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ALL RIGHTS BELONG TO TAPPEI NAGATSUKI, THE ORIGINAL AUTHOR OF RE:ZERO STARTING A LIFE IN A DIFFERENT WORLD FROM ZERO, THIS IS A TRANSLATION OF THE FREE JAPANESE WEB NOVEL INTO ENGLISH
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Translated by :
- Ice_Occultism, /u/Ice_Occultism
- Furuta, /u/GracedHarperd
- Wintry, /u/WintryOne
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- Note to anyone reading this, it’s in the process of retranslation, this was one of my first ever TLs and it’s very poor quality, so I am trying to fix a lot of it.
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Natsuki Subaru slowly continued up the stairway, stepping firmly as he continued up. With madness filling his eyes, fury raging in his chest, and a knife in one hand, he continued to walk up.
[Subaru: Kill, kill, kill, I’ll kill you. Definitely, I will kill you…]
That whisper, rather like a rasp, were the words of an endless curse. If power dwelled in the might of words, then the sheer amount of curses Subaru was spewing out would indeed bolster his deed.
“Kill”, each time he said it aloud, he felt as if the power lodged in his knife increased.
[Subaru: Kill, kill, kill, kill, kill, kill…]
While muttering this, his sight would occasionally blur over. Subaru wonders how many hours he had spent crawling under the desert; he was exhausted. His head had begun to feel incredibly heavy; Subaru shook his head a few times.
In order to protect himself, Subaru must kill them. Otherwise, they will kill Subaru.
[Subaru: Kill, kill, kill, kill, kill, kill…]
Subaru does not want to kill… he has to kill. If we were to delve into the true meaning of Subaru manically repeating “kill”, we may suppose what he is saying is incorrect. If you truly reflect on Subaru’s feelings, maybe “kill” is not the most appropriate word.
… it is more accurate to say that Subaru does not want to die.
Thus, if the one responsible for this appeared, Subaru would kill him. Natsuki Subaru had finally reached the 4th floor of the tower. And, then he saw it…
Subaru breathed sharply. With a clatter, Subaru’s knife fell on the floor, his body was trembling. Shaking his head, Subaru took a step backwards.
The smell of blood lingered in the air. Traces of a fight were present in the room. Subaru was stood near a broken wall; the floor near him had been crushed through. Only something or someone who possessed great strength could have caused such destruction.
Whilst frozen completely still, Subaru saw her. Shaula’s head had been crushed, she was sprawled on the floor, and her body had been left in a grotesque state.
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Shaula’s corpse was in such a terrible state, Subaru wanted to cover his eyes.
Her long, black hair was sprawled untidily across the floor. Both of her arms had been sliced off at the elbows, and Subaru could not find a glimpse of them anywhere. A vast number of deep cuts had been carved onto her skin, and a large amount of blood was pooling out of them. The trail of blood had started from the back of the aisle, showing that it had been a long fought battle which had taken place across the room.
Likely, it was the blow to the head which had finally killed her.
Subaru muses that the one who had inflicted such a blow must have did so with something such as a large hammer. Her head had been crushed, scattering fragments of bone, brain and tissue about. It was extremely barbaric.
Shaula’s head had been completely obliterated from existence. Subaru recalls that it was not so long ago that she had been smiling warmly at him…
[Subaru: … gh]
Now Subaru was in shock, astonished, aghast…, his legs had given way and he was kneeling on the floor, staring at her corpse. The urge to vomit was unbearable, unable to stop himself, Subaru puked up the contents of his stomach. He expelled the contents onto the floor, some of which unfortunately ended up on Shaula… adding to her humiliating appearance.
[Subaru: Uu… oh… eh, blergh.]
Despite this, Subaru continues to vomit, not paying any mind to how he was desecrating Shaula’s corpse. He continues to vomit profusely, urging himself to expel the entire contents of his stomach to stop the pain that was burning inside his belly.
Finally, having finished puking his guts out, Subaru fell to the floor. He lay spread-eagled, staring at the ceiling, hands over his face it had been the first time he’d seen someone die.
It was the first time he’d seen a corpse.
For most people, the first time they’d encounter someone’s death would be when an elderly relative would pass away. However, Subaru’s relatives had all been relatively healthy, thus he had never experienced anything remotely like it. He had been lucky to have never even been to a funeral.
