Arc 8, Chapter 6 – “Won’t Beg for Forgiveness”


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As blood was gushing from their gouged shoulder and thigh, rough breaths filled with a feverish heat and their blood-drained complexion made it evident that the countdown to their death was ticking.

Unless they received treatment immediately, their life would be in danger, as the countdown could not be stopped.

However, if healing magic were to be cast, they would definitely be saved. It was an absolutely treatable injury.

Subaru: [Even so, why…]

Next to the pulverized mill, amidst the lingering smell of burnt wood from the remaining embers, Subaru faced off against an “enemy” in the slowly swelling waterlogged Imperial Capital.

And yet, it was someone who no longer could be called an “enemy”, Todd Fang.

――Calling Todd an “enemy” was not something Subaru wanted to do anymore.

Since their very first meeting, Todd continuously subjected him to all sorts of grief. He had been targeted and killed numerous times, with death and fear etched into his memories that fostered a deep-seated grudge.

Each time Subaru had Returned by Death and dealt with Todd’s attacks, he ultimately undid each and every tragedy that occurred.

The forest that the People of Shudraq lived in was burned down, leading to their annihilation. In the surprise attack on the Fortress City of Guaral, Flop had been killed numerous times. During the operation to capture the City Hall of Guaral, Subaru had experienced the feeling of walking on a tightrope that was set ablaze.

The pinnacle of it all was the massacre on the Gladiator Island Ginunhive, where Tanza, Idra, Hiain, Weitz, Gustav, Old Man Null, and many other companions on the island were all killed. However, Subaru had even managed to overturn that outcome.

Subaru had no intention of pretending like Todd’s actions had never happened.

It was just that through Subaru’s struggles of protecting what was dear to him by Returning by Death, these actions by Todd had gradually been erased.

The reason why Subaru regarded Todd as an enemy was something that existed only within Subaru’s mind.

And finally, now that an unprecedented disaster had struck the Capital and they were forced to retreat, Todd showed a willingness to cooperate with Subaru and the others to protect his fiancée.

Indeed, without Todd’s cooperation, it would have been difficult to find effective countermeasures against the overflow of zombies, and it would have taken numerous retries to achieve an outcome where everyone escaped.

The same was true for the battle with that zombie, the one-eyed warrior.

In order to defeat that twisted enemy who had transformed into a monster, Subaru also required Todd’s cooperation. They both knew that without each other, their lives would be at risk.

That was why they needed just one more step.

If only he had taken one more step, Subaru could have walked alongside Todd while bottling up his conflicting emotions.

And yet――,

Subaru: [Why…!]

Todd: [Don’t speak so hypocritically. You averted this just now because you also had a slight hunch. It’s not like you reacted to my intent to kill, you were just wary the whole time, right?]

Todd closed his bloodshot right eye as Subaru spoke with a trembling voice.

With a face that seemed like he was dealing with an unreasonable child, Todd’s gaze fell on the axe floating in the air―― or that was how it would have appeared to him as the weapon was grabbed by a black hand.

In Subaru’s mind, the axe was synonymous with Todd.

Subaru had experienced being struck in the head with Todd’s axe more than once or twice. Even though he had taken it away from Todd’s hand, just seeing it at the corner of his vision was enough to make Subaru’s teeth grind in unease.

Todd hit the nail on the head. Subaru had been wary of him all along.

So, when Subaru turned his back on the injured Todd, he activated Invisible Providence to protect his head since that would have been the surest way to kill him in case he was targeted.

However, he certainly did not wish for it to happen.

Nothing that occurred should have ever happened.

In that case――,

Todd: [My bad, my bad. I fell right for your trap.]

Subaru: [That’s not true…]

Todd: [We’re separated from the others, so right after we took care of the enemy I thought that was my chance but… You’re quite the actor.]

Subaru: [You’re wrong…]

Todd: [Did you plan to blow me up with that explosion earlier? If that was the case, it’s too bad that your aim was off.]

Subaru: [No! I really wanted to cooperate with you…!]

Todd: [――Spare me with your lies.]

Subaru’s throat gulped as Todd’s cold voice hit.

With one eye closed, Todd looked into Subaru’s eyes with a gaze devoid of heat and humidity. His gaze did not contain any hint of evaluating Subaru, which it had just moments ago.

Todd had already finished appraising Subaru, and that was why he was like this now.

Todd: [You should get it deep down as well. We just can’t understand each other.]

Subaru: [――――]

Todd: [I outwardly am suspicious of others, and you believe others to a fault. No matter how many words we exchange, our values ​​are different.]

Slowly changing position, Todd cautiously watched Subaru, especially his axe that floated in the air. Subaru also bit his lip and glared at Todd with sorrow over the hovering axe.

They could not understand each other, Todd had said. Subaru continued to wonder if that was really the case.

