOh my, for a lone lady to remain in a place like this, quite gallant indeed.”

 

The graceful voice of a young girl, unbecoming for the time and space, resonated.

Turn back and Thearesia saw a petite shadow within the dense fog.

 

White clothes, platinum tinted hair.

Intimate and affectionate​, an amiable gaze imbued with sympathy boundlessly extolling togetherness towards the unacquaintedーー misdirected love, to an odious extent.

 

“ーーーー”

 

“It seems I have not quite been taken a liking to.”

 

Bracing her longsword, Thearesia stepped forward.

Had she been in peaceful times, she may have bore concern for the young girl. However, this was the world of death ruled by the dense fog of the White Whale.

A young girl emerging here, transcended mystery.

 

Even without the『Divine Protection of the Sword Saint』, Thearesia’s body bequeathed part of a former genius with the sword. Manifesting adequate ability of the zenith of swordsmanship, the bolting slash rended the young girl’s petite figure into twoーー,

 

“ーーI wish to, understand you.”

 

The young girl’s voice tickled her eardrums, and her consciousness was impeded.

With a splintering sound.

 

Within the darkness, her consciousness descended.

As though sinking within lukewarm water with her limbs bound, Thearesia’s body submerged, wilting.

 

The future of her grandson, the heart of her son, the bride who connected the two, worries and disquietude ran past her as though in haste.

And, in the end,

 

“Wilhelm”

 

Calling the name of the man she loved, her consciousness ceased in its entirety.

Andーー.

 

※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※

 

Thearesia: “A pathetic, face……”

 

Steadily opening her eyelids, there she saw a crumpled face

His head had become completely white, and more wrinkles of ageing had proliferated on his face, but she could not help but think that this was handsome in its own right.

 

There was no way she could have mistaken.

It was the face of her husband. Though it seemed quite some time had passed since that parting.

 

“ーーーー”

 

She inhaled, a deep breath.

There were others close by, could it have been Heinkel, and Reinhardt. She could feel their presence.

All three men of the Astrea family had assembled here, perhaps gone out of their way just to meet her, just to give her a sendoff.

 

Because everyone, is so kind.

 

Wilhelm: “Thearesia, I am……”

 

Wilhelm choked on his breath, his face etched with wrinkles.

Exceedingly unseemly before their son and grandson.

Just where did he forget his dignity and majesty. Above all, looking back at it now, such weaknesses of his surprisingly stood out always as well.

 

Thearesia: “Listen, Wilhelm……”

 

Her voice was husky, yet peculiarly youthful.

As if it wasn’t hersーー no, it was unmistakably hers, but she was supposed to be a proper grandma now.

It seemed like her voice back from when she had first fallen in love, how embarrassing.

 

“ーーーー”

 

When she had first fallen in love, she felt awkward upon feeling so.

There was not much time left, yet they wasted time simply gazing into one another.

 

But, even still, that’s alright.

 

Thearesia had sufficiently conveyed the words she should have conveyed. Wilhelm, too, must realise that.

Therefore, the one in need of time, of opportunity, of words was him.

 

Thearesia should simply, quietly wait for those words.

Albeit she will have to wait, her hopes will assuredly be fulfilled. That’s​ the kind of man Wilhelm Trias was.

That’s the kind of husband Wilhelm van Astrea was.

 

Wilhelm: “There is something I must tell…… you.”

 

“ーーーー”

 

Wilhelm; “I-I am a poor speaker…… I fail to convey my thoughts well, and caused hardship to you as well……. that’s why even in more than twenty years, never even once did I……”

 

“ーーーー”

 

Wilhelm: “For twenty years, I may have made you feel distressed. But, I am……”

 

Thearesia: “ーーA stupid person.”

 

Seeing him struggle to speak, as he clumsily fumbled to form words, she could no longer bear it.

Ended up laughing. Truly, just what was this man saying.

 

Thearesia: “Did you really, never notice?”

 

Her hand reached for the cheek earnestly seeking heartbreak, the countenance verging on tears even now.

