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ALL RIGHTS BELONG TO TAPPEI NAGATSUKI, THE ORIGINAL AUTHOR OF RE:ZERO STARTING A LIFE IN A DIFFERENT WORLD FROM ZERO, THIS IS A TRANSLATION OF THE FREE JAPANESE WEB NOVEL INTO ENGLISH
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Translated by :
- Ice_Occultism, /u/Ice_Occultism
- Furuta, /u/GracedHarperd
- Wintry, /u/WintryOne
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- Note to anyone reading this, it’s in the process of retranslation, this was one of my first ever TLs and it’s extremely extremely poor quality (tons of mistranslations), so I am trying to fix it slowly.
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Natsuki Subaru slowly continued up the stairway, stepping firmly as he continued up. With madness filling his eyes, fury raging in his chest, and a knife in one hand, he continued to walk up.
[Subaru: Kill, kill, kill, I’ll kill you. Definitely gonna kill you…]
That whisper, rather like a rasp, were the words of an endless curse. If power dwelled in the might of words, then the sheer amount of curses Subaru was spewing out would indeed bolster his deed.
“Kill”, each time he said it aloud, he felt as if the power lodged in his knife increased.
[Subaru: Kill, kill, kill, kill, kill, kill…]
While muttering this, his sight would occasionally blur over.
Maybe it was a combination of his exhaustion from spending hours crawling around the area beneath the desert, and his fears. For a moment, Subaru’s head felt strangely heavy, making him shake his head a few times.
Now was not the time to collapse in a place like this, after all the place he was in was an environment full of people who were a danger to him. It was the sort of environment where he couldn’t tell between friend or foe. It was already an enemy’s den.
In order to protect himself, Subaru had to kill them. Otherwise, they would come to kill him.
[Subaru: Kill, kill, kill, kill, kill, kill…]
He didn’t want to kill them… he had to kill.
If the langage de l’âme here took the condition of using words correctly, then it was likely that the word “Kill” coming from Subaru’s mouth was not quite right.
If it truly reflected his feelings at heart, then the right word he should be using here wasn’t “Kill”.
――Rather, “I don’t want to die” would be more correct.
That’s why he’d made up his mind that the first thing he would do was kill anyone who appeared before him.
Natsuki Subaru reached the 4th floor of the tower.
And there he laid his eyes on that.
He let out a short gasp.
His knife fell on the hard floor with a shrill clatter. his body was trembling. His fingers were stiff as rocks, unmoving. Subaru shrunk back, able only to shake his head slowly.
The smell of blood brimmed in the air, and the traces of a terrible fight that chilled even him.
The stone walls and floor were broken and smashed up; and standing there in the area that housed the lingering remains of such destruction was Subaru.
He looked at that, frozen in place.
――Shaula, her head crushed, was sprawled down on the floor, with her body a complete sight for sore eyes.
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Shaula’s corpse was in such a terrible state that it made him want to cover his eyes.
Her long brown hair which had been tied up was now was sprawled untidily across the floor. Her limbs were flumped about to her side energylessly, and what’s more, one of her arms had been sliced off at her elbows, the other at her wrist, with the severed parts nowhere in sight.
Her lustrous pale skin bore countless wounds, and a large amount of blood had been splattered nearby. The trail of blood continued further back down the aisleway and ended where she’d met her end, provind that the battle had been long fought and changed places many times.
Most likely it had been the wound to her head that had settled the fight and killed her―― Wound was too light of a word to use; that which had laid waste to her life was a lethal hole.
Maybe it could be said that someone had swung down a great hammer on her head.
He couldn’t think of any other barbaric way that her head would have been smashed in, scattered about, throwing its insides just about everywhere around. A tremendously huge blow from something had smashed up her head.