So, seeing something like this for the first time extremely shocked Subaru. On top of that, the manner of her death had been gruesome. People can have their lives taken away from them as cruelly as this.
[Subaru: Me, too…]
Subaru muttered this to himself, and slowly pulled himself up from the floor, using the wall to steady himself upright. His ears were ringing really strongly.
Subaru had been struck in the back and plummeted to his death after being pushed out of the tower by someone. His death must have been equally as gruesome, likely, on impact, his body would have resembled something like a hunk of meat. All of that in the blink of an eye. Subaru feels relieved that it was not possible for him to have seen the aftermath of his own death.
If there was such a thing as seeing one’s death with their own eyes, it would be impossible to retain your sanity. Even though Subaru knew he had died, he was suddenly struck by shock at his realization that he had died.
Subaru stops his train of thought and falls down next to Shaula, yet he tries to not look at her corpse.
He knew she was dead.
There was still a terrible presence lurking around within this tower. Subaru realises now that he was not the only one who had set out to murder people in this tower; someone else was doing the same thing.
It was bad news for the now deceased Shaula, however this bode good news for Subaru. Subaru doesn’t know who had killed him, thus he would not rest until he found out who had been responsible for his death. But, as Shaula had died, she could be struck off the suspect list. Now his list was down to seven potential names. Subaru was also convinced that the person who had killed him was hostile not just only towards him – or even it could be someone he hadn’t met who was trying to kill everyone in the tower.
In other words, it could be possible that someone else could kill the one who had murdered Subaru.
Therefore, he must kill all the survivors. Only then Subaru can be at peace of mind.
[Subaru: I see… Ram, Echidna, Julius as well. They must die.]
Since Beatrice and Meili are children, Subaru barely places any emphasis on them as he concludes he will be able to kill them pretty easily. Emilia, as well. Shaula… she had already died. As they are not cautious around Subaru, they would be very easy to kill. However, Ram and Echidna would pose to be more problematic. He had received the impression that those two were probably two of the hardest people to kill, even if he caught them by surprise.
Subaru didn’t know how to evaluate Julius, however he muses that he was worthy of looking out for as he is the only other man in the tower, if he didn’t count himself. That and it was also a problem that he carried a sword at his waist. But, if Subaru could take that sword, then he was certain he would have an advantage. After all, he was quite apt at kendo.
[Subaru: Above there… that fucking bastard.]
Subaru shook his head at thought of the red haired man who was sitting on the upper floor of the tower. It would be impossible to eliminate him. It would be futile to interfere with such a superhuman being. Natsuki Subaru’s common sense concludes that it would be impossible to win that fight.
There are things that just can’t be killed. If there was one thing to comfort Subaru in this instance, it was that he doubted such a man would kill Subaru in such a trivial way.
Subaru picked up the knife he had dropped earlier, walking away from Shaula’s corpse. For a moment, Subaru was at loss at whether to investigate her body for any clues, but he doubted that he would find anything that would be useful hidden inside her clothing as she was very scantily dressed. 1 He also did not want to humiliate her death further.
She was dead. Those who are dead are no longer Subaru’s enemies. She just had no luck. Subaru will not bother doing anything as admirable as clasping his hands together in prayer for her.
He leaves her corpse behind, as he walked further into the tower, following the trail of destruction.
The tower is silent, not one sound can be heard. To Subaru, this silence was quite overwhelming.
His ears are ringing; he can feel his blood pumping around his body. But, strangely enough, his heartbeat had calmed down as if his prior agitation at seeing Shaula’s body had not occurred. 2
Whilst going up to the 4th floor of the tower, dark hatred had boiled inside him, the feeling remained and was still stuck to his chest like dirt. Even now, for the sake of his own survival, his willingness to murder everyone was unshaken. Stab them, gouge them, and take away their lives. Subaru is prepared to do it. And yet … Subaru had just turned the corner. Lying in front of him was Echidna’s severed body, and now Subaru realised that his preparation to murder everyone had been all for naught as he looked upon this hellish scene.
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Echidna’s body was severed from the right shoulder, to the left side, suffering a wound which Subaru thinks is caused by a large blade.