Her body was terribly heavy. There was not much strength left in her body, but pouring all of her remaining strength into her fingers, she wiped away the tears trickling down his face.

 

Thearesia: “You had always, been saying it.”

 

“ーーーー”

 

Did he perhaps intend to hide it.

Did he perhaps intend, he could conceal it by simply never expressing it in words.

 

Thearesia: “Your eyes, your voice, your conduct, your actions, had always.”

 

All of what Wilhelm, had directed towards Thearesia.

Had been, more than anything, clearly conveying this person’s heartーー.

 

Wilhelm: “I am, with you”

Thearesia: “You are, with me”

 

That’s why, it was sufficient.

 

“ーーIn love.”

 

※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※

 

From the beginning till the end, my life was surely one filled with blessings.

I had my brothers whom I was cordial with, I had a female friend who was always warm towards me and took tender care of me, I was saved by many people, I met Wilhelm.

 

I’m sure, lots of problems still must be remaining.

But I have faith, that you all will be alright.

 

But, the truth is, just one thing.

There was just one last thing, left in my heart that I regret I didn’t get to ask.

 

ーーHow surprised would you be if you got to know, that it was actually love at first sight?

 

 

※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※ ※

 

Their exchange of words of love with one another, was the end.

 

Smiling in satisfaction, her cheeks dyed with the tint of love, and eyes glistened with tears, Thearesia van Astrea’s form lost its shape and crumbled in the blink of an eye.

Within the arms of the kneeling Wilhelm, no longer visible was the figure of a bloodied, gasping woman, what was bequeathed was only a wreath of ashesーー and that alone, gave credence to the sentiment that she was here.

 

“ーーーー”

 

Her life incinerated within his arms, Thearesia had become a wreath of ashes. Wilhelm looked down towards such vestiges of Thearesia’s, his gaze simply casted down, wordless.

 

???: “……Are you, satisfied now?”

 

And, instead of the silent, immobile Wilhelm, a man raised his voice.

The red-haired middle-aged manーー Heinkel, aimed a glare pervaded with hatred at Reinhardt, who was standing beside him.

Reinhardt slowly met that gaze, and shed a sigh.

 

Reinhardt: “Satisfied, what do you mean?”

 

Heinkel: “Don’t play dumb, it’s just as how we saw it! Are you satisfied? You must be satisfied now! Both in name and in reality, the position of『Sword Saint』is all yours now, congratulations! The rumours of you robbing it by killing the previous generation, are now true without a speck of doubt too. Tell me, aren’t you satisfied? Hey!”

 

Reinhardt: “I don’t quite understand, what you are saying.”

 

Heinkel: “Don’t you make that blank face! You shitty brat!”

 

Exhaling a hoarse breath, Heinkel tried to grab Reinhardt.

However, Reinhardt avoided his fingers, and constrained the body of his real father through his palm, as the latter stomped the ground to a paining extent.

There remained not a scintilla of impact on the form of the current generation『Sword Saint』for slashing the previous『Sword Saint』to death. The truth is, it didn’t serve to be an opponent either.

As though that truth was shoved onto him, Heinkel’s throat faintly shuddered.

 

Heinkel: “Don’t get carried away, Reinhardt…… ~hk.”

 

Attempting to inveigle such tremors of his own heart, Heinkel grew further frantic, and spat out whilst pointing a finger towards Reinhardt.

 

Heinkel: “No matter how many sweet nothings you line up, what I saw won’t change. It is fact that you slashed down mother…… Thearesia van Astrea. I’ll proclaim it. I’ll spread the word, such that nobody approves of you as the『Sword Saint』anymore!”

 

“ーーーー”

 

Heinkel: “No matter how unconcerned you look, there’s no way you’ll let go of your honour as『Sword Saint』. You may have dubiously managed so far, but not anymore. The one slashing his own blood relative to death is the『Sword Saint』? The sword of the kingdom? Hah, don’t make me laugh! You murdere~r!”

 

Reinhardt: “Deputy Commander, no matter how many times you say it, I do not understand what you mean. ーーIt is the Deputy Commander’s misunderstanding, that I slashed the previous generation to death.”