Shaula’s head had been smashed apart and completely destroyed. Though it had only been for a short while, he remembered how she’d unhesitatingly gotten closer to him and turned her genuine open smile at him…
[Subaru: … Bh]
Subaru sunk to his knees where he was, as he gazed at her remains aghast, in shock, in disbelief. The urge to vomit was unbearable, unable to stop himself, Subaru puked up the contents of his stomach. The contents of his stomach which had turned to gloop, mixed in with his gastric juices, splurged out of his body with an acrid smell to them. They even got onto Shaula’s remains further humiliating her in after-death after having died in such a gruesome manner.
[Subaru: Uu! Ghhh, Ghuuuu, blergh...]
Despite that, Subaru, while hunched over, continued to vomit, having no composure in himself to pay attention to how he was desecrating the dead.
He could do nothing more than let his throat open as wide as it could and spew out the burning sensation that pervaded him as he felt the pain of his stomach tightening and the unceasing feeling of wanting to vomit.
Finally, when he finished puking his guts out, Subaru threw himself down to the floor. He lay spread-eagled, staring up at the ceiling with his hands over his face.
It was the first time he’d seen someone’s death.
It was the first time Subaru had ever come face to face with a person’s corpse.
For most people, the first time they’d encounter someone’s death would be when an elderly relative would pass away. However, Subaru had never been to a funeral before, as his grandparents on both his mother’s and father’s side were still in good health.
He’d never come across anyone’s death in any other case either.
So, seeing someone else’s death like this for the first time was a real shock for Subaru. Even more so when the manner of her death had been so gruesome.
There are people who can have their lives taken away from them as cruelly as this as well, he thought.
[Subaru: Me too, huh]
Subaru muttered this to himself, and lifted his body up. He wiped away the vomit that was caked around his mouth with his sleeve and shook his head as his ears were ringing hard; then, using the wall to steady himself, he slowly stood up.
Subaru had been pushed in the back, knocking him far down the stairs.
His corpse too must have turned into a lump of grizzled meat, one which surely no one could bear to take a second look at. He himself had been unable to see his own corpse, and for that, he was slightly relieved.
There’d probably be no way he’d keep his sanity were he to see his own death with his own eyes, or the like.
The mere realisation of the fact that he had died was enough to shock him to the point where it felt like his heart was about to burst apart and shatter into tiny pieces.
Cutting his train of thought short, Subaru gained belief from the fact that she was dead, all the while trying his utmost to keep Shaula’s remains, who was strewn near him, out of his sight.
The fact was, there was still some terrible strife lurking within the tower. And at the same time, he understood all too well that this strife wasn’t aimed only at him, but also at some of the other members inside of the tower.
He felt sorry for the deceased Shaula, but he could also say this bode good news for him.
Now that he didn’t know who’d been the one that had killed him, Subaru wouldn’t be able to rest until he struck out all the suspects inside the tower. But, with her dying, that allowed him to strike off one of the names from his seven suspects.
Yet at the same time, the one who’d killed him was hostile with someone other than himself – Or at least, he could be sure that they were a dangerous individual who was trying to kill everyone in the tower.
In other words, there was a chance that someone other than him would kill the murderer who’d killed him.
Then all he ought to do is kill everyone who was left; then he’d be able to acquire some peace of mind.
[Subaru: In that sense… The ones in the way are Ram and Echidna, huh. It’d be easier if that damn Julius was dead too…]
With Meili and Beatrice being children, it would be pretty easy to off them, so he didn’t need to think too hard about them.
Emilia and, although she was dead, Shaula as well, should have been easy to catch off guard and kill in the sense that they never had their guards up around him.
However, Ram, who was always contrarian around him, and Echidna with how shrewd she was smelled like more trouble. Even if he did catch them off guard and killed them, those two would be the hardest to aim at: that was the impression he got.
It was tough to say about Julius, but in his case, he was worth his utmost vigilance considering he was the only other man. As cheesy as it was, it was indeed a problem that he carried a sword at his waist.
However on the flip side, there was also a chance that he’d be cornered down were he to take his sword. Subaru did Kendo, so it could perhaps be said that he’d have an advantage assured were he to snatch it away.