Subaru suddenly imagines that this could have been caused by a sword, rather, his suspicions fall onto Julius who carries a sword. It was a cheap-looking, likely mass-produced sword, but certainly it would have been able to have slashed through Echidna’s delicate body. The question was, what reason would Julius have to kill Echidna?
When he had been introduced to them, Subaru had heard that Echidna and Julius had a relationship quite like one of a master and a dedicated servant. There were some complicated circumstances involved, but, it should have been quite a close relationship. Of course, if Julius was crazed and wanted to kill everyone in the tower, then that would bear no impact.
[Subaru: Ua… ah… hgh.]
Subaru leaned against the wall and vomited again. The corpse was not as mutilated as Shaula’s. Still, even though it took Subaru great courage to look at it, her manner of death had been different to Shaula’s.
While it had seemed that after Shaula’s death her corpse had been abandoned, on Echidna’s body there was a white cloth that had been placed over her. Her eyelids had been closed by someone as well.
Given that they had been slaughtered in different ways, Subaru notes there had been differences in how the dead had been treated afterwards. In this situation, even thinking which aftermath is the most normal seems to be crazy.
[Subaru: Echidna is also gone…]
Subaru’s breathing trembles, his voice feels hoarse, and he can barely stand up as his legs are shaking. He mentally makes a note of what he had learnt, and slowly walks deeper into the tower, looking for survivors to kill. Or, rather, Subaru doesn’t know whether what he wants is dead or alive now.
At the back of the hallway, Subaru finds Ram, part of her back was blown off.
Her body had a large hole between her chest and waist; her corpse was in a really pitiful state with her flesh adorned by multiple cuts. The manner of killing appeared similar to how the earthworm that had attacked and nearly killed Subaru had died. Ram had likely been struck in the back as she was running away. Subaru bit his lips, and left her corpse behind with a feeling of regret, and cursed.
Subaru vomited again.
In the dining hall, where they had explained to Subaru about his past, there lay the corpses of Meili and Julius.
Julius’ death was strikingly terrible. Deep wounds and lacerations were present across his body; they were so deep that Subaru believes something extremely sharp must have caused them. His left arm had been severed away at the elbow – the stub had been crudely wrapped and bandaged. Subaru could not find a direct cause to his death. Perhaps he had simply died of blood loss. Had he been protecting the girl behind him, was that the reason he had fought until the end?
Subaru vomited yet again.
Meili, who had been slumped against the wall, with her hands around her belly, was the only one who had died with what seemed like a peaceful expression frozen on her face. Her hands were concealing a wound in her stomach; a copious amount of blood had seeped out of the wound. The cause of her death would also have to be attributed to blood loss.
Her remains had such tranquility to it, Subaru refused to understand it.
Once again, Subaru vomited.
It’s a corpse, it’s a corpse, it’s a corpse, it’s a corpse, it’s a corpse. There were only corpses here. They were all scattered around the tower. What was going on here, Subaru could not understand what was happening.
It had been an ideal situation, if everyone but Subaru had died. However, it is impossible to understand why everyone was dead now; they should have no knowledge of Subaru even existing.
Shaula’s head had been crushed, and her body had been sliced up.
Echidna had been collapsed by a terrible blow from the shoulder to her side.
Ram had a huge hole in her back.
Julius had fought bravely and fiercely, but eventually had lost his life.
Meili had died from her wounds, accepting her death.
Is there anything he could do? Who was the culprit behind these killings? Could Subaru even accept this situation?
[Subaru: Emilia, and Beatrice…]
Subaru had found 5 dead bodies, 2 of the suspects had yet to be found. Did one of them, or both, conspire to cause these acts of senseless killing? First of all, those two had been the most concerned about Subaru losing his memories. Could malintent be present from that attitude?
He had found five dead bodies, white sheets covering four of them. Four of the corpses had been laid to rest on the floor, covered by a white sheet, with their eyelids closed. There had been some respect given to the dead there. Except for Shaula’s body.
When had all of this occurred?
The blood seemed to have dried up. Subaru thinks about how each person must have died, as he looks around for Emilia and Beatrice. The stench of blood and death overwhelms Subaru. It pierces the depths of his mind and his stomach heaves in pain. He dry heaves, having already expelled the contents of his stomach earlier. Subaru’s body was devoid of fluid. He can’t figure out why everyone was dead, he had intended to kill them after all, yet he had not been around to do it.