He wondered if there really was no way to make it work.

Subaru: [If you kill me here, how will you handle the zombies and…]

Todd: [You don’t know when to quit. As long as I get out of the Imperial Capital, it’s all good. Thanks to your help, we were able to get Katya to the city walls. After that, I’m better off without you.]

Subaru: [Why! I have no intention to hurt Katya-san! I didn’t even intend to fight you! And yet!]

Todd: [――But you were willing to choose whether to save Katya or not, right?]

Subaru: [Huh…?]

Todd, standing in front of Subaru, who was raising his voice, said one cold comment.

Subaru’s cheeks hardened as he felt like he had been doused with cold water by Todd’s words.

He had no idea what he had meant.

To begin with, that was at odds with what Subaru was claiming. There was no need to choose as Subaru had no intention of harming Katya in the first place, so such an accusation was misplaced.

And yet, Subaru’s thoughts were frozen.

――Todd did not miss that moment.

Todd: [――I won’t beg for your forgiveness.]

Slipping through the opening of Subaru stumbling over his words, Todd lowered his stance and lunged at him.

The feeling of the shrinking distance between the two sides was so great that every cell in Subaru’s body screamed. Subaru immediately commanded his Unseen Hand, which was extended in the air, to throw the axe he had seized back at Todd.


Subaru: [Kk, gaaahk!?]

Instantly, Subaru’s vision was dyed bright red by a burning sensation that pierced his right thigh.

In Subaru’s right leg, a knife was sticking out of his thigh.

It was in Todd’s hand just a moment ago. Right before he leapt, he threw it into Subaru’s thigh while Subaru was unable to think, and he unfortunately took the brunt of it.

Then, while he was distracted by the pain, the Unseen Hand that was supposed to have thrown the axe was disrupted―― the floating axe was snatched back, and Todd’s forward kick smashed into Subaru’s chest.

Subaru: [Oof.]

Subaru’s body fell backward with a cry of pain, unable to put weight on his stabbed leg. He hit the back of his head and his back, and his scattered thoughts became even more fragmented.

His legs, chest, head, back, and then, the blade of the axe falling in front of him――.

Subaru: [Aaaaaa!]

He frantically shouted and forced the black hand to interrupt the axe in the midst of swinging down.

The overused Unseen Hand protruded from Subaru’s chest to stop the axe that approached the tip of his nose, and he mobilized his own two hands to keep the trembling blade from falling, resisting the murderous intent with his three arms.

Then Todd, holding the axe, also pushed in with all his might to force down the jostling blade.

His leg that was stabbed hurt. His chest where he was kicked hurt. His back where he was hit hurt. His head hurt as well. If this axe were to go through his face, it would hurt more than all of that and would furthermore hurt to the point of death.

Todd: [You’re, too tenacious… hk. Give up and die already…!]

Subaru: [No, way… Absolutely, no way…!]

With his hand on the ridge of the axe, Todd used his full weight to try to kill Subaru.

Subaru resisted with his three arms, including the Unseen Hand, but the child’s two hands and Authority, which had little advantage other than being invisible, could not push Todd away.

From the outside, it would appear to be a very absurd and miserable deathmatch.

The battle between Subaru and Todd was crude and unceremonious at such a critical juncture in the battle for the Imperial Capital of Lupugana, where a multitude of soldiers and warriors competed with their well-honed skills and weapons.

They had no trained skills, no special weapons, nor trump cards that could overpower others.

By the standards of the Vollachian Empire, this was a low level battle of life and death―― The decisive battle between Natsuki Subaru and Todd Fang, two people who could not understand each other.

Todd: [You’re too damn inconsistent! Your eyes say that you’re willing to die at any moment, you’re willing to put other people’s lives on a scale selfishly, but when it comes to this, you’re desperate to resist. It’s creepy!]

Subaru: [Don’t say, something so unreasonable…! Like hell I think I’m ready to die whenever. I’ve also never put anyone’s life, on a scale…! I don’t want to die!]

Todd: [Die!]

Subaru: [No!]

Todd’s eyes, chilled with a black, murderous intent, were about to freeze Subaru’s racing heart. While the grinding struggle of the blade of the axe that was locked between the two continued, their fierce battle could not go on forever.


Subaru: [Guh, gee…]

Subaru stifled a grunt in the back of his throat as blood trickled from his earlobes.

It was the backlash due to the heavy use of the Authority of the Unseen Hand. This was a screaming warning signal from Subaru’s eroding body. However, he had no choice but to rely on it. Otherwise, the falling blade would cleave Subaru’s face in two.

Todd: [That strange trick seems to be nearing its limits.]

The ghastly look on Subaru’s face and the outpouring of blood helped Todd understand the repercussions of using the Unseen Hand. He knew that if he kept on going at this pace, Subaru would reach his limit first.