 

Heinkel: “Hu… h……?”

 

To Heinkel who argued vehemently, Reinhardt gave a quiet response. Heinkel rounded his eyes upon those words, but Reinhardt did not seem to intend deception or making excuses.

Reinhardt did not seek to opine. Reinhardt, was stating the truth.

 

Reinhardt: “The enemy just now was merely a corpse mobilised via some secret arts. It could not have been the previous generation『Sword Saint』…… grandmother. Did you not misconceive something?”

 

“ーーーー”

 

Heinkel made a stupefied expression at Reinhardt’s words.

He then rammed his hands into his red hair, tearing them off violently. A faint laughter leaking him, Heinkel, with an unhinged smile,

 

Heinkel: “Then, what was that at the end? When she was, talking to father!? When she was glaring so bitterly at you and me…… what was that, if that wasn’t mother!”

 

Wilhelm: “ーーEnough, now stop, Heinkel.”

 

Canines bared, Heinkel burned with emotion transcending hatred. The one to halt Heinkel’s fury was Wilhelm​, having maintained silence until now.

The aged swordsman, remaining in his crouched stance, tore a sleeve of his coat and treated the wound on his right legーー the locus impaled by the longsword.

 

The wound that shouldn’t close to due to the ability of the『Divine Protection of Death God』, had started losing its efficacy since the moment Thearesia’s being was lost. ーーNo, prior to that, it had stopped from the juncture the sane Thearesia had returned.

What ached instead was the wound carved onto his left shoulder at their parting.

 

The sane Thearesia on his left shoulder, and the demised Thearesia on his right leg.

With the loss of both, the wounds carved with the『Divine Protection of Death God』dispelled in their efficacy.

 

Heinkel: “Stop, you say…… father! Are you fine with that!? This guy is……!”

 

Wilhelm: “Stop, Heinkel…..Stop.”

 

As Heinkel attempted to snarl again, Wilhelm forbade him once more.

Taking off his coat now lost of a sleeve, Wilhelm wrapped Thearesia’s ashen vestiges in the opened cloth. It would be far too lonesome to abandon her to the wind’s mercy as is.

He believed he must, at the very least, return her ashes back to her grave.

 

Heinkel: “ーー~hk.”

 

Seeing the state of his father, Heinkel gnashed his teeth in vexation and swallowed his words. And, retrieving the ashes, Wilhelm stood up on a teetering gait.

Even if his bleeding had ceased, his body had lost a considerable amount of blood. The wound on the joint of his right leg was deep, making it feel uneasy to let him walk by himself. Reinhardt instantly attempted to support his tottering shoulders.

However,

 

Wilhelm: “ーーStay away!!”

 

“ーーーー”

 

Wilhelm’s bellow abjured those fingertips about to touch him.

Reinhardt halted his raised arm, and Wilhelm did not attempt to turn towards his countenance. Gazes never intertwined, the Sword Demon inhaled silently.

 

Wilhelm: “Reinhardt……”

 

Reinhardt: “ーーYes.”

 

Contrasting Wilhelm’s quivering voice, Reinhardt’s​ voice was confident and dignified.

Closing his eyes upon hearing his tone, Wilhelm articulated.

 

ーーIt was, a question.

 

Wilhelm: “Do you regret, that you slashed your grandmother…… Thearesia to her death?”

 

“ーーーー”

 

A faint interval sojourned in the answer to the question.

Or perhaps, this dialogue may have gotten deemed meaningless, similar to Heinkel’s earlier.

However, following a pause, Reinhardt responded.

 

Reinhardt: “No. ーーI did the correct thing. I, shan’t regret it.”

 

Wilhelm: “……I, suppose so. That’s right.”

 

“ーーーー”

 

Wilhelm: “You are correct. I am mistaken. ーーThat is why, there is no longer anything to talk to you about.”

 

Responding with a quiet voice, Wilhelm turned his back to Reinhardt.

The grandfather and grandson, without ever facing one another, concluded the decisive dialogue.