Subaru thinks that it has been several hours that have passed since their deaths, or even a dozen. He doesn’t know how long he had spent wandering around the underground cave in the desert.
There is just confusion and chaos. One way or another, Subaru will attempt to manage the current situation. To find a reprieve, for that reason, Subaru has to reduce the amount of suspects. If one or both of the criminals who created this situation dies, he will be free.
Subaru enters the Green Room. Subaru spots a lizard-like creature sitting in the corner. It was the first living creature he had found ever since returning to the tower.
[Subaru: What is this lizard doing here?]
On seeing her survival Subaru gave her a smile. He had happened to meet a survivor, a surviving lizard, in fact. Clicking his tongue, he began to leave the room. There was nothing else in the room except the lizard. However…
[Subaru: Don’t follow me.]
The lizard had followed Subaru out of the room; it was surprisingly large, as big as a horse. It moves along, following Subaru across the hallway. Subaru started to wildly shake his arms, threatening her, spittle flying from his mouth.
[Subaru: I do not have time to play with you right now! In this tower, I have to kill the remaining guys! If you disturb me…]
Whilst gripping the knife in his hand, Subaru stares at the lizard. The lizard looks at the knife which Subaru is swinging around, but quickly looks back into Subaru’s eyes instead.
Ignoring the knife, and gazing steadily at Subaru, Subaru’s voice begins to shake. It’s as if it does not care about Subaru’s murderous intentions. It is terribly unpleasant, it is extremely uncomfortable, because she is inspiring the hostility that had been smouldering within Subaru.
[Subaru: Hey, you son of a bitch, don’t fool about with me.]
As he gave this outburst, Subaru plunged his knife into the lizard. The tip of the knife plunges into its jet black scales. Though at first, the knife encounters a bit of resistance, it is able to pierce deep into Patrasche’s body. He had stabbed the lizard through the left side of her body, yet she remained unmoving. The blade was buried into her to its hilt, blood started to spill out of her wound.
[Subaru: With this…]
Subaru breathed a ragged sigh. For the first time, he had taken action to killing a living being. Subaru’s heart was beating wildly, a certain sense of agitation was overwhelming him. He couldn’t finish his speech.
[Subaru: Ah… uh…]
The lizard had been stabbed with the knife. Nevertheless, she still looked at Subaru. She reacted in neither pain nor surprise; she simply just looked down at the work of Natsuki Subaru. In her eyes, he could not read her emotions, yet they look as if they are blaming Natsuki Subaru.
[Subaru: Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck! What is that, WHAT IS THAT, WHAT IS THIS?]
Scratching his head, Subaru breaks into this outburst. Whilst shouting, Subaru had forgotten to retrieve the knife he had stuck inside the lizard’s body. He begins to move over to her, to retrieve it.
No, Subaru does not have the courage to even touch the knife. The expression in the lizard’s eye is frightening to him.
[Subaru: You… except you, the corpses! Someone who lives! I don’t know whether they are alive or dead! What on earth, what do you want!? What is it!?]
While he understands it’s useless he shouts this out in front of the wounded lizard. While thinking about how he wandered within the tower, how he wandered in the deep darkness of the caverns where nothing can be seen, where left and right cannot be distinguished, how he was suffering from being thrown into this world, Subaru feels depressed and overwhelmed in emotion.
[Subaru: The one who always tries to kills me keeps succeeding! The people relying on me always let him escape! Don’t push your luck! Acting like you know me… it’s not a joke!]
[Subaru: I don’t know any of you! What are you guys even thinking! Everyone, everyone, I am compulsed to by my situation! It’s because of you all that I am at my limit! I am at my limit!]3
Shouting and screaming, Subaru begins to shed tears, kneeling down where he had fallen. In front of him, the lizard did not cry out or make a sound; she continued to gaze at Subaru, breathing raggedly. Subaru had pressed his head to the floor and was not able to see her.
[Subaru: Please… leave me alone… abandon me.]
Subaru’s sobs echo across the hallway. How long had passed? Several seconds? Dozens of seconds? Several minutes? Subaru who cannot find it in himself to move, is crouched on the floor, when he suddenly notices – faint tremors, coming closer… he could sense them against his face as he had it pressed to the floor.