[Subaru: Above there… that fucking bastard.]
Subaru shook his head straight away having thought about eliminating that red haired man who was sitting on the upper floor of the tower under the guise of being an examiner.
It would be impossible to eliminate him. That thing was an untouchable superhuman being who lived outside of all reason.
By Natsuki Subaru’s common sense, it would be definitely impossible to beat him.
There were people here too that just couldn’t be killed.
The only saving grace was that it was hard to think that he’d be the being who’d pushed Subaru off. If it was him, he wouldn’t have tried to kill him in such a dull manner; that was the kind of pessimistic faith he had.
Subaru picked up his fallen knife, stepped over Shaula’s remains and turned towards the back.
For a moment, Subaru was at loss at whether to investigate her body for any clues, but he doubted that he would find anything that would be useful hidden inside her clothing as she was very scantily dressed. At the same time, his conscience was screaming at him on the matter of further disgracing the dead.
She was dead. The dead were no longer his enemies. She just had no luck. –That’s all there was to it.
Subaru didn’t even bother doing anything as admirable as clasping his hands together in prayer for her.
He left her behind there, and slowly walked further into the tower, masking his footsteps as he made his way deeper into the Fourth Floor, following the trail of destruction.
The tower had fallen into a deep silence, to point which not one sound could be heard; he however found that stillness rather noisy.
A high-pitched ringing noise was tormenting his mind, and he felt as if he could hear the sound of his blood flowing through his body. But, strangely enough, his heartbeat was steady, as if his initial agitation had been a lie.
Whilst going up the 4th floor, the dark hatred that had boiled inside him still lay stuck to his chest like dirt that wouldn’t come off.
Even now, for the sake of his own survival, his willingness to murder everyone was unshaken.
He’d stab, gouge and take the life of the first person he would lay his eyes on. He was prepared to do that. Yet…
…Just after he turned around the corner, he found Echidna’s corpse with a diagonal slash across it; now he had no idea just how useful his resolve was going to be in this hellscape.
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Echidna’s body bore a wound from her right shoulder to her left side, as if she’d been cut down in one stroke with some sort of large blade.
And as he came to that conclusion, the first thing that popped into his mind was the sword Julius carried.
It was a cheap-looking, likely mass-produced sword, but certainly it ought to be plenty to have slashed through the body of a woman as delicate as Echidna. The question remained, he had no idea what reason Julius would have to kill Echidna.
When he had been introduced to them, Subaru had heard that Echidna and Julius had a relationship quite like one of a master and a dedicated servant. He’d heard there were some complicated circumstances involved, but in any case, they should have been quite close.
Of course, if Julius was some sort of psycho killer who wanted everyone in the tower dead, then perhaps those circumstances meant nothing at all.
[Subaru: Ua… ah… hgh.]
Using the wall to steady himself, Subaru once again succumbed to his stomach’s complaints before then lifting his head up.
The condition of her corpse was somewhat in a better state than Shaula’s. Even so, it was a sight that required nerve to witness without looking away; yet the way she’d died gave off a completely different impression to Shaula’s.
While it had seemed that after Shaula’s death her corpse had been abandoned, Echidna’s body left him with a sense that respect had been carried out towards the deceased.
Putting it bluntly, there was a white cloth that had been placed over her and her eyelids had been closed as well.
Considering the differences between the ways they’d been killed, there was a big discrepancy in the way the deceased had been treated afterwards.
In this situation, even thinking which aftermath is the most normal seems to be crazy. Even just thinking which one of these was more normal in this situation made him feel like he was going to be driven crazy.
[Subaru: Echidna’s gone too…]
Subaru’s breath quivered, his voice went hoarse, and he couldn’t stop his arms and legs from shaking; in that state, he made just a mental note of the facts in front of him and plunged deeper into the tower in search of survivors to kill.
Though perhaps even the reason whether it was the living or the dead he searched for, or for what sake he searched for, had already become nebulous for him; yet, he walked on.