Whatever it took, before it happened―― that was what he thought at that moment.

Both: [――Hk!?]

Subaru and Todd, vying for the deadly axe, were momentarily distracted by a tremendous roar.

It was something far away from the center of the Imperial Capital, far away from Subaru and his companions―― the reservoir at the edge of the city, beyond the Crystal Palace, which held back a large amount of water, had reached its limit and was starting to crumble.

With a roar, cracks burst open through the entire retaining wall, and a tremendous amount of water surged into the Imperial Capital. It was like a giant wave was advancing into a world without any oceans and as the surging waves swept through the Imperial Capital, the aftermath reached all the way to Subaru and Todd’s deadly exchange.

And then――,

Subaru: [Uh, ahhhh――!!]

Todd: [――Hk.]

For a brief moment, Todd’s attention was diverted to the roaring sound, and Subaru gathered all the strength he could muster.

As his body laid on the ground, forgetting the pain of the knife buried in his leg for the moment, he turned over onto his side and pulled the axe blade with all the might of his Unseen Hand so it struck the ground next to his head.

Even Todd, who had been putting all of his strength into the axe, could not defy such momentum. The axe dropped right next to Subaru’s head and Todd fell to the ground with it.

Subaru: [Haa, Haaphew.]

Subaru continued to roll sideways with his momentum to create distance between him and Todd and the axe.

The knife in his leg repeatedly struck the ground and caused him severe pain. He cried as he rolled over, enduring the agony since getting away was more important to him.

Eventually, after what felt like ten or twenty rolls, Subaru’s body hit the remnants of a building, forcing him to stop. There, he somehow managed to get up onto his arms, bleeding from his cut forehead―― and then he spotted it.

Todd: […This guy is just utterly infuriating.]

Todd rose to his knees, mumbling in anger. As he turned to face the distanced Subaru, he noticed the axe deeply embedded in his left shoulder.

Subaru: [――――]

When Subaru had managed to avoid the axe in his desperate attempt, Todd had fallen on top of it.

The blade of the axe was buried deep, splitting his collarbone so far that it looked like it had reached his heart, but Todd, wiping his mouth and spitting out blood, showed none of the weakness of a dying man.

It was like he was almost too tough.

His body had been cut in various places due to his role as a decoy for the zombies, he had received collateral damage from the dust explosion, and to top it all off, he had an axe sticking out of his body, but he did not seem to be concerned about it.

The reason for Todd’s nonchalance finally became clear to Subaru.

That was――,

Todd: [――You noticed it? My bad, my bad.]

There was a clear irritation in Todd’s tone that lacked frivolity or leeway.

It was a voice full of excessive anger at himself rather than at his opponent for his own failure of letting something be seen that no one ever was meant to see and that he never wanted to reveal either.

While fully displaying his anger, Todd violently ripped the axe out of his own shoulder. The badly mangled wound spurted blood just once strongly―― then stopped bleeding right away.

That recoverability was something that would have evolved in a species in order to prevent negative effects of injuries from being too great while in combat or while hunting. It was the kind of recoverability that Subaru had witnessed several times in this other world.

Although there was no discernible difference from Subaru in terms of appearance, there was definitely different blood flowing in his veins.

He was demi-human. And――,

Subaru: [――Are you, half-beastman?]

Todd: [Correct. But by itself not entirely.]

In front of the puzzled Subaru, Todd narrowed his eyes and affirmed only half of his suspicions. Todd answered Subaru’s question with half an answer.

His cheeks contorted inhumanely, his eyes lit up with blood-colored fury――,

Todd: [――I’m a werewolf.]


――In this world, there were certain things that were considered abhorrent just by their mere existence.

Half-elves stood out pre-eminently among such abhorred beings, possessing the disadvantage of being tied to the Witch who had once nearly destroyed the world. That reputation was shared across all countries.

Elsewhere, hairless demi-humans were considered to be an unlucky thing in the Kararagi City-States; and, in the Holy Kingdom of Gusteko, the closer the hair and eyes approached to black, the more alienated one would be, as they would be considered to be disliked by the Spirits.

Similarly, within the Vollachian Empire, where various demi-human races coexisted, there were two races whose existence was frowned upon―― the molepeople and the wolfpeople.

In ancient times, these two races, the molepeople and the wolfpeople, were said to have been condemned for betraying the most beloved woman in the Vollachian Empire and putting her to death, a crime for which they would never be forgiven.

As a result, the molepeople abandoned their homeland and escaped out of the country by digging into the earth. And, the wolfpeople who did not know how to escape, were hunted down until they were eradicated.

The wrath of this Empire extended to neighboring lands, and if any molepeople or wolfpeople were found in another country, they would be deported across the border to the Empire to be executed. This was the history of the molepeople and wolfpeople―― Hunts, as they were commonly called.