Subaru lifted his face; he looked at the lizard that had now opened her mouth. Her mouth was lined with sharp fangs, it inches closer towards Subaru. He wonders whether she will bite his head and kill him. If she does he would hardly care.
The lizard had picked up Subaru by his left shoulder, and without pausing she started to run. His body had been forcibly pulled up from the ground. The sharp fangs of the lizard had bitten into his shoulder, a shriek of pain escaped Subaru’s mouth.
[Subaru: Gh-, aah, aaaah.]
It tried to kill him. It had tried to kill him possibly, that idea was stuck in Subaru’s mind. However, in actuality, the fangs biting his shoulder had made him stand up, yet he still feared the pain despite him being mentally prepared for his death. 4 He imagines his shoulders are going to be eaten, his whole body, eaten, and left to die. To die being eaten by a living creature was one of the worst deaths Subaru could possibly imagine. 5 Subaru started to tremble in fear.
The hallway which Subaru stood in was on the verge of being engulfed by a vast amount of black fog. He hears a heavy impact which causes dust and debris to scatter around, the fog was overrunning the hallway, engulfing the ceiling, the walls, the floor… it was heading towards Subaru. The fog was made up of many, many black shadows, each tendril resembled an arm.
[Subaru: Shadows with arms…]
In his mind, there was the shape of a woman who intended to hurt him, by the stairs, amongst the haze. A woman who was drenched in shadows, her face was hidden by a black veil, his heart suddenly wrenched in fear. The shadows that had been engulfing the room were akin to the ones that covered this woman. It will engulf the tower’s passageway, and Subaru, as it pleases.
The lizard did not answer, but whilst dragging Subaru with him by its mouth, it ran away through the hallway at full gallop. Subaru, who had been looking at the opposite direction to the pathway which the lizard was running strenuously to, could not see where she could escape to. Instead he was looking at the shadows which had followed them. The blood inside his body froze.
To be devoured by that shadow, or to meet a terrible death. 6
Making his mind up, Subaru pushes at the lizard’s fangs which are gripping his shoulder. He cried in pain, if he could shake her off it would be the end for him, something that he would gladly welcome. At this point, his hatred for the lizard, it is an obsession that would serve him no use.
In front of them, there was a loud boom and the aisle in front of them blew up. The shadow was attempting to block their way.
Reacting to this, the lizard turns back around, she dives straight into the shadows, and just an instant before they are engulfed she turns into a side-corridor. She runs past the tendrils which are jutting out of the shadows. And like that, she continued to run, having temporarily escaped.
[Subaru:… a spiral staircase…?]
A huge spiral staircase was in front of them which connected the fourth and fifth floors of the tower. Subaru was lost for words; he could see the fifth floor which was below him from the height he was at on the fourth floor. A fleeting moment of fear passes Subaru in which he recalls how he had fallen down the tower.
Below him, the staircase was being engulfed by the shadows, from the passageway that would have led down to the fifth floor. In other words, the tower’s lower half was starting to be literally devoured by the shadows.
[Subaru: I cannot escape down there… nor behind me.]
The bottom layers of the tower were already engulfed by the shadows’ arms, from behind him a stream of dark tendrils was closing in on him. There was nothing really he could do, he had been caught up with, he was near his end. Would they be devoured by the shadows, or be killed in some other manner? These options to Subaru seemed absurd.
For a second, the idea of suicide flitted across Subaru’s mind.
If he was destined to die by being swallowed by the shadows, would it not be better to choose how he died? That was a possibility which Subaru could take.
[Subaru: Ah, -urgh]
As soon as he thought about taking his own life, Subaru’s body started to tremble. In the unlikely case Subaru chose to suicide, what would he do if it ended there. He vaguely believes he could return like the previous times he had died, but there was no guarantee at all. He had first thought that it had all been a precognitive dream. Until the last time he had returned, it had all been a painful precognitive dream. If this time was going to be the last one, then that would be it for Subaru.
Why must he die? He had not done anything wrong. Why must he pay with his life? Why himself?
[Subaru: NO! I do not want to die!]
Subaru screamed this without shame. There was no one in the tower who could hear it. There were only dead people and missing people here. It was only the lizard, who was not a human being that could hear what he had said.