–Further inside the corridor, Subaru found Ram, her body having been blown away from behind.
Her body was in a wretched state, with a gaping hole between the ‘neath of her chest and her lower back. Her wound looked rather similar to that which had killed the Desert-Earthworm.
She’d probably ran down the corridor and been struck in the back as she’d tried to make her way elsewhere. He could sense a hate-tinged curse coming from her dead face, with her lips which were bitten, leaving behind regret.
Subaru vomited again.
In the hall where they’d explained the morning’s situation to him and eaten breakfast lay the dead bodies of Meili and Julius.
The state in which Julius had perished was one of the most striking ones yet. Traces of blows and cuts inflicted by incredible sharpness were plastered around his entire body. His left arm had been blown off at the elbow, and his wound had been crudely wrapped up and treated using a piece of a cloak. He couldn’t find a direct cause to his death. From the wounds across his body, he’d probably died of blood loss.
And had the reason he’d fought so desperately until that been for the sake of the little girl who’d collapsed behind him?
Subaru vomited yet again.
Meili, who had been slumped against the wall, with her hands around her belly, was the only one who had died with a peaceful expression frozen on her face.
On her abdomen which was covered by her small palms was indeed a gash that was wet with bright red blood. Her cause of death was also probably due to blood loss. She’d been wounded, and subsequently lost her life whilst awaiting for salvation in this place.
And yet, the seemingly peaceful look that had adorned her face in death caused him to refuse to understand even a single bit.
Once again, Subaru vomited.
A corpse, another corpse, another corpse, another corpse, and yet another corpse.
There were corpses around. Only corpses. Only corpses lying around.
He couldn’t fathom what was going on.
The truth behind what was going on was unclear.
Ideally speaking, everyone other than Subaru dropping dead should have been the conditions that allowed him some repose. However, he couldn’t fathom why everyone was dead when he hadn’t even been around.
Poor Shaula with her head crushed and her whole body sliced up.
Echidna who’d been sliced from shoulder to side, had fallen due to a terrible blow.
Ram, whose body had been blown off from the back, died leaving behind her regret and curses.
Julius, who’d been left with scars all over his body of the fierce battle that had unfurled, and had eventually lost his life.
Meili, who’d just lost blood from her stomach wound, yielded peacefully to her slow death.
What must have happened for this to occur?
Would he even be able to accept this situation if someone was behind it?
[Subaru: Emilia, and Beatrice…]
He’d found five dead bodies, yet there were two suspects he hadn’t found. Had one of them, or both, conspired to make this happen?
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First of all, those two had been the most concerned about Subaru losing his memories. Could malintent be present from that attitude?
He had found five dead bodies, white sheets covering four of them. Four of the corpses had been laid to rest on the floor, covered by a white sheet, with their eyelids closed. There had been some respect given to the dead there. Except for Shaula’s body.
When had all of this occurred?
[Subaru: The blood…]
The blood seemed to have dried up. Subaru thinks about how each person must have died, as he looks around for Emilia and Beatrice. The stench of blood and death overwhelms Subaru. It pierces the depths of his mind and his stomach heaves in pain. He dry heaves, having already expelled the contents of his stomach earlier. Subaru’s body was devoid of fluid. He can’t figure out why everyone was dead, he had intended to kill them after all, yet he had not been around to do it.
Subaru thinks that it has been several hours that have passed since their deaths, or even a dozen. He doesn’t know how long he had spent wandering around the underground cave in the desert.
There is just confusion and chaos. One way or another, Subaru will attempt to manage the current situation. To find a reprieve, for that reason, Subaru has to reduce the amount of suspects. If one or both of the criminals who created this situation dies, he will be free.
Subaru enters the Green Room. Subaru spots a lizard-like creature sitting in the corner. It was the first living creature he had found ever since returning to the tower.