In modern times, it was said that the molepeople used their abilities to burrow under the earth to hide from the outside world. As for the surviving wolfpeople, they disguised their origins as dogpeople in order to hide their true identities, and only one person in the world―― Halibel, the Admirer, the strongest in the Kararagi City-States, did publicly advocate himself as a wolfperson.

An Empire that relentlessly hunted wolfpeople, whose national crest was ironically a wolf pierced by swords.

The Sword Wolf was the most revered symbol in the Empire, whereas the wolf that ran away for fear of being pierced by a sword was the most despised.

Therefore, in this world, both the existence of wolfpeople and half-beastmen of wolfpeople blood―― “werewolves” continued to bear a curse that could never be forgiven.


Subaru: [Wear… wulf…]

Subaru was absolutely stunned when Todd declared this, twirling the axe he had pulled from his own shoulder in his hand.

Knowing about the little-known secret of Todd, who was someone who had often clashed with him, and not knowing which emotion to feel, positive or negative, was one thing, but what he felt more than anything else was fear.

The sound of “werewolf” in his ears was a surprise to him. It was an instinctive aversion.

――Subaru had no knowledge of the history of the ostracization of “werewolves” in this world.

He knew nothing of the fact that both wolfpeople and molepeople were abhorred in the Empire, that the reason for this was the betrayal of a woman named Iris, that her true identity was Yorna Mishigure, or that her beloved Emperor was not Vincent Vollachia.

He knew nothing of any of the underlying circumstances.

Even without knowing anything about them, Subaru’s soul understood. ――How alien the existence of “werewolves” was in this world.

Todd: [That look of surprise is a little different than I expected. You looked surprised that I was half-beastman, but not surprised that I am a werewolf.]

Todd looked at the silent Subaru and furrowed his eyebrows with a face that looked as if he was throwing away his expectations.

Todd: [But now we can do this without any strange reservations, right? Werewolves are meant to be hung. It’s a curse that runs in their blood. You too――]

Subaru: [Why?]

Todd: [Hmm?]

Subaru: [Why, does it come to this? I have never…]

He could not say that he had never thought about killing Todd.

But this was not because of Todd’s blood or his origins, but because his own actions were incompatible with Subaru’s, and he had no choice but to clash with him.

And yet, the way Todd spoke now――,

Subaru: [Don’t act like blood is the reason you became my “enemy”.]

Todd: [――――]

Subaru: [You ran into me, many times, because it was a problem between you and me! Not because of who you are or because of your blood provoking me!]

Gritting his molars, Subaru pressed his fist into the ground and raised himself up.

The intense pain from the knife in his leg; it raced through his body at great speed, but it also clarified his consciousness and the anger that was seething in his chest.

Subaru: [You’re becoming a werewolf, all on your own…!]

Todd: [Oh, on my own? I won’t listen to this, coming from you…]

Subaru: [Shut the heck up! Why, why are you like this!]

Not a single thing went Subaru’s way, and when Subaru had positive feelings, it would cause negative actions, and when Subaru had positive thoughts, it would cause negative problems.

After helping Katya, saving Rem and Flop, and joining forces to defeat the formidable zombies, he had now tried to kill Subaru, choking on the idea, and to top it all off, he was a werewolf.

Subaru: [Why!]

Todd: [Don’t talk to me about the circumstances of someone’s birth. That’s the way it is. My mother might have slept with a dog. Come to think of it, there was always a big dog living in the back of the house, maybe that was my dad?]

Subaru: [No, I’m not! You’re the one who’s talking about someone’s birth!]

Todd: [――――]

Subaru: [I’m not the one who’s looking at you like that… Hk.]

Subaru had no idea what kind of life Todd had as a werewolf.

Nor did he even want to know. If he knew, he would probably search for a reason to forgive Todd. Therefore, he did not want to know. Subaru did not want to forgive Todd for some unavoidable reason.

That was why――,

Subaru: [――I’ve made up my mind.]

Subaru muttered, his voice strained, his head jumbled with anger and pain.

Hearing Subaru’s muttering, Todd’s eyes narrowed. Even without words, the silence prompted him to wonder what he had decided to do.

So prompted, Subaru announced his decision.

Subaru: [I’m not going to kill you. It’s not going to go the way you want.]

Todd: [――――]

At Subaru’s quiet declaration, Todd had nothing to say in return.

However, he did not remain silent. ――He laughed.

Todd: [Ha, hahaha, ha! Ha! Ha! Ha!]

Ruffling his hair with his hand that was not holding the axe, Todd opened his mouth and laughed. Not caring that his hair and forehead were stained with blood, Todd opened his mouth wide and burst out in laughter.

Then, after laughing for a while, he gently shook his head,

Todd: [You’re a monster. Much more so than that zombie.]