Whilst holding Subaru by its fangs, the lizard gave an almighty roar. Immediately, the lizard broke into a sprint and dashed away from the tendrils that were approaching from the passageway they had come through. Without stopping, she jumps onto the remaining part of the spiral staircase which had not been consumed by the shadows.
No matter how agile they are in jumping up the crumbling stairway, Subaru thinks that they will likely lose momentum, miss a jump and plummet down to the shadows underneath them. However, the lizard had come up with an ingenious idea to overcome this desperate situation.
The lizard digs its feet into the side of the tower wall. Now, it would be impossible to fall as the lizard is firmly gripping the wall with its sharp claws. … That is, if the wall was vertical.
The lizard emits a roar and starts to run across the wall. The tower had begun to tilt due to the amassment of shadows that had been engulfing it. The lizard was scaling up the wall which was tilting obliquely to one side.
[Subaru: Well… that’s…]
What was going on? Everything was swaying, Subaru could not make sense of what the complete picture here was. However, it was clear that this black lizard was spending its remaining strength in trying to survive. Subaru notices that she was heavily struggling.
Suddenly, a tendril reached out to where the lizard was. It had realized its prey had escaped from the staircase, and had scaled onto the wall of the tower. The lizard barely managed to avoid its attack. A violent shockwave had accompanied its attack, which had left a large hole in the side of the tower.
Without hesitating, the lizard slips into the hole that had been created by that devastating attack. Subaru is jolted left and right by this sudden motion, resulting in his sense of balance being completely lost as well as his view of the scene spiralling out. However, it is due to the lizard’s evasive manoeuvres, ensuring that Subaru is not hit by the shadow’s attack that he had to endure such a dizzying experience.
They came out of a large hole from within the bottom of the tower. Immediately, he is greeted by a sandy breeze, and his field of view starts to blacken as he closes his eyes.
Subaru notes that he is outside. Had it jumped out of the tower? The lizard had been desperately scaling down the tower, trying to escape the shadows…
[Subaru: … huh?]
The lizard’s thin neck was bent towards him; a strong breeze was buffeting them. The lizard let go of Subaru, pulling its fangs out of his shoulders. Subaru’s eyes flashed in pain as he felt the sensation of the fangs being removed from his flesh. However, he ignored his pain, as well as the strong wind which was blowing against him. His body had been struck by something hard. After being bumped around, rolled about and thrown out to the floor, Subaru opens his eyes.
In front of him, Subaru glimpses the dark night sky. Yet there something strange about it… the sky was flickering.
Subaru started to panic, the view he was seeing was far beyond what his imagination could comprehend. Subaru notices that he was on an area which was jutting out of the tower, resembling something like a balcony.
She had gone through the hole, rushed up the wall, and thrown him here.
Fearfully, Subaru rushes over to where the lizard was rolling away, closer and closer to the looming shadows. And there he saw its end… the lizard had thrown itself into the shadows, in place of Subaru.
… The falling lizard is swallowed by the black shadows, disappearing into the abyss.
He had stabbed her with his knife due to his crazed anger, yet she had not even cared about her own pain and fear, she had brought Subaru to this balcony and then had been swallowed by the shadows. A terrible end was waiting for Subaru, to be swallowed by those shadows.
[Subaru: What is that, what is that, what is that.]
What is that, what is that, what is that, what is that. Subaru does not know.
Subaru was watching the bottom of the tower gradually being engulfed by the shadows from the balcony, when suddenly, a white bird flew up and landed on the edge of the balcony. Subaru gazed emotionlessly at it, breathing out a “ha” as he looked at the plump bird. He started to think about what had happened.
The suspects who had died, the suspects who had disappeared, the lizard that had helped him at the cost of his life, and now, a white bird had suddenly appeared in this crazy place. Little by little, the tower was being swallowed by the darkness and disappearing in front of Subaru’s eyes.
While sensing that the end was approaching, Subaru feels a great weakness in his body, and sits down on the balcony floor. He now understood that the lizard had been trying to save him. But even though he now comprehends this, he feels as if its efforts had been futile. It had bought only a little more time before he would succumb to death too.
Subaru suddenly lifted his head up. There was someone behind him. It wasn’t a bird, or a lizard, or a shadow.
The sign of a living being, someone was there. Subaru stood up.
[Subaru: You… what do you want?]