[Subaru: Huh. What’s with this lizard]
On seeing her survival Subaru gave her a parched smile. He had happened to meet a survivor, a surviving lizard, in fact. Clicking his tongue, he began to leave the room. There was nothing else in the room except the lizard. However…
[Subaru: Don’t follow me.]
The lizard had followed Subaru out of the room; it was surprisingly large, as big as a horse. It moves along, following Subaru across the hallway. Subaru started to wildly shake his arms, threatening her, spittle flying from his mouth.
[Subaru: I do not have time to play with you right now! I have to kill all the remaining guys in this tower! If you get in my way…]
Whilst gripping the knife in his hand, Subaru stares at the lizard. The lizard looks at the knife which Subaru is swinging around, but quickly looks back into Subaru’s eyes instead.
Ignoring the knife, and gazing steadily at Subaru, Subaru’s voice begins to shake. It’s as if it does not care about Subaru’s murderous intentions. It is terribly unpleasant, it is extremely uncomfortable, because she is inspiring the hostility that had been smouldering within Subaru.
[Subaru: Don’t you fucking screw about with me!!]
As he gave this outburst, Subaru plunged his knife into the lizard. The tip of the knife plunges into its jet black scales. Though at first, the knife encounters a bit of resistance, it is able to pierce deep into Patrasche’s body. He had stabbed the lizard through the left side of her body, yet she remained unmoving. The blade was buried into her to its hilt, blood started to spill out of her wound.
[Subaru: With this…]
Subaru breathed a ragged sigh. For the first time, he had taken action to killing a living being. Subaru’s heart was beating wildly, a certain sense of agitation was overwhelming him. He couldn’t finish his speech.
[Subaru: Ah… uh…]
The lizard had been stabbed with the knife. Nevertheless, she still looked at Subaru. She reacted in neither pain nor surprise; she simply just looked down at the work of Natsuki Subaru. In her eyes, he could not read her emotions, yet they look as if they are blaming Natsuki Subaru.
[Subaru: Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck! What the hell, WHAT THE HELL]
Scratching his head, Subaru breaks into this outburst. Whilst shouting, Subaru had forgotten to retrieve the knife he had stuck inside the lizard’s body. He begins to move over to her, to retrieve it.
No, Subaru does not have the courage to even touch the knife. The expression in the lizard’s eye is frightening to him.
[Subaru: You, those guys except you… and those corpses! As well as those guys still living! Those guys who I don’t even know if they are alive or dead! What on earth are you all cooking up, what are you trying to do!?]
While he understands it’s useless he shouts this out in front of the wounded lizard. While thinking about how he wandered within the tower, how he wandered in the deep darkness of the caverns where nothing can be seen, where left and right cannot be distinguished, how he was suffering from being thrown into this world, Subaru feels depressed and overwhelmed in emotion.
[Subaru: I’m gonna kill every single one of these guys who tries to kill me! I’m gonna deny every single one who tries to depend on me! Don’t get me wrong! Don’t push your luck! It ain’t a damn joke… acting like you’re so close to me as you please!]
[Subaru: As if I give a damn about any of you! As if I give a damn about what every single one of you are thinking! Every one of you is pushing their own damned agenda on me…! If you all have your hands full with your ownselves! Then I’ve got my own hands full with myself as well!]
Shouting and screaming, Subaru begins to shed tears, kneeling down where he had fallen. In front of him, the lizard did not cry out or make a sound; she continued to gaze at Subaru, breathing raggedly. Subaru had pressed his head to the floor and was not able to see her.
[Subaru: Like just leave me alone… Leave me be by myself…]
Subaru’s sobs echo across the hallway. How long had passed? Several seconds? Dozens of seconds? Several minutes? Subaru who cannot find it in himself to move, is crouched on the floor, when he suddenly notices – faint tremors, coming closer… he could sense them against his face as he had it pressed to the floor.
Subaru lifted his face; he looked at the lizard that had now opened her mouth. Her mouth was lined with sharp fangs, it inches closer towards Subaru. He wonders whether she will bite his head and kill him. If she does he would hardly care.