More clearly than ever, he glared at Subaru with emotion visible in his eyes.

Subaru understood what it was, the emotion that was hidden behind that black murderous intent; this was the first time it was revealed. Many times before, he had seen it in the mirror.

It was fear. ――It was the fear of incomprehensible things that brought Death.

Todd: [Lack of self-awareness is a bad trait. You’re choosing between lives. Who to save, who to let die, you’re deciding as you please. You show favor towards those who butter you up, but don’t care about those who don’t. Me, I wouldn’t hesitate to butter anyone up, but…]

Subaru: [――――]

Todd: [How could I go along with someone who decides who lives or dies based on his own fickle whims?]

――That was Todd Fang’s ultimatum.

Subaru: [――――]

Having spat that out, Todd’s bones creaked as his form changed.

The wounds peeking through the tears of his Imperial Soldier’s uniform were closed, and his skin was covered with animal hair that matched the color of the hair atop his head. His nose protruded and his mouth grew wide as if it were ripping open, and newly grown white teeth began to sharpen, transforming his appearance into that of a ferocious beast.

A werewolf, he looked just as he had declared.

He stood on two legs, handled his weapon with two arms, and would bite the life out of his opponent with his ferocious fangs. He had transformed into that type of existence―― no, his true nature was revealed.

Todd: [Die.]

Briefly, Todd stepped toward Subaru once again with that intention in his words.

His step was large, and the speed with which he kicked the ground with his hind legs exploded. His aim was to kill Subaru, the object of his unknown fear, not allowing his opponent who knew his true identity to live.

Subaru’s fighting spirit exploded as he realized this.

Subaru: [――Invisible Providence.]

Todd, now a werewolf, leapt at Subaru with an axe in his hand.

Before the axe could reach him, Subaru picked up debris with the black arm that extended from his chest, and knocked the axe away to the other side, past Todd’s head.

Todd: [――Hk!]

But even if his axe was gone, Todd now had another weapon, his fangs.

Subaru had also used the Unseen Hand to block the axe and could not rely on his Authority to block Todd’s fangs.

Instead, Subaru pulled out the knife that was stuck in his leg with his own hand.

Subaru: [Ghi, gaaa!!]

Screaming from the intense pain that he had never gotten used to, Subaru held the knife he had pulled out in both hands, and he clamped it in the gap between Todd’s fangs as he bit down on it.

The closing, sharp fangs were stopped by the knife, and Subaru’s face was pushed down again as drool spilled from the knife-biting werewolf’s mouth, dripping onto his cheeks.

Todd: [――Oh!!]

Subaru: [Aaaaaah!!]

Like that, his fangs pushed forward, closing in on Subaru’s neck.

While desperately trying to hold him back, Subaru screamed in pain.

Subaru: [I’m… not going to kill you…!]

He screamed as he was about to be killed, just before the tips of their fangs gouged into his neck.

The one who was about to take a life was being chastised by the one whose life was about to be taken.

Even if he was pushed to the edge and his head was bitten off, even if he lost his life, even if he was sent back to where he was in the middle of the battle.

For reasons unknown to Subaru, Todd felt a sense of grief and resentment for the world.

It was at that moment.

???: [――That’s enough.]

The sound of that voice caught Subaru by surprise, plucking resoundingly at his soul.

Every one of the beast’s breaths, every little rumble of the earth, every bit of ongoing chaos in various parts of the Imperial Capital, it was all a noisy hell where every sound was rampaging around as it pleased.

Even in such a world, nothing could impede that voice.

It was as if the very existence of Natsuki Subaru was made to resonate with that voice.

Todd: [Goh――]

Immediately after, as Todd’s body pressed down on Subaru’s, trying to bring his fangs down to end his life, Todd was blown away by a tremendous impact, slamming him from the side.

Subaru: [――――]

In front of him, Todd, who became a werewolf, was propelled into open view, and reflected in Subaru’s eyes were shining and gleaming shards of raining ice. What scattered them was a hammer made out of ice.

With a full-power blow using a sizable ice hammer, Todd was sent flying.

And the one who had swung that ice hammer with both hands, making her long, silver hair dance, was a girl in a white outfit with a stunningly beautiful figure――,

Subaru: [――Emilia.]

Subaru’s mouth unconsciously moved to trace the name that had suddenly passed through his mind.

The girl looked back, her amethyst eyes blinked, and they met Subaru’s black ones. Subaru, captivated by the beauty of her eyes, involuntarily gasped.

Emilia: [You there, come here!]

Subaru: [Huh?]

He forgot to breathe, or perhaps he was holding his breath, but it was forcibly interrupted.

White fingers, reaching out with great strength, pulled Subaru’s body up into her arms with a strength that one could not have imagined from her appearance. Without hesitation, the girl, Emilia, picked up Subaru who was muddied with blood as she bent her knees with an “Alright,”

Emilia: [Haa!]