Subaru asks this in a very faint tone of voice, having no strength left within him to even look back behind. The person who stood behind him laughed, and spoke with a voice he had never heard before.
[?: … next, try guessing, hero.]
For a second, Subaru heard a whooshing noise. Then his field of vision started to spin rapidly in front of him. The desert, the sky, the tower, the world… all of them were spinning in front of him. His body felt awfully light. He was flying up into the sky like a bird. And then he realised what had happened.
The someone from behind had decapitated him.
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[Emilia: … Subaru! Hey, Subaru, are you okay?]
His decapitation and subsequent loss of consciousness had happened in an instant. He could feel that he was lying in a soft bed of ivy. Subaru woke up, for a second, he could not recognise to whom this chiming voice belonged to.
[Subaru: Emi… lia…]
[Emilia: Oh, Subaru, thank goodness. You woke up. I was really worried about you.]
Subaru slightly opened his eyes. In front of him, there was Emilia, a relieved expression resting on her face. She had been stroking Subaru’s chest, just as he had woken up. A smile appeared on her lips.
When he saw Emilia, he immediately looked at her slender, beautiful neck with smouldering rage in his eyes. Subaru stretched out his hands, grasping Emilia’s neck with a sense of fury. Her slender neck fit easily between Subaru’s hands.
[Emilia: Subaru, what’s wrong?]
Emilia was staring in puzzlement at Subaru, her eyes widened in surprise. Subaru was surprised by his reaction, but he did not reject his feelings of anger. If Subaru put his entire strength behind choking her, he was sure he could break her neck easily. Even though her life was held within Subaru’s grasp, Emilia’s reaction was awfully slow, moreover-
[Beatrice: Emilia, apparently it seems that Subaru is still half-asleep, I suppose. Betty was worried about you, though.]
Subaru let go of Emilia’s neck immediately. Looking at her, he sees Beatrice place her arm on the side of his bed, her nostrils flaring in disgust at Subaru. Emilia gave a wry smile, and said “Well.”
[Emilia: Well, it’s better for you to be half-asleep than it being anything else more serious. When I found you collapsed on the ground, Beatrice was nearly in tears.]
[Beatrice: Do you not have anything that you want to say to me, I suppose.]
Beatrice turns away, her face red, slightly angry at Emilia having told Subaru about that. The two who were talking to each other had not even realised that Subaru had intended to strangle them. When he had been stirred awake, he had not been aware that he wasn’t in a perilous situation anymore. Subaru had reappeared…
[Subaru: … that is, here.]
Immediately after that “Natsuki Subaru” that was unknown to him had lost his memories, that is, as soon as he had been summoned into this world, he realises that he has returned to that very same place which it had all started. And, at the same time…
[Subaru: … you…]
Subaru hastily turns around, looking towards the corner of the room. Subaru sees her. The lizard that had given her all to save Subaru, the one who had sacrificed herself to the shadows in a bid to buy Subaru time. She was looking rather unperturbed, standing in the corner of the room.
[Subaru: … somehow, I doubt it was Emilia and Betty that found me.]
Subaru muses this for a second, before rushing over towards where the lizard stood.
[Subaru: Heh, Patrasche, don’t make that face, don’t pout, me and you, we are close friends.]
Behind him, Subaru could hear Beatrice and Emilia talking to one another. Subaru did not care to join in; he was too busy tightly embracing the large body of the lizard in front of him, immensely thankful that she was here.
He was eternally grateful that back then she had been the only one who had not tried to hurt Subaru.
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-  Hopefully got the gist of this right, I think he wanted to see if he could find anything from her, but then he reckons there would be nothing really hidden cause of the way she dresses. Props for Subaru not being a necrophiliac.
-  Poor translation, I think Subaru means that his pulse is more normal now that he feels he’d forgotten about his earlier reaction at seeing Shaula’s body.
-  These Subaru feverish exclamations were hard to edit, possibly slightly misworded some parts but the emotion is preserved.
-  Tricky to edit. I think that’s the gist of what is meant, he is scared of the pain even though he had accepted death.
-  Poor Subaru, jk, fuck him for hurting Patrasche. It’s cool though that I think in Arc 4 he regarded being eaten by the Great Rabbit as one of the worst deaths and now he echoes this despite not knowing about it.
-  In his feverish thoughts Subaru thinks Patrasche will still gobble him up after.
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