And, with a single upraised finger Wilhelm pointed towards the city’s centre,

 

Wilhelm: “I am worried about the City Hall, to which Garfiel-dono is headed. If it would be possible, then I would request you to head there to provide support.『Sword Saint』 Reinhardt-dono.”

 

“ーーーー”

 

Terribly formal and unduly distant, upon his polite words Reinhardt looked in the direction his finger was denoting. He then nodded, and finally glanced toward Heinkel.

Heinkel, yet charred with hatred, faintly paused his breath to those blue eyes, but Reinhardt let pass such trivial terror of his,

 

Reinhardt: “The outdoors are dangerous. Deputy Commander, if it would be possible then head to a shelter. ーーAlong with Wilhelm-dono.”

 

Heinkel: “Y-You just shut the hell up! Hurry up and disappear!”

 

Hurled with the words of a seeming sour loser, Reinhardt turned his face away. He then bolted towards the waterway, leaping as though to kick the water’s surface, with momentum enough to bound over a building he disappeared in the direction of the city’s centre.

Witnessing his inhumane talent and ability, Heinkel spat. He subsequently rushed to Wilhelm, who was steadily dragging his right leg as he walked. However,

 

Heinkel: “Father-dono, going alone is……”

 

Wilhelm: “Please leave me alone. I don’t want anyone to see my face, right now.”

 

Heinkel: “Father……”

 

Wilhelm: “There is no need for you to worry about me. You should just worry for your own safety. Hide yourself in a suitable building or shelter…… You, should be fine.”

 

Leaving solely his opinion behind, Wilhelm walked, deserting Heinkel.

His wife’s ashes wrapped in the coat he carried, he dragged his feet and faded into the distance.

 

“ーーーー”

 

Left behind, unable to call for his halt, or walk by his side.

Left behind, as Wilhelm dwindled out of view, Heinkel wasーー.

 

Heinkel: “What’s, your problem……  what’s your problem, what’s your problem, what’s your problem, what’s your problem, damn it, what the hell is your problem!”

 

In the plaza bereft of anyone, glaring at the stone pavement, Heinkel spouted his fury. Tearing at his head, roaring his rage inexplicable in words, he hurled the sword fastened to his waist to the ground.

Strummed by the ground with a solid echo, the beautiful knight sword glided across the floor and fell.

 

Heinkel: “Shitshitshitshit, god damn everyone……! Everyone just go die……! Just go die~e~e~e~e~e~ ~hk!!”

 

In the deserted plaza bereft of anyone, only Heinkel’s bleeding screech resounded in solitude.

The screech, melding boundless, ceaseless resentment and grief, echoed far and wideーー.

 

Grandfather, father, grandchild, the battlefield uniting the Astrea family, thus drew its conclusion.

 

Once a lady, a grandmother, a mother, a wife.

The end of Thearesia van Astrea engraved wounds upon the hearts of the respective three.

 

ーーWith this, all of the battlefields in the fight for the Watergate City of Priestella drew their curtains.

 

86 thoughts on “Arc 5, Chapter 73: “Thearesia van Astrea””

    1. I can’t wait for Subaru and her to interact with each other (it’s going to take a looong time I’m afraid). Then again, I wonder if Hector is still alive…. which would be bad

      1. Am i the only one that thought it odd that Roswaal seemed to adopt Hector’s speech mannerisms after his “recovery” from battling with Hector? I can’t help suspecting that perhaps his own soul wasn’t the only one that was transferred as is also inferred by his personality seeming to vary depending on which colored eye he’s regarding things with.

        1. Hector was the warlock of melancholy. Or as some would say, depression.
          Roswaal, has a tendency to give up on living and a willingness to allow people to shit talk him, as well be unnerved by the idea of someone loving him.