With a shout, Emilia jumped and kicked the wall of a nearby building, and leaped up even higher onto the roof of a building. Subaru, wrapped in her embrace, was dumbfounded, but he soon understood.

Below them, the street below the building where Emilia had landed with Subaru in her arms was swept away at a tremendous pace by a muddy stream, engulfing everything in sight.

Emilia: [That was dangerous… You almost got swallowed by the water.]

At that overwhelming sight, Emilia patted her chest in relief.

Emilia’s reaction did not convey much urgency or sense of tragedy, although the despairing scene was overwhelming as both the ruins of the grain mill that was blown up by the dust explosion and the street where Todd had dragged the zombie around until the grain mill was prepared were collectively engulfed in the flash flood.

If she had been a little slower, Subaru would have been swallowed by the current, just as Emilia had said. If that had happened, there was no way he could have survived――,

Emilia: [――Hk, who was that guy!?]

Todd, who was on the verge of biting Subaru to death, was sent flying by Emilia.

If he had failed to escape, would he have been swallowed by the flash flood as well? If he had been swallowed by the force of the water, there would have been no way for Todd to have survived that strong of water.

Forgetting the pain in his leg, Subaru quickly looked around and searched for Todd in the muddy streets of the Imperial Capital that were swallowed up by the murky water. Subaru did not even know the answer to the question of whether he wanted Todd to be found or not.

Emilia: [Hey, relax! Who are you looking for… Oh! Looking closer, I see that you’re badly hurt! I need to get you treated right away…]

As Subaru looked around frantically, Emilia noticed the wound on Subaru’s leg, and moved to sit him down on the edge of the rooftop,

Emilia: [Hold on! A user of healing magic will be here soon…]

Subaru: [There’s no time for that! Leave me alone, and…]

Emilia: [You’re the one who needs to get on your feet…]

Emilia raised an eyebrow at Subaru as he tried to stand up, brushing off her words of advice. However, her scolding was interrupted before it reached its conclusion.

Her large, amethyst eyes opened wide, and he could see the scene behind him reflected in her beautiful eyes.

As Subaru sat on the edge of the rooftop, the werewolf came out from behind him as it broke the water and opened its gaping mouth to bite Subaru on the nape of the neck.

Subaru: [――――]

Either the bite would pull him into the water, or it would mercilessly bite down on his jugular. It was a moment that even Emilia, right in front of him, would not be able to stop in time.

Todd’s dogged determination defied even the flash flood and attempted to gnaw away at Subaru’s life.

At that moment――,

???: [――Don’t touch.]

The sound of a strong wind rattled as he heard footsteps treading on the rooftop.

Neither the exhausted Subaru, nor the too-distant Emilia, could stop Todd’s attack.

Instead, it was a girl with angry, light blue eyes who leapt in.

???: [――Him!!]

At the same time as that yell, an axe was unleashed, swung with all its might.

Subaru had knocked away the axe as the werewolf pounced towards him. Somehow, it landed in the hands of the girl and was sent back to its owner, who was trying to bite Subaru.

Todd: [――Gah.]

A second attack pushed through, overlapping with the wound on his left shoulder where the axe had once deeply pierced. The impact threw off the wolfman’s momentum, and his huge body was knocked away, thrown into the muddy waters.

With a loud splash and a column of water, this time, the werewolf―― Todd Fang sank below the surface.

???: [Haa, haa, haa…]

The girl who had swung the axe, breathing heavily with her shoulders heaving, held Subaru’s head to her chest. As she did so, she dropped the axe from her trembling hands into the water and knelt down on the spot.

Then, the girl―― Rem’s light blue eyes and Subaru’s black eyes met.

Rem: [It, seems like you’re fine.]

Subaru: [I’m not really fine, but…]

Subaru replied in a wavering tone to Rem as he lowered the corners of his eyes with a faint sense of relief.

Then, he looked behind him for Todd, who had been thrown into the water by Rem’s blow. ――He was nowhere to be found. There was no way he could be found. And even if he was found…

Subaru: [――Hk.]

With frustration and bitterness welling up inside him, Subaru put his hand on his chest.

Subaru and Todd could not understand each other in any way. What Subaru wanted him to understand, and that Todd did not wish to be understood, none of it.

That was what frustrated him. It was so frustrating and disappointing.

With that feeling of helpless frustration――,

Emilia: [Rem! Thank goodness. Heal this boy’s wounds! Then, quickly, to Subaru…]

Rem: [Wait a minute! This is the child! This boy is him! This is the one that calls himself Natsuki Subaru…]

Emilia: [Huh! That kid is Subaru!? But he’s so cute…?]