The lizard had picked up Subaru by his left shoulder, and without pausing she started to run. His body had been forcibly pulled up from the ground. The sharp fangs of the lizard had bitten into his shoulder, a shriek of pain escaped Subaru’s mouth.
[Subaru: Gh-, aah, aaaah.]
It tried to kill him. It had tried to kill him possibly, that idea was stuck in Subaru’s mind. However, in actuality, the fangs biting his shoulder had made him stand up, yet he still feared the pain despite him being mentally prepared for his death. 4 He imagines his shoulders are going to be eaten, his whole body, eaten, and left to die. To die being eaten by a living creature was one of the worst deaths Subaru could possibly imagine. 5 Subaru started to tremble in fear.
The hallway which Subaru stood in was on the verge of being engulfed by a vast amount of black fog. He hears a heavy impact which causes dust and debris to scatter around, the fog was overrunning the hallway, engulfing the ceiling, the walls, the floor… it was heading towards Subaru. The fog was made up of many, many black shadows, each tendril resembled an arm.
[Subaru: Shadow Arms…]
In his mind, he recalled the shape of the woman who had tormented him by the stairs. A woman who was drenched in shadows, her face was hidden by a black veil, his heart suddenly wrenched in fear. The shadows that had been engulfing the room were akin to the ones that covered this woman. It will engulf the tower’s passageway, and Subaru, as it pleases.
The lizard did not answer, but whilst dragging Subaru with him by its mouth, it ran away through the hallway at full gallop. Subaru, who had been looking at the opposite direction to the pathway which the lizard was running strenuously to, could not see where she could escape to. Instead he was looking at the shadows which had followed them. The blood inside his body froze.
To be devoured by that shadow, or to meet a terrible death. 6
Making his mind up, Subaru pushes at the lizard’s fangs which are gripping his shoulder. He cried in pain, if he could shake her off it would be the end for him, something that he would gladly welcome. At this point, his hatred for the lizard, it is an obsession that would serve him no use.
In front of them, there was a loud boom and the aisle in front of them blew up. The shadow was attempting to block their way.
Reacting to this, the lizard turns back around, she dives straight into the shadows, and just an instant before they are engulfed she turns into a side-corridor. She runs past the tendrils which are jutting out of the shadows. And like that, she continued to run, having temporarily escaped.
[Subaru:… tch! The spiral staircase…!]
A huge spiral staircase was in front of them which connected the fourth and fifth floors of the tower. Subaru was lost for words; he could see the fifth floor which was below him from the height he was at on the fourth floor. A fleeting moment of fear passes Subaru in which he recalls how he had fallen down the tower.
Below him, the staircase was being engulfed by the shadows, from the passageway that would have led down to the fifth floor. In other words, the tower’s lower half was starting to be literally devoured by the shadows.
[Subaru: There’s no escaping down there… But there’s no escaping behind us as well…]
The bottom layers of the tower were already engulfed by the shadows’ arms, from behind him a stream of dark tendrils was closing in on him. There was nothing really he could do, he had been caught up with, he was near his end. Would they be devoured by the shadows, or be killed in some other manner? These options to Subaru seemed absurd.
For a second, the idea of suicide flitted across Subaru’s mind.
If he was destined to die by being swallowed by the shadows, would it not be better to choose how he died? That was a possibility which Subaru could take.
[Subaru: Ah, -urgh]
As soon as he thought about taking his own life, Subaru’s body started to tremble. In the unlikely case Subaru chose to suicide, what would he do if it ended there. He vaguely believes he could return like the previous times he had died, but there was no guarantee at all. He had first thought that it had all been a precognitive dream. Until the last time he had returned, it had all been a painful precognitive dream. If this time was going to be the last one, then that would be it for Subaru.
Why must he die? He had not done anything wrong. Why must he pay with his life? Why himself?
[Subaru: NO… I don’t want to die!]