          Seems kinda…like depression. I honestly think that Hector did something to alter him significantly after their fight. Since Hector just disappeared, I wouldn’t be surprised if the fact that Roswaal has multicolored eyes signifies he has two souls within him (or he always had multicolored eyes, idk)

        2. I think it’s cause Young Roswell got traumatized by the fight and how weak he was against him that he adopted his long-vowel speech mannerisms and outfit, just like how subaru sometimes says when people are “slothful” (taida desu ne) like how Geuse used to say it. (Yes I call him Geuse now)

      1. Most likely not. She has her own goal and is probably just using the sin archbishops for her own good. Thats all

  1. This chapter was very emotional and nice, thank you very much for working on this chapter and uploading many chapters this week! 🙂

  2. This hurts me so bad… Man, the Astrea family’s a mess. Understandably so, but… ugh, it hurts.

    Thank you so much for all of your hard work!

  3. The favorite chapter of the arc so far. I really loved it. Theresia’s background is really amazing. The only thing I didn’t understand/like, that Theresia didn’t say a word to her child and grandchild. As for me, it is more important, than the exchange of well acknowledged love confessions.
    Thanks for the chapter really much.

    1. Well look, if you’re near your deathbed, along with three other people.
      One is your spouse, another is your ungrateful child and the last is the grandchild you barely get to know…
      Who would you say your last words to? And remember you’re like almost out of strength and speaking even a few sentences is the limit.
      With your limited number of sentences it shouldn’t be wasted.

      If I were Thereasia, fuck everything else, I’ll dedicate to the one I love the most.

    2. I wonder if the reason Heinkel turned out like that was because his parents didn’t really give him attention. Especially Wilhelm, it seems like he basically ignores Heinkel’s feelings right after his mother died in front of him, and yeah, Theresia barely noticed him on her deathbed, instead giving all her attention to her husband. This whole backstory was beautiful, but Heinkel really seems to be getting the short end of the stick, especially if his wife’s name was eaten. It makes it hard to hate the guy in the same way I originally did.

      1. If his wife’s name was eaten then nobody would remember her. She would just be a random sleeping lady, making Reinhardt a baby delivered by storks or something like momotaro. Plus didn’t it say it was the [sleeping beauty] sickness. But now I am curious what would the father think about his child if his wife got gluttony-ed. It’d be a total memory mess.

        1. The Sleeping Beauty sickness is a name for what happens when someone gets both their name and memories eaten. It’s directly used to refer to Rem.

  4. Oh man… to many feels. I have a bad feeling though. Hinkel somehow getting divine protection of sword saint and just wanting to take over the kingdom..

  5. Boi what the hell did Reinhard do… I feel bad for him, it’s not like he took away the divine blessing of sword saint on purpose which ultimately lead to Thearesia’s death, right? Plus I’m having mixed feelings about Thearesia’s character… UGHHH

    1. Reinhard is one character that suffer the most and he hide his suffering because of his duty, I guess that because he hide his felings that he looks cold

    2. He could be suffering inside you know? It must be hard for him too, and that cold exterior is probably just to runaway from his grief.
      He barely had any parents that loved him, his grandfather shunned him at a young age.
      I’m pretty sure only Thereasia ever showed him strong familial love. Then being told he was the one who killed (unintentionally) her. How must he had felt then?
      It’s painful, and the fact he can still act so noble with moral, and not fall into misery yet is extremely amazing.

    3. Reinhard acted logically and well it sounds bad but he eliminated a corpse so he didn’t kill her. Moreover, he said he’d already killed her when he was a child, so he feels guilty since then and well maybe he felt better when he finished her, I mean Heinkel and Wilhelm blamed him irrationally and hated him senselessly maybe he wants to have a real reason to be treated like that.

  6. The first line really hit me hard because it was shown in the anime that he did not like her that much when he first saw her. So he was just pretending to not be in love with her all along. And he was never able to tell her how much he loved her. That’s sad.