Slowly, little by little, Subaru’s strength slipped away on the edge of the rooftop, and right in front of him, the two women who had helped him―― Emilia and Rem were shouting this and that about Subaru.

Then, with those two in front of him, the thought of how long it had been since he last had seen them talking to each other passed through his mind, and faded――.

Subaru: [Todd, you goddamn idiot…]

With this sense of frustration and defeat as the final straw, Subaru’s consciousness abruptly faded.

48 thoughts on “Arc 8, Chapter 6 – “Won’t Beg for Forgiveness””

  1. Okay but why was Emilia waiting for Rem, from what I remember Emilia can also use healing magic ?

    1. I think Subaru must’ve told her about Rem being a good healer while she was asleep so she went with that

    2. Calling lesser spirits to help heal someone =/= being able to just use healing magic naturally.

      Also most of the lesser spirits on this battlefield are probably dead thanks to Arakiya snacking, so this method is faster.

    3. I think she was in a hurry to find Subaru and wanted to leave the healing upto Rem not knowing that the child is him.

    4. She technically cant use healing magic by her own, she use micro-spirit to do it although.

  2. So Todd wants to kill subaru because he can’t understand him because he thinks subaru wouldn’t care about the people killed or what?

    1. Todd logic:
      Ennemi? Kill it.
      Something slightly dangerous ? Kill it.
      Child? Kill it.
      Can understand someone and know his thoughts, even when he thinks about betraying you? Kill him.

  3. Todd: i cant understand this boy.
    Friend: how about you try to know him and talk this out?
    Todd: no, that’s not sure enough, better kill him.

  4. Does anyone feel that Todd needed to be a werewolf. He is already a good enough character being the only person who he can trust is someone who is in his power completely so he can’t trust anyone to do things for him. Just because he is a “Lone Wolf” does not mean he needs to actually be a god damn wolf.

    1. He probably doesn’t need to be one but it gives a reason to his paranoia about everyone being out to kill him

    2. I think he did needed to be one to explain the things he could do. Like him saying “you smell suspicious” what kind of human would say that.

      1. I mean, Rem, Ram & Beatrice say it & they’re more human than Todd, at least in terms of personality, but you’re right. Only demihumans and Kamado Tanjiro can sense malicious intent, or the suggestion of evil in scent.

  5. This was an absolutely amazing chapter. The Todd vs Subaru fight was absolutely peak and finally seeing Emilia again was great to see. On top of that, Rem and Emilia are reunited. Thanks for the translation.

    1. Right? I’ve been wanting to see them together for so long. Also, Rem finally shows her love for Subaru, by going out of her way to protect him, to save him, after all the fear, doubt, and distrust, and working to be the girl that saw him as her hero again. I shed so many tears, from so many emotions, reading this chapter.

  6. Damn, Todd looks so pathetic in this chapter ngl.

    When Emilia said a user of healing magic will come is she talking about Ram or Rem? if it’s Rem, how did she know that Rem can use healing magic? iirc they didn’t meet at Guaral City at all or did they? Aaaaahhh I forgot already.

  7. Todd is no different than an Archbishop I don’t understand why Subaru don’t just get rid of him I’m pretty sure he could do it if he try it for real

    1. Subaru doesn’t feel like a misunderstanding is good reason to kill someone. It was different for Archbishops, as there was pure self-centered and insane malice in their actions. Yet with Todd a compromise was possible, as evident from earlier interactions. His common sense and values are different from Subaru’s, but even if they can’t see eye to eye, they do not necessary need to be enemies.

  8. What I understand about Tod. well I think when everyone is trying to kill you and bury you Your entire Life.. I guess it’s fair to say to kill anyone even with the slightest doubt. Or is it just me?

  9. wait, is this their first time Emilia and Rem meet after arc 6? Why does Emilia sound not surprised looking Rem able to walk again you know? not in sleeping beauty stated?

    1. Remember Madelyn came to Guaral before then took Rem and Flop with her. If I can recall right, Emilia came to help Priscilla to fight Madelyn and Rem was also there but they loss to Madelyn then Rem and Flop agreed to come with Madelyn and in exchange, Madelyn will leave Guaral. So they did meet before.

    2. Beatrice didn’t remember Rem on their first meeting, so I doubt Emilia would. But Emilia already knows Rem can heal people. They’ve probably met short time before coming to save Subaru. I can imagine Rem helping her to find Subaru by smell, or they came to investigate the explosion.

  10. Remember Madelyn came to Guaral before then took Rem and Flop with her. If I can recall right, Emilia came to help Priscilla to fight Madelyn and Rem was also there but they loss to Madelyn then Rem and Flop agreed to come with Madelyn and in exchange, Madelyn will leave Guaral. So they did meet before.

  11. Two of the best girls saving Subaru’s life, JUST LIKE OLD TIMES!

    “My, what big teeth you have Todd…”

    “All the more to KILL you with my dear Subaru!”