Subaru screamed this without shame. There was no one in the tower who could hear it. There were only dead people and missing people here. It was only the lizard, who was not a human being that could hear what he had said.
Whilst holding Subaru by its fangs, the lizard gave an almighty roar. Immediately, the lizard broke into a sprint and dashed away from the tendrils that were approaching from the passageway they had come through. Without stopping, she jumps onto the remaining part of the spiral staircase which had not been consumed by the shadows.
No matter how agile they are in jumping up the crumbling stairway, Subaru thinks that they will likely lose momentum, miss a jump and plummet down to the shadows underneath them. However, the lizard had come up with an ingenious idea to overcome this desperate situation.
The lizard digs its feet into the side of the tower wall. Now, it would be impossible to fall as the lizard is firmly gripping the wall with its sharp claws. … That is, if the wall was vertical.
The lizard emits a roar and starts to run across the wall. The tower had begun to tilt due to the amassment of shadows that had been engulfing it. The lizard was scaling up the wall which was tilting obliquely to one side.
[Subaru: N…No way…]
What was going on? Everything was swaying, Subaru could not make sense of what the complete picture here was. However, it was clear that this black lizard was spending its remaining strength in trying to survive. Subaru notices that she was heavily struggling.
Suddenly, a tendril reached out to where the lizard was. It had realized its prey had escaped from the staircase, and had scaled onto the wall of the tower. The lizard barely managed to avoid its attack. A violent shockwave had accompanied its attack, which had left a large hole in the side of the tower.
Without hesitating, the lizard slips into the hole that had been created by that devastating attack. Subaru is jolted left and right by this sudden motion, resulting in his sense of balance being completely lost as well as his view of the scene spiralling out. However, it is due to the lizard’s evasive manoeuvres, ensuring that Subaru is not hit by the shadow’s attack that he had to endure such a dizzying experience.
They came out of a large hole from within the bottom of the tower. Immediately, he is greeted by a sandy breeze, and his field of view starts to blacken as he closes his eyes.
Subaru notes that he is outside. Had it jumped out of the tower? The lizard had been desperately scaling down the tower, trying to escape the shadows…
[Subaru: … huh?]
The lizard’s thin neck was bent towards him; a strong breeze was buffeting them. The lizard let go of Subaru, pulling its fangs out of his shoulders. Subaru’s eyes flashed in pain as he felt the sensation of the fangs being removed from his flesh. However, he ignored his pain, as well as the strong wind which was blowing against him. His body had been struck by something hard. After being bumped around, rolled about and thrown out to the floor, Subaru opens his eyes.
In front of him, Subaru glimpses the dark night sky.
Subaru started to panic, the view he was seeing was far beyond what his imagination could comprehend. Subaru notices that he was on an area which was jutting out of the tower, resembling something like a balcony.
She had gone through the hole, rushed up the wall, and thrown him here.
Fearfully, Subaru rushes over to where the lizard was rolling away, closer and closer to the looming shadows. And there he saw its end… the lizard had thrown itself into the shadows, in place of Subaru.
… The falling lizard is swallowed by the black shadows, disappearing into the abyss.
He had stabbed her with his knife due to his crazed anger, yet she had not even cared about her own pain and fear, she had brought Subaru to this balcony and then had been swallowed by the shadows. A terrible end was waiting for Subaru, to be swallowed by those shadows.
[Subaru: What, what the hell]
What the hell. What the hell. What the hell. Subaru does not know. Subaru had no idea what was going on anymore.
Subaru was watching the bottom of the tower gradually being engulfed by the shadows from the balcony, when suddenly, a white bird flew up and landed on the edge of the balcony. The white bird looked at Subaru with unfeeling eyes– At the presence of the large bird, Subaru gasped out a “ha”.
He started to think about what had happened.
The suspects who had died, the suspects who had disappeared, the lizard that had helped him at the cost of his life, and now, a white bird had suddenly appeared in this crazy place. Little by little, the tower was being swallowed by the darkness and disappearing in front of Subaru’s eyes.