    1. Yeah it really was long. It took me a span of couple of days to read, though I like reading it in smaller chunks.

  7. This tears my heart
    Ewhen i read the line:
    “ーーHow surprised would you be if you got to know, that it was actually love at first sight?”
    My radio was playing “Used to Love”
    Coincidence or not, this is really touching

  8. What a fantastic and heartwarming chapter to be honest. It was just beautiful and incredible. It was also satisfying as I really wanted to know more about this love story since we first learnt about it at the White Whale’s battle. Such a believable love story from a perspective of someone actually relatable (even though she is an absolute genius in a fantasy world). The only thing I didn’t like as much is that Thearesia wasn’t really as happy at the end. I would’ve liked instead if she chose what she wanted to be rather than just being a housewife with regrets, it would’ve made much more sense after knowing her story so IDK why Tappei didn’t make it as such. I also didn’t like that at the end she didn’t give a fck about her son and grandson (who are usually more loved than the husband) and she just wanted to talk to Wilhelm. I get that he had to have the last words with her but c’mon, she could’ve said something to them to fix their wrecked relationship but well… Still this could be my favorite chapter, it was breathtaking and I don’t regret spending this time reading it slowly and carefully… Thanks Tappei.

    1. Her having regrets is something consistent with her character tho. It’s something that Reinhardt inherited with her role.

      As for her not speaking to son and grandson, I agree. I imagine she just didn’t have enough time before she died.

    2. Come on bro

      When You are in death bed with few sentences you would speak to your son and grandson????
      Normally A person near death can not think straight it is only that strong emotions that can make its way through pain and suffering to mouth.
      Wasting even a word on son and grandson which you can save for your most i loved would be Absurd.

  9. Did we actually get an answer regarding why Heinkel says Reinhardt killed Theresia? I always assumed that she lost the Divine Protection because Reinhardt found himself in a situation where he needed it, so his Divine Protection activated and took the Sword Saint protection from her to save his ass or something, therefore the reason she died in that battle was Reinhardt, even though unwillingly, stripped her of her power.
    Unless Pandora can overwrite Divine Protections, then that was my only theory.

    1. basically reinheart inheriting the power at precisely the wrong moment got her killed , basically his existance got her killed not any specific action , although to me it looks like she was what caused her to lose it , the second she thought of running away she lost the power

    2. Yes, exactly that! His father, Heinkel, knew what Reinhard can get other people blessings to himself. While other blessings can have dublicats only Sword Saint blessing is special one. So, Heinkel accuse his son in stealing his grandmother blessing, witch leads her to her defeat. Was it realy so what Reinhard used his power to get Sword Saint blessing unnaturaly, or it just a coinsidence what it passed down in wrong time is still remains to be seen.

  10. I guess we know now that Heinkel truly didn’t mean to get his mother killed, and she actually accepted it willingly. And he lost his wife to gluttony, and if we consider how Felis dealt with Crusch’s loss in Pride if, we can imagine how greatly it changed him.

    As for Theresia, I feel bad for her. Her life seriously sucked. Not only is she forced into an occupation she never wanted to be apart of, said occupation is what killed her. The stupid blessing arbitrarily chose her, and then arbitrarily left her and got her killed.
    She had another ridiculously horrible blessing that meant she could potentially kill someone easily. When you’re a kid, kids roughhouse, regardless of gender. And knowing she could simply push someone, they fall down and cut themselves and then it’ll never stop bleeding is horrific. And she couldn’t even test out how it worked, since she would have to volunteerily cur herself or something. And then she has to carry the guilt of just arbitrarily being better at an occupation she doesn’t like, even though people around her love it and trained so hard and she just surpasses them so easily. Feeling hatred at her own disinterest, people exalting her even tho she knows she doesn’t deserve it. Given so many expectations and thrust into literal war. Watched her family die, when she could do nothing, who never blamed her. She was “punished” for running from “responsibilities” that was assigned at birth.

    I think this chapter changed my opinion on her significantly. From the anime, a lot was cut out and it made the character of Thearesia and their romance not as powerful.
    When we get it from Theresia’s POV, you get to see own personal failings and her loneliness. God gave her a shit role, she wasn’t prepared for it, she let other ppl who studied better fight and lost them, and then that god laughs at her as she risks losing it all again. Her fight to save Wilhelm, and her thoughts that he belongs to her, was her first real battle.