  12. thanks for the translation, Oh God, I can’t wait for chapter 12 to be translated.. and looking forward to chap 13 too…
    though google translate is a bit far from official translation.. it is understandable…
    thank you for the Japanese link of webnovel.. i just have to wait, a day or two before they upload the next chapter.. but base from previous uploads.. i hope, in 5hrs… from now.. will read the next chap.. oh man, can wait… thnks2

  13. The angelic grace: “That’s enough!”
    The demonic wrath: “Don’t you touch him!”

    Haa… like good old times, finally.

  14. For once Todd was right this subaru is a monster and his way of dealing with his problems is unbearable.
    I find pride or gluttony more bearable and rational like for GOD SAKE kill who want to kill you or and by subaru logic who ALREADY KILLED YOU I hope we see a character development were subaru become more ruthless and unforgiving because I feel like iam reading a shounen story and I really hate shounen.

    1. By your logic Rem, Ram, Puck, Garfiel, Otto, Meili, Shaula, Mizelda and that amazon loli-what’s-her-face, should have all been killed.

      Subaru knows Todd’s enmity is not an absolute thing, they can co-exist. So his death is not necessary. Than again, Subaru didn’t try to save Todd by RBD when he fell into water, so he’s not in his “must save” circle either.

      1. Yes I don’t mind if they all die I can’t understand the mindest of subaru anymore death and pain is not something trivial I don’t know what Tappei want to convey but I call this BS.
        The only time when subaru was thinking rationally it was in arc 4 after the loop we’re Garfield killed the villagers you know what he was thinking on that time?
        He was thinking of a way to kill Garfield and I really was hoping so don’t misunderstand I really like this novel but subaru self hatred became a problem and he became too submissive for my liking and that’s happened because of the twin maid in arc 2 they break him and he became like that especially ram bitch gets on my nerves.
        I started regretting reading this novel after this the MC turning to a pussy forgiving every one is just dosen’t make any sense anymore.

        1. Well, it does make sense to me. [Heroic complex] and [Heroic responsibility] can very much develop in a person who has a chance to observe others from multiple angles, being on their bad and good sides, and “replay” the events. There are people who prefer playing an RPG as a saint, making every possible right choice and minimizing the damage, as well as there are those who find fun in playing as they please being ultimate scumbag.

          1. Well I don’t mind being the scumbag if it means I won’t let others trample on me and my dignity like a human by daying like a DOG for an incompetent (ram rem ) and hypocrites (emilia and the cat spirit) people my heart is weak and of course we can’t forget those witches or rather the bitches especially satela and echidna who choose to kidnap and play with a 17 years dumb kid.

          2. Well I don’t mind being the scumbag if it means I won’t let others trample on me and my dignity like a human by daying like a DOG for an incompetent (ram rem ) and hypocrites (emilia and the cat spirit) people my heart is weak and of course we can’t forget those witches or rather the bitches especially satela and echidna who choose to kidnap and play with a 17 years dumb kid.

        2. He’s not forgiving everyone. He forgave Rui because, despite what she did to him and to Rem, and despite being a Sin Archbishop before her mind was shattered, she never stopped trying to protect them, and those they care about, from the minute she was given life. He forgave Meili because her Mama the Unholy Princess Sin Archbishop of Lust Capella Emerada Lugunica was a far worse threat, and would do far worse to Meili than Subaru or the law ever could. He forgave Ram & Rem because they were just trying to protect Emilia and the others. He forgave Garfiel and Otto because they weren’t really bad people. They were just scared. Todd may be a bad person but he’s scared too. I do not expect him to forgive the aforementioned Unholy Princess or Pandora, or Sphinx, or some of the truly pure evil characters,

      2. Her name is Utakata, & I agree. Subaru will kill pure evil, or choose not to save it, but the reason Todd scares him, is because Todd is damn near pure evil, but he’s still just a man, and just as afraid of Subaru, and Subaru doesn’t know how to deal with that. He’s not on the level of the Unholy Princess Sin Archbishop of Lust Capella Emerada Lugunica or Pandora, or the other enemies Subaru faced where he could easily decide that they don’t need or want to be saved. Todd is different. He’s just a scared man trying to protect himself and the girl he loves from a world that sees him as a plague upon their nation. He can’t just say he doesn’t deserve to be saved. Also, he didn’t use Return by Death, because there was no guarantee where he would end up, and because he passed out before he could try. You’re right.

  15. Subaru and Todd relationship was one that because of their opposite ways to see the world and people started to mistrust each other. That mistrusting made a misunderstanding between them that at the same time finished with a death battle because at this point neither really wanted to undersantd each other (well Subaru tried a bit but also it was not enough also because Todd is some strange person, even trying to understand his point of view).

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