While sensing that the end was approaching, Subaru feels a great weakness in his body, and sits down on the balcony floor. He now understood that the lizard had been trying to save him. But even though he now comprehends this, he feels as if its efforts had been futile. It had bought only a little more time before he would succumb to death too.
Subaru suddenly lifted his head up. There was someone behind him. It wasn’t a bird, or a lizard, or a shadow.
The sign of a living being, someone was standing there.
[Subaru: The hell are you?]
Subaru asks this in a very faint tone of voice, having no strength left within him to even look back behind. The person who stood behind him laughed, and spoke with a voice he had never heard before.
[?: … next, try guessing, hero.]
For a second, Subaru heard a whooshing noise. Then his field of vision started to spin rapidly in front of him. The desert, the sky, the tower, the world… all of them were spinning in front of him. His body felt awfully light. He was flying up into the sky like a bird. And then he realised what had happened.
The someone from behind had decapitated him.
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[Emilia: … Subaru! Hey, Subaru, are you okay?]
His decapitation and subsequent loss of consciousness had happened in an instant. He could feel that he was lying in a soft bed of ivy. Subaru woke up, for a second, he could not recognise to whom this chiming voice belonged to.
[Subaru: Emi… lia…]
[Emilia: Oh, Subaru, thank goodness. You woke up. I was really worried about you.]
Subaru slightly opened his eyes. In front of him, there was Emilia, a relieved expression resting on her face. She had been stroking Subaru’s chest, just as he had woken up. A smile appeared on her lips.
When he saw Emilia, he immediately looked at her slender, beautiful neck with smouldering rage in his eyes. Subaru stretched out his hands, grasping Emilia’s neck with a sense of fury. Her slender neck fit easily between Subaru’s hands.
[Emilia: Subaru, what’s wrong?]
Emilia was staring in puzzlement at Subaru, her eyes widened in surprise. Subaru was surprised by his reaction, but he did not reject his feelings of anger. If Subaru put his entire strength behind choking her, he was sure he could break her neck easily. Even though her life was held within Subaru’s grasp, Emilia’s reaction was awfully slow, moreover-
[Beatrice: Emilia, apparently it seems that Subaru is still half-asleep, I suppose. Betty was worried about you, though.]
Subaru let go of Emilia’s neck immediately. Looking at her, he sees Beatrice place her arm on the side of his bed, her nostrils flaring in disgust at Subaru. Emilia gave a wry smile, and said “Well.”
[Emilia: Well, it’s better for you to be half-asleep than it being anything else more serious. When I found you collapsed on the ground, Beatrice was nearly in tears.]
[Beatrice: Do you not have anything that you want to say to me, I suppose.]
Beatrice turns away, her face red, slightly angry at Emilia having told Subaru about that. The two who were talking to each other had not even realised that Subaru had intended to strangle them. When he had been stirred awake, he had not been aware that he wasn’t in a perilous situation anymore. Subaru had reappeared…
[Subaru: … that is, here.]
Immediately after that “Natsuki Subaru” that was unknown to him had lost his memories, that is, as soon as he had been summoned into this world, he realises that he has returned to that very same place which it had all started. And, at the same time…
[Subaru: … you…]
Subaru hastily turns around, looking towards the corner of the room. Subaru sees her. The lizard that had given her all to save Subaru, the one who had sacrificed herself to the shadows in a bid to buy Subaru time. She was looking rather unperturbed, standing in the corner of the room.
[Subaru: … somehow, I doubt it was Emilia and Betty that found me.]
Subaru muses this for a second, before rushing over towards where the lizard stood.
[Subaru: Heh, Patrasche, don’t make that face, don’t pout, me and you, we are close friends.]
Behind him, Subaru could hear Beatrice and Emilia talking to one another. Subaru did not care to join in; he was too busy tightly embracing the large body of the lizard in front of him, immensely thankful that she was here.
He was eternally grateful that back then she had been the only one who had not tried to hurt Subaru.
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