    1. It’s even worse considering the war going on started because of her own side’s actions over who knows how long. The demihumans had good reason to fight! But starting a civil war is hardly an innocent thing and inevitably a lot of innocent people died on both sides. I honestly hurt over how much Theresia hated herself here, she was basically expected as her whole country’s arsenal in a fight where they were in the wrong, and by refusing to fight because she couldn’t handle how easily she’d slaughter people she instead watched her whole family sacrifice themselves. There’s a massive moral struggle there. Honestly it seems like divine protections pretty much mean having very little free will of your own, they seem more possessed by their god than the powerful entities they’re expected to be.

  11. Step 1: Lay down on your back

    Step 2: Try not to cry

    Step 3: Cry a lot when you see Thearesia and Wilhelm finally make peace ಠ╭╮ಠ

  12. So Heinkel’s wife was afflicted by “Sleeping Beauty,” which means her memories were eaten by Gluttony. Wonder if that’s going to pop up in the future (assuming it hasn’t already).

  13. Damn this was the first time Re:Zero got a tear out of me , just one but still a tear nonetheless , and im that guy who’s never cried at a funeral so applause the this series, still that was incredible ,now with his past finally behind him I’m hoping Wilhelm pulls a dying man and starts to repair his family’s bonds because between the emotional wreck of heinkiel and his gluttony’d wife and his emotionless granchild hes got his work cut out

  14. Thereasia and wilhem story was Amazing! It sometime hurts me when I look at Subaru and emilia when Emilia Can’t understand Subaru feelings.
    Still Awesome Story!!!!!

  15. Wilhelm finally got a closure, but I feel bad for Heinkel and Reinhard. Especially Reinhard, for some reason.

  16. Wow I just feel so bad for rienhardt and wilhelm both. Their family matters are likely to never be resolved just because of this now. Still I blame precsilla and Heinkel the most, although Reinhardt didn’t have a lot of consideration for wilhelms feelings either. Reinhardt acts justly and gets the good things done, but doesn’t make efforts to do it the best way. Reinhardt did defeat his opponent, however the way he did it ended up only hurting his grandfather more and further distancing the gap in their relationship.

  17. This was an amazing chapter. I didn’t care much for her backstory in season 1, but after reading this, Wilhelm is one of my favorite characters, and their love story was simply amazing.

    1. If you haven’t you should read the ex novels that feature willhelm as the protag, they dive deeper into their romance and show what happens after they fight in the castle and they’re really good. If you have the time and all of those things of course

  18. One of the best chapter in all of Re:Zero so far, perhaps.

    I love how flawed Thereasia was to the very end. Flaws are honestly what make great characters. I thought her reaction to only want those words from Wilhelm was perfectly in line with her character.

    Marvelous work from Tappei, made me so engrossed in a love story between characters I never thought I’d care about.

  19. Uhm… I really do not know what to say…
    This is BY FAR one of the best chapters in Re:Zero that I’ve read, I just loved their story till the end, I loved how we finally got to know Thaeresia’s true feelings and full backstory and overall this chapter was almost perfectly executed by Tappei.
    Ngl I literally cried 5 times reading this chapter and I very rarely cry for shows, so I just have to give props to Tappei for writing this and also share some love to everyone thats translating it!

  20. Not quite as big a fan of this chapter as everyone else, though it was good.

    Heinkel truly is a little shit, and I’m extremely disappointed in Wilhelm as well. The family falls further apart, the last thing Theresa would’ve wanted.

  21. So results on my part are 1: Enough tears to end a drought 2: Extreme sympathy for Heinkel, which I never thought possible, and 3: I kind of hate Reinhardt

    1. LMAO You realise you’re seeing Reinhardt’s reactions entirely through the eyes of the grandparent who abandoned him and blamed him right? If anyone’s cold in this scenario it’s Wilhelm, he was always coldhearted for everything except the sword and his wife. Ditched Heinkel and Reinhardt both, when Reinhardt loved Theresia and absolutely hurt over this from childhood. Reinhardt lost Theresia, was blamed for it by his family, had his previously loving father turn into a bitter alcoholic broken by his mother’s sickness, no doubt lost some good memories and influences himself by losing her memories, and was treated as a weapon to be controlled by the entire country. You think he’s not suffering? Really?

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